Growing Pains...

Is this Real or does it matter? I say yes and yes even though it’s made me feel “crazy”. I’m in a great deal of physical pain as my spirit soars so what’s up with that? I’m so Happy that there have been so many to turn to even though I’ve felt quite “alone” in this process. I guess it’s an individual journey but I’m also realizing that it’s because each of us has a role to play and it’s up to us individually to remember what that role is. I met my higher self back in August and it was pretty confusing because she was sitting up in the clouds with the Angels. Ever since I saw them (and “her”) I’ve been on a great quest to make sense of what I saw and felt on those 2 nights when I woke up so spontaneously. It’s as if I don’t Live “here” anymore but yet “reality” still goes on around me…and on, and on, and on. I feel different but I also feel as if I’ve been doing everything the same – except this writing thing, of course. As a matter of fact, once this “awakening” went down I figured I was good to go in the world and things would finally come to fruition in terms of stresses that have been in my Life for quite some time. When these things didn’t happen right away I felt a bit “abandoned” but I came to find out I just had some more “work” to do, on myself. There is no doubt in my mind that there is a purpose for my waking up but when I couldn’t see or feel it I became a bit frustrated, especially as this reality I speak of kept closing in on me. There were times that I even began to feel claustrophobic in my own body which was a very new sensation for me and not very “comfortable”. I know many are struggling with these ups and downs and I’ve learned a few things about this so I thought I would share. I was “told” some things the night I woke up and I’ve also stumbled along the way but I have embraced this process with everything that I AM and it hasn’t been easy in light of my financial situation and the reality that I speak of.So, one thing I’ve learned is “don’t be confined by reality” and this makes sense to me given what I would call the “denseness” of it. I began to walk on air when I woke up and I figured that would just continue as I made my way “out there” but I was wrong. I came to find that I was even more sensitive than before which was very confusing. I mean I felt Seen and Loved by my Creator who whispered sweet words of Love, Happiness, Peace, and Light from now on so where were these things I was expecting to find “out there”? I found a job and was laid off the very next day and so I kept looking to no avail. My husband’s last 3 jobs went down like this – he worked and worked and then didn’t get PAID! I’m not kidding you…he’s still waiting to get paid for a job he did over 6 weeks ago. It would be easy to be angry and we have but we’ve had to learn to let go of the things we can’t control and this is one of them. It’s really out of our hands and I believe it’s out of ALL of our hands other than focusing on our own “realities”. I came to find that there is a reason behind that and it’s because that is not our path or purpose anymore, in a sense. It seems that having been “touched” by this Divine Energy I was also being looked after whether I realized it or not. So, as the bills are piling up and reality is closing in I’m trying not to stress out about it and See the bigger picture here but sometimes I can’t. What I do know is that there are little miracles that keep happening, like no matter how “hard” it gets there is always just enough or more to get by for now. So this has taught me to have Faith. It has taught me to have Faith that I AM being looked after and cared for so that I have this time to heal and embrace this Light, Love, and Energy that is being poured into me and sometimes causes me great discomfort both physically and mentally. Don’t be confined by reality means to me that as much as things are going on around me I AM now the Creator of my own Universe and it’s my “job” to do just that. So, I continue to use the Law of Attraction and draw things into myself that I want. I practice this every moment that I think of it which is more and more as I concentrate on it. There is also a great website that sends me “notes from the universe” everyday and they speak to me (www.tut.com). Please trust me when I say that before this happened to me I would not have been on a public forum proudly announcing that I don’t have a regular job to go to everyday. But, hey…the Universe has other plans for me so what am I going to do? Fight it? No, because the Universe knows what I want and also what I need. The Universe also knows in which order I need them even though I have been inclined to “disagree” on some things. I come to find that of course the Universe was right and I was being taught another very powerful lesson that I could take with me moving forward. I have my moments of thinking that maybe I’m wrong about the fact that I need to go back out “there” and jump on the hamster wheel but maybe we’re not meant to contribute to this way of thinking anymore. So, let’s dream our dreams and imagine this Utopia that we all want so we can begin to see it emerge.The other thing I’ve learned