Ok, so, I can't ask for forgiveness from others until I have asked for forgiveness myself. See, crawling, yes, I am capable of asking for help and forgiveness. I am not GOD. Thankfully for everyone else....
I believe this will be a cathartic experience. However, I have done some truly terrible things in my past but I am guessing others out there have done worse. Well I'm tipping all of my dirty laundry out on the floor for you to see right now.
You can read this and make the choice whether to kill me, or to forgive me. If you kill me, you all get lifelong protection from TEAM PENDRAGON. If you forgive me, I get to go free. I'm so tired now that I can't do anymore, it's up to you, I'm past caring. Look at my profile, if you know who I am, look at my facebook page, see who I am.
So thumbs up, or thumbs down - it's PAYBACK TIME!!!
Bad things I have done........
Age 1 - Ate sh*t. With a nappy pin apparently......
Age 3 - Did an enormous sh*t on my hygenically phobic Grandmother's lap
Age 5 - Locked all of the infants toilets from the inside out to try and make everyone wet themselves
Age 9 - Put beer cans in the toilets and told everyone that the dinner ladies were alcoholics.
Age 10 - Tried to set fire to the school staffroom with a lighter and a can of WD40
Age 11 - Stood in the the middle of the school hall in from of the entire school telling the head teacher to F off and that he couldn't MAKE me do anything....
Age 12 - Put a cat down a well (a very shallow well, it could get back out). However, my sick intention was to freak my brother out.
Age 13 - Got drunk in the school toilets and after rolling down a full flight of stairs, fell asleep in the flowerbeds outside.
Age 14 - Lost my virginity to a boy that I didn't care about in a spider infested toilet. Yes I am one classy girl....
Age 15 - Put by best friend in a neck brace by kicking her arse and then gloated about it. She DID NOT deserve this
Age 16 - Dislocated my dad's shoulder after pushing him into the kitchen worktop during an argument
Age 17 to 32. Numerous affairs, mainly with people I didn't love and certainly didn't fancy or even like all that much. Tortured every man I have ever been with because I didn't really love them...
Age 18 - Told a lovely little man to f off when he asked to buy me a drink. I soooo wish I coud find him.
Age 19 - Had an abortion after getting drunk and having unprotected sex (as per usual)
Age 20 - Stole money. Or anything else I could get my hands on.
Age 21 - Got pregnant by accident
Age 22 - Got pregnant by accident (again)
Age 23-25 Spent my entire life looking in the mirror, throwing up and ignoring my children
Age 25 - Left my children's father for an absolute WANKER.
Age 26 - 30. Went to the DARK SIDE. Ran up loads of debt, totally materialistic, spoilt, selfish, nasty piece of work. Hated other women, was jealous of girls who were prettier than me.Helped to break someone so far that they killed themselves. This won't ever leave me.
Age 30 - Left the WANKER. What goes around comes around.
Age 31 - Was helped to start to see what I had been doing
Age 31.5 - fell back down the dark hole and did a truly terrible thing, the greatest betrayal of all. I hurt the pet of someone I love dearly because it kept trying to get in my space. There are reasons but no excuses.
Age 32 - Saw the light.
It's up to you. I'm done.
So thumbs up, or thumbs down
Cat xxx
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it always starts with youself but glad to see you are brave enough to bring all this to the open. It's not so necessary to share so many intimate details like that but kudos to you ..........................