FRIENDS,it is a time of reflections, walk-a bouts and vision quests .Old earth is the school of communication and learning to be a student teacher and then master. but before we can become a master teacher we have to become a master student. And this is a real art and takes great practice. I noticed myself that I tend to read channeled material before I read human material, and its the same for those who read my spiritual blogs. I have more hits on my world news than my spiritual ones. I believe the reason is ''the ego''. the ego gets in the way of many a good writing. So I will attempt to write with the help of the Holy Spirit instead of the ego. So bare with me here as I become your humble servant in sending you my thoughts. I respect your concern to judge all material coming into your mind. This is just my way of seeing things and I want to share them with you, in a way that your ego will not attack them. This is called HEART FELT OR HEART SPEAKS. I will try to speak from my heart to yours,OK .My intention is to empower you, to up lift you.This is my gift to you and as we give so shall we receive. we are all one.

 When we first start out in our reflections of self, we needed time out to go walk about and reflect to a  agree. And when we want to take that a bit further we call that a VISION QUEST. By a bit further I mean we go and ask our spirit-guides to come and help us to reach the next level of attainment or understanding, from where we are now in our schooling. We often start by asking our-self the age old questions of ;Who am I?Where did I come from? Why am I here?, what is my purpose? and where am I going to.We have asked these things to yourself many times over many years and we keep getting new answers as we grow towards awakening and enlightenment. And what is enlightenment but the knowing of what and who you are at all times . this is called being in the holy instant now moment. But even so we will always wish to grow and to know more.First we often look outside of our-selfs to others ''who are in the knowing'' or so they say. And we take a piece of this info that we wish to call truths and this bite lasts us awhile and then we are hungry again. So we take another bite, then we change teachers to see if we can get more out of what is being feed to us as truths. But we soon learn that ''Truths'' keep changing according to who is telling them. So then we must go inside our-self's to find the real truths.

These ''truths'' only present them self's when we  apply the keys of the'' kingdom of god'' within us. That is prayer, meditation and worship. And there are many types of all of these, what ever works for you is the right one.Prayer is when we talk to God, outside and the one inside called the higher self. There are hundreds of kinds of mediation but basically it is learning to still the mind.So that after you have spoken to god, then you learn to be quiet so you can hear his answer. And worship too is basically giving thanks for what enlightenment who have received from the source, mostly its indirectly received by oneself, and not very loud because the God source is on the other side of the Vail. So we then start searching in a different way so that we can access god directly. This begins to happen when we learn not to ask so much of the material world which is a illusion anyway. Which means we need to go to the higher self God and ask for such things as Peace, Joy, Happiness and Health. These are emotional things that cause a response in our inner psychic.This leads us back again to the questions we spoke of before.

Except now we are asking the Holy Spirit to be our guide or who ever you want, to the higher self or God within. When we see him as our higher self but still realizing that he is a fragmentation of the original God. We then accept our-self's as a Son of the same God. And as a son of God that means we are baby Gods, right,and as Baby Gods that means we are a part of God and or that we came from God.And what is God but pure thought and love energy. So we are a extension of this pure thought Love energy. As part of God within must also have some of his attributes,most of which are laying dormant until we are old enough and wise enough to use them. But we do understand that we are co-creators and that we will evolve back to the mind that created us in the first place. but before we can do that ,we have to learn '' perfection'' and that will take a life time which is millions of lives as we play the game of birth and death. Of course we never really die, unless we really, really get off course on the path of evil, then we can be recycled.

 So how are we doing so far, you understand that this is just my view and my truths. Meaning its the way that I see life. Anyway this is a nice play ground so lets go a bit further. Now that I am part of God an extension of himself as thought materialized into material form in this playground we call the universe then we can play God for a little while if we want to as long as we realize that we didn't create yourself but that we are a extension of his thought.We play God when we learn to re-create. After all he creates and we re-create.We can re-create the world around us but that is done in a group effect called cosmic consciousness.We soon learn that we are all connected by thought and as God is pure thought then that means to me that we are all family. each one of us a small thought or part of God, who has separated himself into individual beings ,all choosing our own way back home. This group re-creating thing can get qiute heavy unless we all learn how to communicate.that's why we are here on this planet earth, to learn how to get along, to exchange our views from are hearts instead of our minds ,because the ego that is not trained nor controlled can and does run a muck.

The Ego wants to attack any one who has a better or different view of things. He feels threatened and of course he should because he is not in control here , we are, or should be. So for me I had to learn to control the Ego and put him in his place. I did this through the teachings of Jesus through  the book'' a course in Miracles''. but there are others out there that will work.Once we have done that and can speak from the heart then we have begun to communicate with the other God beings or fragments of God we call our brother as we are all sons of God. So what is it that we want to tell our brothers, we can't tell them that we have found the answers or the truths of life. We can only tell them about our trip and how we got here , where ever here is and how its going with us.But of course when people ask us how it is going they don't mean the inner world, they mean the outer world. And if you tell them the truth they often turn away. So we just say, things are ok, weather they are or not.

What most people really don;t want to do is go inside of themselves. They are afraid of what they are going to find but as light workers we must go inside yourself to face the Demons within. Everyone has skeletons in there closet and they don't want to bring them out. But how else are we going to learn to communicate from the heart if it is not free of the mind and the KARMA that has been created by oneself and the ego.People cannot be there real self if they don't know who the real self is because we are hiding behind all the emotions of sorrow ,pain guilt and shame, that we have buried deep.We often ask God to take care of them but he can't and wont do it for us. that is why we have free will.So that we can make mistakes and then learn from them. Of course there are better ways to learn and less painful, but we can't get there from here, as they say. So that when we do decide to go inside our little kingdom. We often find that it is oneself that is the judge,guard and the warden that can pardon us. In other words we have passed judgement on others ,so we have passed them on yourself. If we judge another , then in reality we are judging our-self.

When we forgive the other person then we are forgiving yourself , then they are released and so are we at the same time. the Karma effect is gone. But of course there are more and more. We have piled a lifetime of sorrow and pain inside, that must be released by Forgiveness. And  then we must go deeper, what about all the people that we have hurt and the grand judgement on yourself?This is also called getting your house in order. And we are just as hard a judge on yourself or even harder that we are on others. And along with all of this we have learned to punish yourself same as we believe others should be punished. And once again Forgiveness comes to the rescue. FORGIVENESS was truly the hardest thing I have ever had to learn in my many lifetimes . It just wasn't tought to me. Many of us had this problem in life, we didn't know how to forgive and then to let go. That's where the Holy Spirit comes in. When you can't handle it , just ask him to take it for you until you can. And if the Ego keeps coming around and he will , you can also ask the Holy Spirit to take care of him as well. I ask him to bind the Ego up tightly so he can do no harm .And It is done! ADONAI                                        continued in part 2