CHAPTER XXX. .
THE PERMANENT CENTER OF GRAVITY
Without true individuality, continuity of purpose is impossible.
If the psychological individual doesn't exist, if many people live within each of us, if there is no responsible subject, it would be absurd to demand continuity of purpose from anyone.
We know very well that many people live within one person, so the full sense of responsibility doesn't truly exist within us.
What a particular "I" affirms at a given moment cannot be taken seriously due to the concrete fact that any other "I" can affirm the exact opposite at any other time.
The serious thing about all this is that many people believe they possess a sense of moral responsibility and deceive themselves by claiming to always be the same.
There are people who, at any moment in their lives, come to Gnostic studies, radiate with the force of longing, become enthusiastic about esoteric work, and even swear to dedicate their entire existence to these matters.
One cannot help but feel great joy upon hearing such devoted and undeniably sincere people speak.
However, this idyll doesn't last long. One day, for one reason or another, just or unjust, simple or complicated, the person withdraws from Gnosis, abandons the work, and to right the wrong, or trying to justify themselves, joins some other mystical organization, thinking they are now better off.
All this coming and going, this incessant changing of schools, sects, and religions, is due to the multiplicity of egos within us that struggle among themselves for supremacy.
Since each ego possesses its own criteria, its own mind, its own ideas, this change of opinion, this constant fluctuation from one organization to another, from one ideal to the next, is perfectly normal.
The individual, in and of themselves, is nothing more than a machine that serves as a vehicle for one ego, and then for another. Some mystical selves deceive themselves; after leaving one sect or another, they decide to believe they are gods, they shine like will-o'-the-wisps, and finally they disappear.
There are people who briefly dabble in esoteric work, and then, the moment another ego intervenes, they abandon these studies altogether and allow themselves to be swallowed up by life.
Since a multitude of egos exist within us, a permanent center of gravity is impossible.
It's only natural that not everyone achieves profound self-realization. We know that the intimate self-realization of the being requires continuity of purpose, and since it's very difficult to find someone with a permanent center of gravity, it's not surprising that it's rare for someone to reach deep inner self-realization.
It's normal for someone to become enthusiastic about esoteric work and then abandon it; what's unusual is for someone not to abandon the work and to reach the goal.
Certainly, and in the name of truth, we affirm that the Sun is conducting a very complicated and terribly difficult laboratory experiment.
Within the intellectual animal mistakenly called man, there exist germs that, if properly developed, can become Solar men.
However, it is worth clarifying that it is not certain that these germs will develop; normally, they degenerate and are unfortunately lost.
In any case, the aforementioned germs that are to transform us into Solar men need a suitable environment, for it is well known that a seed in a sterile medium does not germinate; it perishes.
For the true seed of man, deposited in our sexual glands, to germinate, continuity of purpose and a normal physical body are necessary.
If scientists continue experimenting with the endocrine glands, any possibility of the development of the aforementioned germs may be lost.
If we do not work on ourselves, we will regress and degenerate appallingly.
The experiment the Sun is conducting in nature's laboratory, besides being difficult, has certainly yielded very few results.
Creating Solar beings is only possible when true cooperation exists within each of us.
The creation of Solar beings is impossible if we do not first establish a permanent center of gravity within ourselves.
How could we have continuity of purpose if we do not establish this center of gravity in our psyche?
Any race created by the Sun certainly has no other objective in nature than to serve the interests of this creation and the Solar experiment.
If the Sun fails in its experiment, it loses all interest in such a race, and it is, in fact, condemned to destruction and involution.
Each of the races that have existed on the face of the Earth has served the Solar experiment. From each race, the Sun has achieved some triumphs, reaping small groups of Solar beings.
When a race has borne fruit, it gradually disappears or perishes violently through great catastrophes. The creation of Solar men is possible when one strives to become independent of lunar forces. There is no doubt that all these selves we carry within our psyche are exclusively lunar in nature.