is that when I have a “problem” with something or someone else it is usually my problem to fix as much as I resist it. The saying “what you resist persists” helped me so much with this. I began to let go of trying to control other people and their actions so when something bothered me I had to look inside. Our society has been based on fear and distrust of one another for a very long time and I See this. But I also had to realize that I had built up very strong defense mechanisms to it so it was my job to See them, acknowledge them, and release them. It’s a difficult thing to begin to trust in something that you can’t See and to wonder if maybe this “voice” in your head is just your imagination gone haywire. I feel as if these things are meant to be released and it’s necessary because maybe there’s just no place for these “negative” emotions anymore so why not enjoy them for the very last time? I have learned to simplify these things and what I see is either fear or Love. Anger is based on fear, guilt is based on fear, labels are based on fear, and most of the “love” we have known in this Life is based on fear because we don’t want to lose it, right? But, this is about the Age of Aquarius, the Revelation, the Rebirth and as such it is the time to shine and glow in the Power of Unconditional Love. Let’s face it, it always hurts to lose someone you Love or to feel unlovable in your own relationship or family and it’s easy to become angry or resentful of not having this Love you feel returned, right? But, Unconditional Love does not know these things and it really does take some getting used to to get it right. It seems that it would be the most natural thing in the World to allow this Love in that is so Pure and Beautiful but it’s honestly not that easy which is okay. The pureness of this Love makes some people uneasy and I was one of them. If you are used to loss in your Life or if you’ve never known Unconditional Love than it’s a natural thing to fear losing it and it takes some getting used to. The Power of this Unconditional Love makes me feel a bit “naked” as there are things about myself that I’m not proud of but by acknowledging these things I release them. In other words, I have to See it and Feel in order to ask that it be taken away from me. This is forgiveness, a confession of sorts between you and the Creator. Make amends with other people if necessary but mostly just let it go and give it to Mother Earth, the Angels, or the Universe who will be Happy to take it away. Trust in this Love and know that it’s right inside of you. It’s okay to take the time to sort it all out and there are no “losers” here – even the “deadbeats” like me who are still sifting through it and sorting it out. Which brings me to the next thing…labels.Why do we feel the need as a society to label everything and everyone? I know, right now it sounds as if I should look inside and I will do so after I speak it. I’ve had a “tough” Life, emotionally speaking, and I looked for help and compassion for a very long time. But, I’ve come to realize that the reason I didn’t find these things is because I’m different and my emotions run very, very deep. This is good because now I understand why I’ve always felt so different and why my emotions run so deep. It’s because I AM different and this compassion I was always looking for was never enough because I needed to learn to have it for myself first. I cannot have compassion for others before I first have it for myself and this must be a requirement for whatever this task is that lies ahead of me. So, the more I looked for help and compassion the more “labels” there were thrown at me and I didn’t like that one bit because it made me very defensive. I guess in a sense it should have made me defensive because I AM not a label given from someone or somewhere else. None of us are and the only label we should be worried about is the label that will be given us in this new Divine order as part of this Collective Consciousness. I AM exactly where I’m supposed to be and doing exactly what I’m supposed to be doing so now and I believe that this is my Spirit learning to fly and accept what is “expected” of me in the bigger picture. I feel as if it’s my job to accept what is happening and flow with it as hard as it is right now with feeling like I should just accept “reality”. This very reality will be changing very soon and it gives me Hope. It’s also about finding a new “identity” and I speak of this in detail on my blog post “My Identity Crisis”. http://moonhippiemystic.com/2012/10/26/my-identity-crisis/We are butterflies being birthed into a new state of Collective Consciousness and anytime we are faced with something new there will be growing pains to go along with it. It’s not an easy task to jump off this cliff when you don’t know what’s down there. But, as butterflies it takes a great deal of courage to turn yourself upside down in the chrysalis and spin out from the very reality that you have been taught to go along with. There are emotions involved in this and sometimes I feel fear so deep that I can literally taste it on my tongue. I’ve come to find that it’s not beneficial to me to keep