I've been reading the writings on this website, Starseeds.net, and other websites, as well as being a member of One Vibration and their various groups, and I have boned up on the signs of Awakening, symptoms of Ascension, and the idea that there will be an Ascension of those who are ready for that kind of change.
I have viewed channeled posts and insights from many to many who have accepted Ascension as fact and are eagerly awaiting their change, scheduled to occur around the end of December, 2012. After digesting all of this, I am left wondering what will happen if none of this is true, and nothing actually happens as planned.
Let me say that I hope fervently that something wonderful happens! I would absolutely love to be a part of Ascension, moving from this 3D world to a higher dimension, in every aspect. I have experienced an Awakening, and it has changed my life for the better. I have a soul braid who I constantly communicate with and who I love very much. Reading about these things on the various websites have been very enlightening, and I deeply appreciate the efforts and insights given by the creators of these websites as they try to help others to understand the changes that they are experiencing at this time. I have received a thorough education.
BUT - and there is always a BUT - I have also seen some things that make me wonder and ask myself why? Of great concern to me is the question: What will believers do if things do not happen as they expect? How will they go on in their spiritual growth and understanding, as well as their day-to-day existence? I have read so many posts on many websites of how difficult a time people are having in every aspect of their lives, and how they expect that Ascension will erase their pains and bring them to happiness. My fervent hope is that the build up to Ascension does not victimize people and give them false hope for positive change in the event that nothing happens. None of us actually knows for sure if any of the things that are happening to us, including the physical aches and pains, are a part of Ascension, or if Ascension will play out as I have recently seen posted here on this site. The absolute assuredness of some of the posts astounds me! Statements are being given that have the whole Ascension plan wrapped up like a present, complete with a bow on the top, and I have to wonder, how in the heck do you know all of that?! Why are you so sure? What will you say next if things don't work out like you say? How will you explain that, or will you just fade into complete anonymity?
I have a problem with the concept of a person claiming to know advanced information, predicting that certain disasters are going to happen to various places on the planet, and then having people pay to attend seminars to do lightwork to avoid those disasters from happening. When those disasters do not happen, then that person claims that their special powers and the lightwork done at the seminars kept those incidents from occurring. Where is the actual logic of that? The person I am referring to is Jelaila Starr of the 9D Nibiruan Council. I could predict that my wife is going to have a terrible accident, do lightwork at home, and then when she returns home safe and sound claim that my lightwork kept her from having the accident. Anybody can predict anything, and then feel like they have done something to avert disaster. Granted, I do have strong psychic powers, and I know that others do also. Who knows? Maybe something is being averted. But there is something very fishy about making predictions of that sort and claiming to have mightily averted disaster through lightwork, especially in light of the fact none of that can be proved. To my rational yet mystic mind, SOME of the things that have been claimed must be proved in a concrete way. EVERYTHING can't be totally subjective. When I have done things in the spirit, when something has occurred according to what I have willed, I am totally convinced that I had something to do with it. I can understand that kind of conviction because you need that type of conviction in order to make things happen. But when a person PREDICTS disaster and nothing happens, or if they predict an event and nothing happens, when it is done openly and publicly, and they have people hanging on their every word, there always seems to be some slippery excuse as to why it didn't happen, and the direction of the people who are believing them is always directed further ahead in time to the next prediction of disaster or predicted event. Receiving money to do this seems to me to be very dishonest. That goes for lightwork practitioners who are charging to do energy work online for potential clients. How do I know what is or is not happening? It doesn't cost anything to manipulate energy from afar, not that I have ever seen. How does one know that the practitioner even did anything or have that kind of ability? It remains to be seen.
Also, channelings I take with a huge grain of salt. To date, I've read many, and they aren't saying anything new. We all know that we need to love each other more. I was taught that in Sunday School. We all know that we have emotional hang ups that need our loving attention to clear up. That goes without saying because they impact our lives on a continual basis until we do. That is not new information; look at all of the self-help books and articles out there. Information about ET cultures and other planes of existence is in the eye of the beholder; nothing can be proved by anyone outside of the observer or participator. One person's version of heaven or the astral plane is another person's version of "Please don't let me end up there!" I have read various people's accounts of their visits to the astral plane, and they are totally different than what I have experienced. Viva la difference! Everyone is unique, everyone is different, no one's version of heaven, the astral planes, or eternity will please everyone, just as everyone's life now, including their inner life and mental state, is very different. Nope, I don't want anyone else's place; I want my own. I don't appreciate traditional religion's insistence that we all end up in the same place, according to the particular belief system, and neither do I appreciate what I have found on these New Age or alternative spirituality sites either. Elves and fairies and elements; colored lizards and Greys and other beings; everyone is encountering all kinds of things. Every place is different; to each their own. Saying that I should end up here or there, or I should be experiencing this or that, is quite presumptuous. I know, I know; whatever you believe in your heart is true for you. I wish that everyone who is making public pronouncements would understand that! Not everyone is as self-aware as others may be, and they are being led and guided by what others are saying. IMHO, channelings should be chock full of new material, if they are coming from Advanced Beings. They should be teaching us the deeper aspects of what it means to be human, what it means to be an Advanced Being, deeper insights than we could figure out on our own about how to advance spiritually. That kind of channeling would appeal to me greatly. I have fully grasped that everything is about love, and we are all One. In fact, I've got the T-shirt. Say something else! I can go to church and a psychologist for some of the stuff I am seeing. Advanced Beings must have something more to tell us!!!
Feel free to come after me because I doubt. I have been given no reason not to doubt. It's a good thing that nothing that can happen depends on me having unwavering faith to make it come about. I've taken the red pill and I am wide awake and aware. My eyes are wide open; the scales have fallen off. This world is vaster and more colorful than I ever could have conceived! I am steadily working on learning as much as I can about the new vistas and places I have seen and encountered in my mind's eye when I Awakened. I want to learn how to astral project and lucid dream. I will continue to read and absorb the information provided to glean what I can and learn more. I can definitely say that my spiritual growth as blossomed in new directions, and the fractured parts of me are becoming whole. I am happy, and that is something that I truly treasure, because it has not always been the case.