Dear Diary,
I'm very sad at the state of affairs both in my own personal world and the world itself.
What's going on with me? My best friend of almost 22 years is getting married, however I seem to have hit a snag with her fiancee. She wrote me a rather nasty email and aparrently my repsonse hurt her feelings and now I don't know how to undue what I did!? I wrote her another email this morning apologizing for my email but I don't know if it will make things right?
My second concern is what's going on here at Ashtar Command. There use to be a lot of love and sharing but it seems to have stoped? The atmosphere as of late doesn't seem to be the same and the whole thing has shaken me up?
The third thing which concerns me is the Gulf Oil Spill, my heart broke looking at all those animals covered with oil and I feel so bad with all the people who are suffering down there because of this?
I am very sad and depressed with what's going on and I can't shake it.
The world around me is turning upside down and my own world is going right along with it!?
I feel very lonely as of late...I'm not from this world as I was sent here long ago to help usher in the new era of peace, but right now I feel so disconnected from everyone and everything I don't know what to do!?
My heart is very heavy and I'm very sad, I feel like crying all the time and just feel so blue.
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WE are all Solo in our personel path but connect and commune together in the most amzing ways. i feel that even acts of discord are blessed communitive experiences. ask yourself why you might be feeling the way you do. really feel the pain and accept it. i don't know if this reply will help but i hope you feel the love that comes from me to U. i am a messenger of yourself reminding you to look up and see the blessings in disguise. shake it all up, LAUGH and create some love. let your emotions draw a picture and reflect on it to percieve yourslef and situation from all sorts of perspectives. you are important and much loved.
yea the oil spill is sucky but don't let it get ya down. this world is falling apart and coming together anew. Because of danger and disaster created by humans we are connecting to create less of these things. conciousness is key and we are becoming more unified to the whole.
Not much more to say but I LOVE YOU and send you infinite blessings and strength to be as you will.
LOVE and LIGHT
-AZARU-
At times I feel sad too and I'm sure that half of this world (if not more...) feel the same way. The reasons could be:
From 2010 to 2012, Mother Earth is letting go of 3D and is transiting to 5D. Everything is in progress and that include all of mankind, nature ect. Having incarnated for too many lifetimes on Mother Earth during the 'dark ages' - 3D/Ego, we're are finally learning to 'let go' of our ego and also those people who're very close to us like family, relatives, friends, colleagues and more. Depending on what your soul purpose is...chances are...we're at some point of time...or this moment now....to learn to discern on what was working with us and is now at a cross road of letting go...and another door will be opened for us...to be with someone else...who will help us journey into 5D with a higher level of spirituality, understanding and love.
I can understand what you're going through and I'm going through that too. I'm at a cross road where I have to choose the people whom I need to 'let go' and and who I would like to 'attract' ...to cross paths with...and to perhaps learn more from them or vice versa. It isn't easy but listen to your inner self...and not your emotions. A lot of times...we allow our emotions to run amok and we go into depression, disappointment, frustration..and other ego expressions. It doesn't have to be like this. Take it as a phase of your life....acknowledge, respect and love the past....and then...release it.
Focus on the now, to recuperate and fly higher. We're all capable of rising above all ego and reside in the now of being 'empowered' ...with our own gifts...acknowledge and honor our gifts...and then enjoy them. Do not give your 'power' away to friends or families...and ruin your soul purpose. When we give our power and rights away to others...we feel depressed, frustrated and all other ego.
All websites/organizations/companies are going through a phase of 'letting go' (whether they like it or not...whether they are prepared for it or not)...it will take its own natural course. As it will be the same with Ashtar Command Crew...changes are unavoidable....some will stay...some will leave...and we may have some newcomers...who will be attracted to the energy of this website...there will always be changes..till 2012.
Take BP as a focal point...they've not looked after the ocean and now...they have to go through a series of changes and they're not prepared for it...but that's how ego is being phased out.
Go with the 'flow' and ride it like surfers on high waves. We will eventually succeed.
Know that we can't keep Mother Earth waiting...waiting for us to be ready to rise to 5D...we have to go in sync with her...and if we're not ready...some transitions will be more difficult than others who are more spiritually aware...to ride the waves and just experience it with unconditional love for yourself and others. Learn to let go and just do the best that you can...and if all else fails to reconcile...let it be! Perhaps..it is time....sometimes..we just don't know that...but our higher self will know.
Be at peace with yourself, with the Universe and with God/Source/Spirit. That is all you need to do right now..and all else will fall into place.
Sending blessings and light your way...