asking “what if?” and “how” so now I’ve learned to just flow with the rhythm and be fearless in speaking my mind and speaking of these experiences. It’s this “separation” from one another that is helping us grow and soon we will begin to come together and “find” each other so to speak. We will Create a whole new world and things are beginning to happen whether we see them or not. Trust in Love, be Patient, and don’t be afraid to release these things that are no longer working in your Life. I found that once I “let go” of these things and/or people the things that are meant to continue will and that the things that aren’t won’t..period. In other words, the relationships that I’ve had to let go of were hard but some of them are coming back around. As they come back around I find that they come back around free from the expectations of “old”. So, trust in yourself if you are having to take a step back from certain things or certain people because it will all begin to make sense.The other thing I’ve had to learn is to let go of “ego” and this is very, very difficult. In other words, anything that isn’t for the greater good or that is “self-serving” no longer has a place for me. My “ego” tells me that I’m sitting here distancing myself from “reality” waiting for something to happen but my Spirit tells me it’s because there is something happening. As I manifest the things I want in my mind I can’t relate the actual experience to it or what it’s actually going to feel like when it happens. There have been thoughts of “maybe so and so will finally See me or be proud of me” but these things are no longer relevant. The point of the matter is that no matter where you are or how you are feeling in this moment there are bigger forces at work. As much as it’s happening the mind-blowing fact is that it’s already HAPPENED! So, what’s the point of fighting it? For example, my sleep patterns are so erratic that it’s hard to even “function” in daily Life and there is frustration that lies in this. There is also frustration that lies in the emotional and physical “pain” that comes with it. It’s hard not to feel as if you’re not “stuck” sometimes as you walk this very tricky labrynth. Rest assured that as much as you may feel like it’s “one step forward and two steps back” you are still moving forward. I mean, it’s already happened in the big scheme of things right? So, put one foot in front of the other and walk on…we are babies so take these baby steps accordingly and always from a place of Love and Gratitude.There are a few things that I’ve been doing that have helped me with this process of Love, Healing, and Acceptance. The first is when I feel any sort of “guilt” whatsoever I say “Forgive me, I’m sorry, Thank You, I Love You”. I say it to my husband and I say it to the Universe and the things I’m asking forgiveness for just float away. There is also something about “rainbows” lately and I think it’s because we are being asked to cross the rainbow bridge with our consciousness. I draw in this “rainbow” light and I ask it to “Love me, Nurture me, and Heal me” and it works. I spoke to someone recently who told me that they “pray” all the time but never for themselves. I was a Flight Attendant for most of my Life and the first thing you learn on an airplane is to put your oxygen mask on first so that you have the capacity to then help your children or others around you. So, don’t be a “martyr” and ask for help from whomever you need “here” but more importantly ask for help from up “there”. And remember, if you are even reading this you ARE exactly where you are supposed to be doing exactly what you are supposed to be doing – there are NO coincidences! Grasp hold of the Love & the Light and don’t be afraid to ask the Angels or your fellow Lightworkers for help when you need it. We will help each other through this first and then we will join forces as I believe that is the very next step to be taken. So, let’s bring it in…Go Team! Remember, we will never begin to See what else is “out there” until we come together right “here” and we are the ones we have been waiting for. We will get there, in time but in the meantime there are things to notice. I’ve noticed that the stars seem closer somehow. I’ve noticed that the sunrises and sunsets are more vibrant and colorful. I’ve noticed the birds and the wind “speaking” to me. I’ve noticed the trees and the sunshine and the rainbows all around even though there’s been no snow or rain. I’ve noticed the shapes in the clouds and the words in the music seem to “speak” to me too. Small things but are they really?How appropriate that my aunt just sent this to me in an e-mail? No coincidences, right?Revelations3:8When God leads you to the edge of thecliff, trust Him fully and let go, only 1 of 2things will happen, either He’ll catch you whenyou fall, or He’ll teach you how to fly! ‘Thepower of one sentence! God is going to shiftthings around for you today and let things workin your favor. God closes doors noman can open & God opens doors no man canclose…Love, Light, and Blessings -JenniferCopyright © The Moon Hippie Mystic. All rights reserved. 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