Hello kindly once more,
Since my last post, about trauma life, low self esteem, borken-heartedness, unloved dysfunctional environments&parents, loneliness...wretched Gollum life...*weeps* :(
I like to ask this question...Sex what is it?....Porn?.I was never told anything about it, except that its a (taboo...parents!). A sensitive empathic answer I like please. I don't buy all the gender-stereotyped rubbish (brainwashing, propaganda...lies!..Evil illuminati!) of the media! Asides through all the toxic psychotropic drugs I was forced to take (evil psychiatry!...toxic,toxic!) I seem likely to be sexual dysfunctional (erectile dysfunction?!?) , soeme tardive dyskinesia too! Is sex really needed? No idea...I hope I posted this in the right place...Here I post my painting of my broken heart...
This is my painting...I often paint...I hope the photo is clear enough
I have a broken and sick heart...This so sick world (no empathy...my 'soul seems female' NOT male) gave me more traumas & deep depressions, than anything else! Seem to carry female energy, which this sick world hates. Eaten tons of chocolate, fish, and drowned tons of cups of strong coffee beyond count,still do...addiction, addiction. An Emotional wreck,feel I failed...failed...Need healing, real deep healing!...'Shamanic Healing' is that any good? It mentions 'soul loss' occurring, in the happening of traumatic events (had many) ...That sounds far more plausible than any of that filthy toxic psychiatry fake-science rubbish! [www.cchr.org] But finding one that is within reach and affordable, proves a real pain (the ones I found were in country towns, no public transport]! *river-cries* :( So the issue of finding suitable (sensitive empathic) healing remains...
And this...Planet x is coming in the nearer future...
http://galacticconnection.com/planet-nibiru-is-coming/#sthash.OmMlwAhf.dpbs
http://galacticconnection.com/20-facts-about-nibiru-planet-x/#sthash.f1v7yK92.dpbs
http://galacticconnection.com/planet-x-proof-of-nibiru-despite-nasa/#sthash.r07JQrwT.dpbs
http://galacticconnection.com/planet-x-nibiru-sun-blackout-in-march-2016/#sthash.s0pj1LFD.dpbs
If this is true, including the prediction of planet x coming sometime next year. Where does that leave poor souls like me?!? I want no ascension, sick heart/soul, trauma, etc...feel this is for me far toooo soon. Asides I had more or less an atheist kind of upbringing, without offense meant...no religion , including all that 'christian' soup which sounds to me ;like a lot $greed-coorps manufacture to spend tons of money on rubbish...Paganism, brainwashing...propaganda, including the so depressive irritating rotten music they blare everywhere (yucky green-red colours)....No thanks! And I already saw some traces of the coming of another commerce pagan $Xmas onslaught now...*dread* :(
I prefer silence to all this noxious depressive noise and $commerce...A trip into the cold would be real good (before planet X)...polar regions...Photos from polar regions seem to have had a strong pull (must have a reason)...Have a number of polar brochures and books. Its true, I always loved cold weather (including thick snow) not hot, which always made me feel real miserable even health endangering (dizziness, mega-headaches...near heat stroke experiences...polar bear sweating and more),...like in a prison, I just cant stand heat! Read in a recent New Dawn magazine about RH-Negative blood types...there its mentioned about unable to stand hot weather....Thats to a great extent my case.....Is that what they mean with nordic blood or? ...Maybe someone can answer this. Had no blood test to confirm yet, but I feel alien, including very strong aversion to hot weather...strong intuition too (childohood)....I forecasted whats about to happen, and parents didnt listen...it was at times very visual flash.... Heat always makes me feel sick...not the cold though...Love snow, and the jackets that I even see in Sydney, I dont need at all...
.Apologies for the lengthy post going to certain extent beyond the initial question...I'm not often online (no internet at home) and hope one understands...And leave with some scene links of polar regions...