It would be impossible to free ourselves from lunar influence if we did not first establish a permanent center of gravity within ourselves.
How could we dissolve the entirety of the pluralized ego if we lack continuity of purpose? How could we have continuity of purpose without having first established a permanent center of gravity in our psyche?
Since the current race, instead of becoming independent of lunar influence, has lost all interest in Solar intelligence, it has unquestionably condemned itself to involution and degeneration.
It is not possible for true humanity to emerge through evolutionary mechanics. We know well that evolution and its twin sister, involution, are merely two laws that constitute the mechanical axis of all nature. Evolution occurs up to a perfectly defined point, and then the involutionary process begins; every rise is followed by a fall, and vice versa. ( physically Speacking).
We are merely machines controlled by different egos. We serve the economy of nature; we do not possess a defined individuality, as many pseudo-esotericists and pseudo-occultists mistakenly assume.
We urgently need to change so that the seeds of humanity may bear fruit.
Only by working on ourselves with true continuity of purpose and a complete sense of moral responsibility can we become Solar beings. This implies dedicating our entire existence to esoteric work on ourselves.
Those who hope to reach the Solar state through the mechanics of evolution are deceiving themselves and, in fact, condemning themselves to involutive degeneration.
In esoteric work, we cannot afford to be fickle; those with shifting ideas, those who work on their psyche today and allow themselves to be swallowed up by life tomorrow, those who seek evasions and justifications to abandon esoteric work will degenerate and regress.
Some postpone their mistakes, leaving everything for tomorrow while they improve their financial situation, without considering that the Solar experiment is something very different from their personal opinions and their well-known plans.
It's not so easy to become a Solar man when we carry the Moon within us (the Ego is lunar).
The Earth has two moons; the second one is called Lilith and is located a little farther away than the white moon.
Astronomers often see Lilith as a lentil because it is very small. That is the black moon.
The most sinister forces of the Ego reach Earth from Lilith and produce subhuman and bestial psychological results.
The crimes of the tabloids, the most monstrous murders in history, the most unsuspected crimes, etc., etc., etc., are due to Lilith's vibrational waves.
The double lunar influence, represented in human beings by the Ego they carry within, makes us a true failure.
If we do not see the urgency of dedicating our entire existence to working on ourselves in order to free ourselves from the double lunar force, we will end up swallowed by the Moon, regressing, degenerating more and more into certain states that we could well describe as unconscious and subconscious.
The serious thing about all this is that we do not possess true individuality. If we had a permanent center of gravity, we would truly work seriously until we achieved the Solar state. There are so many excuses surrounding these matters, so many evasions, so many fascinating attractions, that it often becomes almost impossible to grasp the urgency of esoteric work.
However, with the margin of free will we possess, along with the Gnostic teachings geared toward practical work, could serve as a foundation for our noble purposes related to the Solar experiment.
The fickle mind doesn't understand what we're saying here; it reads this chapter and then forgets it. Another book comes along, and another, and in the end, we end up joining any institution that sells us a passport to heaven, that speaks to us in a more optimistic light, that assures us of comforts in the afterlife.
That's how people are: mere puppets controlled by invisible strings, mechanical dolls with fickle ideas and no continuity of purpose.
CHAPTER XXXI.
THE GNOSTIC ESOTERIC WORK
It is urgent to study Gnosis and use the practical ideas presented in this work to work seriously on oneself.
However, we cannot work on ourselves with the intention of dissolving this or that "I" without having observed it beforehand.
Self-observation allows a ray of light to penetrate our interior.
Any "I" expresses itself in the head in one way, in the heart in another, and in the genitals in yet another.
We need to observe the "I" that we find trapped at any given moment; it is urgent to see it in each of these three centers of our organism.
In relation to other people, if we are alert and vigilant like a sentry in times of war, we discover ourselves.
Do you remember when your vanity was wounded? Your pride? What upset you most during the day? Why did you feel that upset? What was its secret cause? Study this, observe your head, heart, and sexuality... Practical life is a wonderful school; in our interactions, we can discover those I"s" we carry within us.
