I managed to get out shopping today after two nights of intense energy shaking - it was almost scary as I didn't know what to do, nothing helped. Feet in water, 2 am night walk, homeopathy and the like, nothing calmed me down. Eventually early this am I pleaded for peace and had two hours' sleep.  So was able to get out to the local supermarket for basics. I was out of milk, bread, cheese and eggs.  

Having  been very ill for the last six years in my bungalow which, fortunately, is warm, safe and quiet, I have had to learn to be extremely resourceful.  I only have a small fridge and freezer which doesn't hold a great deal but I have to make sure the store cupboard is stocked up and there are basic proteins and plenty of eggs.  I don't usually have much energy for making soups (which I  love) but have to really do the best I can with rice (instant stuff) and pasta. There isn't much of a choice in this small market town, only one small supermarket. others with more choice are 15 miles away and I have to drive, park up and then walk (something I can't do too much of)  Would mention here that I have fibromyalgia and other stuff - I feel somewhat angry about this as just as I was beginning to get my life together after a divorce, along comes the illness - a sign of stress I supose, so, to get back to the resourcefulness I am very proud of myself that I only need to really go out once a week.

I have no one to help me but recently (due to the co-virus situation) there is help from a local shop who will deliver. A supermarket tried (UK Morrisons) delivered alright, but the groceries were not in bags and the driver suggested I just unload it onto the front porch!  not sure why this is a new venture, but I found some bags, gave him some and said "get packing! i do get frustrated though as I have tastes which the local poplace don't enjoy. Chai tea (mm) unusual veg and fruit (supermarkets sell it in such huge packs that I avoid it, as I waste a lot) so the local outdoor market is the best bet if I can get there, do the standing and park up without too much hassle.

I have also learnt how to not waste a single thing. I turn bottles and jars upside down to get the last drops/mixture out then save the jars. Bread, even the end crusts I manage to make into a slice - it is quite a challenge but interesting too.  A master once explained about the Law of Economy - how to not waste a single thing. To not put onto your plate when you don't need; to not over stock, to not over order - to literally waste not want not.  I suppose that having been brought up during the war when there were no supermarkets, mother had to queue for everything which was hard to find. We only were allowed one egg per week, no sugar (not a bad thing) and very little fruit as supply ships weren't able to deliver to our island.  So I guess its in built in me to be resourceful in every way - I rarely throw anything out - the birds don't get very much and I'm aware that my diet is lacking in fresh stuff however, I am surviving on very little and could probably write a book for meals for one!!

Value everything down to the smallest gift from the earth spirit!  blessings Beth