Do not fall into the trap of martyrdom that is set for the waylaid into false teaching. christ was murdered, whether fictionally or historically and this is so people who fall for the manipulative parts in any religion, will believe it is the truth that they copy the murder of christ that is taught to be ordained by god. IF god meant for his only son to die, it was for us to learn how we kill the good things in the world, through becoming a mental and spiritual slave to the demonic manipulators. Death of the mind, becoming a zombie, giving up, these are all forms of the soul death they want for all humanity. You need to be in balance with the simplest truth, to do good things and to know and speak of the good possibilities. Every single thing that is a manipulation is designed to narrow your greater awareness and connection to the spiritual reality. Hold firm and strong to your life and know that only another could ever end your life and for that to happen is not martyrdom, is not even tragedy as you will have transcended this physical reality with the full knowledge of the ultimate positivity of the universe. the entire creation is inside you actualizing itself the only way it can, through the drip feed of our pineal gland. Do not look at all of the sand in the hourglass and ever expect all of it to fall through at once, life is about moments of simple truth, building upon each other consecutively and accumulative until we have manifested the complete divine reality, a heaven on earth made of every human simply not wishing any negative for any other, ever again.