Any setback, any incident, can lead us, through intimate self-observation, to the discovery of an "I," be it self-love, envy, jealousy, anger, greed, suspicion, slander, lust, etc., etc., etc.
We need to know ourselves before we can know others. It is urgent to learn to see things from another's point of view.
If we put ourselves in others' shoes, we discover that the psychological defects we attribute to others are abundant within ourselves. Loving one's neighbor is essential, but one cannot truly love others without first learning to empathize with them in esoteric practice.
Cruelty will continue to exist on the face of the earth until we have learned to put ourselves in others' shoes.
But if one lacks the courage to see oneself, how can one empathize with others?
Why should we see only the negative aspects of other people?
A mechanical antipathy towards someone we've just met indicates that we don't know how to put ourselves in their shoes, that we don't love our neighbor, that our conscience is too dormant.
Do we find a certain person very unlikeable? Why? Perhaps they drink? Let's examine ourselves... Are we sure of our own virtue? Are we sure we aren't carrying within us the "self" of drunkenness?
It would be better if, upon seeing a drunkard acting foolishly, we said: "That's me, what a fool I am." You are an honest and virtuous woman, and that's why you dislike a certain lady; you feel antipathy towards her. Why? Are you very self-assured? Do you believe that within you there is no lustful "I"? Do you think that this lady, discredited by her scandals and lasciviousness, is perverse? Are you sure that the lust and perversity you see in that woman do not exist within you? It would be better if you observed yourself intimately and, in deep meditation, took the place of that woman you abhor. It is urgent to value the esoteric Gnostic work; it is essential to understand and appreciate it if we truly yearn for radical change. It is essential to know how to love our fellow human beings, to study Gnosis, and to bring this teaching to all people; otherwise, we will fall into selfishness. If one dedicates oneself to the esoteric work oneself, but he doesn't share the teachings with others; his inner progress becomes very difficult due to a lack of love for his neighbor.
"Whoever gives will receive, and the more they give, the more they will receive; but from whoever gives nothing, even what they have will be taken away." That is the Law.
CHAPTER XXXII
PRAYER AT WORK
Observation, Judgment, and Execution are the three basic factors of dissolution. First: one observes. Second: one judge . Third: one executes.
Spies in war are first observed; second, they are judge; third, they are shot.
In interrelation, there is self-discovery and self-revelation. Whoever renounces coexistence with their fellow human beings also renounces self-discovery.
Any incident in life, however insignificant it may seem, undoubtedly has as its cause an intimate actor within us, a psychic aggregate, an "I."
Self-discovery is possible when we find ourselves in a state of alert perception, alert novelty.
The "I," caught red-handed, must be carefully observed in our brain, heart, and sexuality.
Any lustful ego might manifest in the heart as love, in the brain as an ideal, but by focusing on sex, we would feel a certain unmistakable morbid excitement.
The judgment of any ego must be definitive. We need to put it in the dock and judge it mercilessly.
Any evasion, justification, or consideration must be eliminated if we truly want to become aware of the ego we long to eradicate from our psyche.
Execution is different; it wouldn't be possible to execute any ego without having previously observed and judged it.
Prayer in psychological work is fundamental for dissolution. We need a power superior to the mind if we truly wish to disintegrate any ego.
The mind by itself could never disintegrate any ego; this is irrefutable.
To pray is to converse with God. We must appeal to God the Mother in our innermost being if we truly wish to disintegrate the ego. He who does not love his Mother, the ungrateful child, will fail in the work on himself.
Each of us has our own particular, individual Divine Mother; she, in herself, is a part of our own Being, but a derivative one.
All ancient peoples worshipped "God the Mother" in the deepest part of our Being. The feminine principle of the Eternal is Isis, Mary, Tonantzin, Cybele, Rhea, Adonia, Insoberta, etc., etc., etc.
If in the merely physical realm we have a father and a mother, in the deepest part of our Being we also have our Father who is in secret and our Divine Mother Kundalini.