~peace & light~
herbert
https://upload.wikimedia.org/wikipedia/commons/b/be/Arctic_Sunset.jpg
http://www.arcticphoto.is/wp-content/gallery/aurora/Aurora_Panorama_752Pixels.jpg
http://apod.nasa.gov/apod/image/1207/aurora_goldpaint_1200.jpg
http://wallpaperest.com/aurora-online-wallpaper-009944
http://blog.sunvil.co.uk/wp-content/uploads/2014/11/Copy-of-Svalbard-43041.jpg
http://www.reidtravel.com/upload/images/CFD6CW_Paradise%20Bay,%20Antarctic%20Penninsula.jpeg
There are sure lots more...May these inspire others...Nature makes art...*peace*
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Sweety I been looking at your painting so.e stuff hit me if you like friend me and we can talk I hope you feel better soon
I agree! Godess do you want to be responsible for possibly destroying another person's mental state with your suggestion of taking psychedelic mushrooms! I had a chance to take this when I was a young man. I didn't want to risk, destroying my mind, so I said no! If the they have a bad trip, what are you going to say? SORRY!!!!!!
I've actually DONE the trip that's suggested here, and the only reason I came out of it alright was because
1. I had a CLOSE friend with me
2. I had a cat that were as close to me as my friend, present
3. I had a mind with a conviction and strength compareable to the Strength of Jesus.
4. I was far from any city and in a relaxing but still quite wild nature environment.
But, the trip was STILL very very uncomfortable to me.
I can't even imagine what the trip would have been like to "Mc Dreamer". It's simply too horrible to think about, to someone like me.
To adress (and hopefully GREATLY help) the OP as well:
You're so depressed and lonely and have been so for so long, that your negativity has become a drug. This, because the negativity itself, is a fuel for living on and produce more negative thoughts about everything you've ever known or seen since birth, and since all a human would really need to be able to go on at all, is a clear view on how things are according to their own experiences, and how they intend to act to live their full 85+ years they have on earth, they'll suffice with it.
It's not easy to break such an addiction. I started over 5 years ago and I still have relapses (see my drug-comments in the thread and especially how I treat those who posted them). It IS possible to break the ADDICTION though, since life is PARADISE between the relapses.
The first order of business for You, would be to start every morning by stating loud and clear: "This WILL be a wonderful day". And then during the day, make sure that your mental thought-patterns follow that conviction no matter what hardships you may encounter that day. No matter if a comet destroyes your worklace, a truck runs through your house and a hurricane destroys your favourite city, you'll still KNOW, that the forces of the cosmos WILL compensate you for those losses.
That's the end of lesson 1 (the in-mind info I got from you was derived through "quantum entanglement" and should be quite accurate besides some small but still possible influences from my own mind in the process).
Reply to this message and I may be persuaded to spend even MORE time online in order to give MORE lessons for free. :)
Goddess of beauty this poor soul is so depressed look at his painting giving him a pschadelic will most likely give him a bad bad trip and make him do something that you will regret.... You need watch what you say and to whom.... How do you know this person isn't a teenager.... I know about mental health and psychedelics won't benefit him at all it will do more damage.... Please before you tell someone else to do drugs think of who and why thank you...
If I were Ben I'd boot "Goddess" out of here so fast and so hard that its head would have rolled out of here on one network communications port while its body would have rolled out of here on a completely different network communications port.
That's how angry I get when drug-romantizisers give advice to people they haven't even got a full psychographic profile on.
Drugs can be one of two things: Total medicine for one person, and total poison for another. Unless one knows beforehand exactly what the drug will do to a suggested target, one should NOT prescribe them!
I tell you if we don't hear from this beautiful soul over the next few days if I find out something happened to this person cause they took a halfcocked idea from gob I'm pissed.... Talking of our experiences on a forum of hers is one thing but not having any knowledge of this person and prescribing it oh my god.... Just cause its natural does not mean the person can't die from it... They could have allergies to mushrooms or allergy to the component that makes it psychadelic. Mcdreamer you need to talk I'm here for you...
It would also do everyone good to know that Tobacco, Opium and even Cocaine are All Natural things too...
So is sodium chloride, but if you eat more than 1g per day, you'll die in a much more awful way than you would if you'd eat none. ;)
Anyone who'd use the "it's natural, therefore it's harmless"-argument should immediately go find themselves 2-3 fresh Fly Agaric, eat them and then experience this "harmlessness" first hand. It won't kill them, but they'll be in extreme pain for the rest of their lives. ;)
It's less than 5 years since the last time people claimed Planet X is coming. Are you saying that people of the "Internet-age" can forget broken promises THAT fast?
I'm sorry you are going through this, you are not alone. This link might offer some insight, hope it helps :-)
http://biologyofkundalini.com/article.php?story=CrisisManagement