This is a time of great clearing and sometimes we do not have one iota of a clue as to what is going to be brought up. For instance, my dad just died and left the family in a great big mess. While going thru some of his papers I found an email address of a cousin of mine. I thought that I would just drop him a line saying my dad was dead, I didn't know what was what yet and did not have the income to just up and cremate him but I was not willing to put him on welfare just to dispose of his remains. The response I got was a hellish number of accusatory emails. My dad's prostate cancer could not have returned, I was a psychopathic liar and had gambled my dad's fortunes away (I wrote an entertainment and slot view of Tahoe and Reno) because his sister whom I had not seen for 35 years had seen me at the tables with a drink in hand in Vegas, Tahoe and/or Reno so I had been caught red-handed. Yeah, right, I do not drink nor do I play the table games nor do I hang around the tables... but nothing I could say or do would make him listen. He even accused me of leaving my mom in a mortuary since Sept. 25 of 2010! He told me I was adopted and even told me that :your adopted father's real name was James but he wanted everyone to call him Lynn" like I did not even know my dad's name. Now he is paying for the whole cremation, but really, where tf was this little short shit ex marine mf for the last 48 years of my life? Evidently my dad took his knowledge with him, but I had lab tests done at the same time this all started, which was the Monday after Easter, and my doctor point blank asked me wtf happened on that Monday in particular because my lab results were all over the place. On top of that, my dad was found to have even the birth certificate and letters of a Korean war Captain who was Korean and we do not know why. Perhaps my jackass cuz can fill us in but in the process of cleaning and cleansing, I am going to wait for the cremation to take place. Remember, you may think you know what will be brought up for inspection and disposal. But no matter what you prepare for or how you prepare for the unknown... Life is still the living master and while you may hold the keys you still have not put the key in the lock nor have you turned it!
It is closer than you think. Like the salt spray in the air from a storm, it is that close.
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Brightest Blessing Ms. Happy, wow what an awful lot to swallow, in such a short time. I do agree that we do not know what is going to come up and out. There seem no way to prepare, except to expect the unexpected. Remain Calm, centered, and in a place of love, as much as we possibly can. It is important not to stuff what is coming up, it only adds to what is coming up next!
Loving, healing light your way, Valerie
This is a time of great clearing and sometimes we do not have one iota of a clue as to what is going to be brought up. For instance, my dad just died and left the family in a great big mess. While going thru some of his papers I found an email address of a cousin of mine. I thought that I would just drop him a line saying my dad was dead, I didn't know what was what yet and did not have the income to just up and cremate him but I was not willing to put him on welfare just to dispose of his remains. The response I got was a hellish number of accusatory emails. My dad's prostate cancer could not have returned, I was a psychopathic liar and had gambled my dad's fortunes away (I wrote an entertainment and slot view of Tahoe and Reno) because his sister whom I had not seen for 35 years had seen me at the tables with a drink in hand in Vegas, Tahoe and/or Reno so I had been caught red-handed. Yeah, right, I do not drink nor do I play the table games nor do I hang around the tables... but nothing I could say or do would make him listen. He even accused me of leaving my mom in a mortuary since Sept. 25 of 2010! He told me I was adopted and even told me that ":your adopted father's real name was James but he wanted everyone to call him Lynn" like I did not even know my dad's name. Now he is paying for the whole cremation, but really, where tf was this little short shit ex marine mf for the last 48 years of my life? Evidently my dad took his knowledge with him, but I had lab tests done at the same time this all started, which was the Monday after Easter, and my doctor point blank asked me wtf happened on that Monday in particular because my lab results were all over the place. On top of that, my dad was found to have even the birth certificate and letters of a Korean war Captain who was Korean and we do not know why. Perhaps my jackass cuz can fill us in but in the process of cleaning and cleansing, I am going to wait for the cremation to take place. Remember, you may think you know what will be brought up for inspection and disposal. But no matter what you prepare for or how you prepare for the unknown... Life is still the living master and while you may hold the keys you still have not put the key in the lock nor have you turned it!
It is closer than you think. Like the salt spray in the air from a storm, it is that close.