If I had a dollar for every attempt I've made at posting a blog or discussion on this website, I think I'd have a good amount of money. 

There are so many thoughts and questions encircling my mind that I honestly haven't the slightest idea where to start. I've always been a lurker when it comes to social sites or forums in general. I like to observe and read what other people have to say but when it comes to my opinion, I don't know... I never really felt the need to actually put my thoughts out there.

One of my family member's recently spoke to me about this habit of mine. She suggested that I try and post something, even if it was nonsense. So here I am. 

I've posted a few discussions in the past so I can't say I've never posted anything on AC but I've never really posted something personal.

So, here we go...

I guess I'll admit that April was an extremely stressful month. Nothing but assigned reading, homework, and research papers to work on. Not to mention preparing for finals. So much to do in such a short amount of time and just when I thought that the worse was over my mom has seizure during my finals week. 

I never wanted a month to be over with so bad.

I don't know why but I always feel better when a new month begins. Almost like a fresh start or the feeling you get when you open up a new notebook to start writing.

The semester is over, my mom is okay, and May is finally here. And for the first time in years I'm actually having a summer off from school.

Looking back at all the long nights where I had to stay up finishing assignments, studying for quizzes, or when I couldn't sleep due to feeling slightly depressed about certain things- right at this moment I feel like I can breathe again. I feel quite calm and I'm really happy about that.

I hope May will be a good month  :)