There are as many Fathers in Heaven as there are people on earth. God the Mother in our own intimacy is the feminine aspect of our Father who is in secret.
He and She are certainly the two higher parts of our innermost Being. Undoubtedly, He and She are our very Real Being beyond the "I" of Psychology.
He unfolds in Her and commands, directs, and instructs. She eliminates the undesirable elements that we carry within us, provided we continually work on ourselves.
When we have died radically, when all undesirable elements have been eliminated after much conscious work and voluntary suffering, we will merge and integrate with the "FATHER-MOTHER." Then we will be terribly divine Gods, beyond good and evil.
Our particular, individual Divine Mother, through her fiery powers, can reduce to cosmic dust any of those many "I's" that has been previously observed and judged.( and comprehended through deep meditation)
In no way is a specific formula necessary to pray to our inner Divine Mother. We must be very natural and simple when addressing HER. The child who speaks to his mother never has special formulas; he says what comes from his heart, and that is all.
No "I" dissolves instantly; our Divine Mother must work and even suffer greatly before achieving the annihilation of any "I."
Become introverted, direct your prayer inward, seeking within yourselves your Divine Lady, and speak to her with sincere supplications. Beg her to disintegrate that "I" which you have previously observed and judged.
The sense of intimate self-observation, as it develops, will allow you to verify the progressive advancement of your work.
Understanding and discernment are fundamental; however, something more is needed if we truly wish to disintegrate the "I."
The mind can afford to label any defect, transfer it from one department to another, display it, hide it, etc., but it can never fundamentally alter it.
A special power, superior to the mind, is needed—a fiery power capable of reducing any defect to ashes. Stella Maris, our Divine Mother, possesses this power; she can pulverize any psychological defect. Our Divine Mother dwells within us, beyond the body, emotions, and mind. She herself is a fiery power superior to the mind. Our particular, individual Cosmic Mother possesses Wisdom, Love, and Power. In her, absolute perfection exists.
Good intentions and their constant repetition are useless; they lead nowhere. It would be pointless to repeat, "I will not be lustful"; the egos of lust will still exist in the very depths of our psyche. It would be pointless to repeat daily, "I will no longer be angry." The egos of anger will still exist in our psychological depths. It would be pointless to say daily, "I will no longer be greedy." The "selves" of greed would continue to exist in the various depths of our psyche.
It would be useless to withdraw from the world and shut ourselves away in a convent or live in a cave; the "selves", the egos within us would continue to exist. Some cave-dwelling anchorites, through rigorous discipline, reached the ecstasy of saints and were taken to heaven, where they saw and heard things beyond human comprehension; however, the "selves" continued to exist within them. Undoubtedly, the Essence can escape the "i" through rigorous discipline and experience ecstasy; however, after this bliss, it returns to the interior of the "ego." Those who have become accustomed to ecstasy without having dissolved the "Ego" believe they have already achieved liberation. They deceive themselves into believing they are Masters and even enter into submerged Involution.
We would never speak out against mystical rapture, against ecstasy and the happiness of the Soul in the absence of the EGO. We only wish to emphasize the need to dissolve "I's" to achieve final liberation.
The Essence of any disciplined anchorite, accustomed to escaping the "I," repeats this feat after the death of the physical body, enjoys ecstasy for a time, and then returns like the Genie in Aladdin's lamp to the inside of the bottle, to the Ego, to the Self. then returns like the Genie in Aladdin's lamp to the inside of the bottle, to the Ego, to the I.
Then they have no choice but to return to a new physical body, with the purpose of repeating their life on the stage of existence. Many mystics who passed away in the caves of the Himalayas, in Central Asia, are now ordinary, common people in this world, even though their followers still adore and venerate them.
Any attempt at liberation, however grand, if it does not take into account the need to dissolve the Ego, is doomed to failure.
Samael Aun Weor-Kalki Avatar of the of the Aquarius Age
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