I think the first time I ever posted on Ashtar Command was in 2007, and then it changed to Ashar Command Crew in 2009 I think. So much has changed in these 9 years it trips me out thinking about how fast the time went by. I've been struggling the entire time so it all kind of blurs together and seems like just yesterday I got started on my journey to conscious awakening.
I was living in an apartment under my Mom's house rent free, I had a cool job a cool girlfriend and m life was set. I would just smoke weed and chill at night, make music, research ufo's, consciousness and other trippy things online. I would go and chill with my bro Andrew and go hit the Marin Headlands to smoke weed and talk about aliens, government coverups, mushrooms and dmt. I had nothing to worry about, as free as a bird. If only I had known all the bad choices I would make I would have stopped myself before it got bad. Luckily I pulled out and I'm doing good again with my own business but I'm 29 now and fee like I wasted a good 5-6 years. My mom eventually kicked me out and things got bad in terms on living and jobs for a long time.
I miss those days though, of smoking weed while the morning fog covered my house and surfing Ashtar Command, nothing to worry about but driving to San Francisco to smoke weed and hang out.
I'll be 30 in a few months and I feel like a completely different person. I would do anything to go back to being 21 again but things in the long run are going to work out really well so it's all good.