For the past several weeks I have felt more and more apart from everyone around me. I can't help but feel like I'm peeling away from others, and society. Having an immense craving to just get away. Not just for an hour or two, but on a more permanent basis. My mother and I have found a property up north. It is a real possibility. I hope it works out, because I feel like I'm being polluted. Not to mention this overwhelming feeling that something is just over the horizon, and I need to be ready for it.
Now a couple nights ago I was laying in bed, it was late. I was trying to sleep when suddenly I felt very relaxed. My eyes were closed but I started to be able to see my room, my shelf, etc. It started to get a bit in and out, like a signal. Before I knew it I was starting to see other places, like I was there, plan as day, as if my eyes where open and I was standing there in the rooms. Then that morphed and I saw people, could hear them. I felt mixed up and then was pulled out of it just as quickly as I had slipped into it.
I was feeling "not right" and got up... I was so thirsty. Right after there was a feeling to check on my son. Just as I entered the room he began to have a seizure. He has had them several times before, but it had been awhile. He now has been sick for the past two days. :(
I'm beginning to wonder if my mind is changing. I feel like it is, like I'm becoming something I wasn't before with understanding that others around me don't have. It's interesting, but lonely.