Hello dear readers,
I have been reading some of the discussions here on this forum -as a guest- and noticed that there are a lot of people out there that are burdend by the ascension symptoms. This was one of the reasons I signed up coz I think I have some symptoms going on myself and I have a hard time with it. So I am happy that I can share my experience and that there are people that feel the same and can undertstand my situation and that of many other people, without judging.
I already have some negative feelings going on starting last year, but it is getting worse and worse and the last week and it is so bad that it controls my life. I get all these negative thoughts that I wonder if they are even my own. I am fighting against it and try to tell myself good and positive things, but somehow the negativity controls. I feel misundertood and everthing suddenly falls upon me. People are rude and mean and somehow everthing I do and say is bad wrong or rude. Even when my intensions are good and come from my heart I have to apologize for things that I didnt do or where meant well from my heart. So all this pressure makes me feel negative about other people. I noticed I start to behave different as well and get annoyed really fast, and I even have moments that I want to scream. There are certain people in my life that I feel suddenly very negative about....usually with people that i had issues with in the past. I am aware that these are probably feelings/issues from the past that have to come out to make clean ship. But it bugs me....I feel misunderstood and I been punished for being nice. Now I cant be nice anymore and the only thing I want to do with some people is fight..coz they say or do something that hurts me or say things that are not true or misinterpretterd or whatever, or if they simply cant understand what I am saying or trying to explain. I am turning in one of them..slowly..thats how it looks like. And I dont want that.
I have read about physical symptoms in here...I had that too starting 2006. But that is getting better now. Now it are the mental problems and I really feel I am not in my place.
I thought I had my mental issues under control. Forgave people, tell my self that their behaviour was to blame about there experiences etc etc. And when I am sincerly wrong I will admit it, think about it, make excuses and try to change coz I want too.
Just wanted to share that with you guys. Because I am human (or maybe not ;-)), I make mistakes, but it cant be that bad that everybody suddenly falls upon me and everything I do and say is so bad that I deserve to be yelled scream at and being told bad things which makes me lose my friends.
And the people that had real bad intensions get away.
What is going on here....
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O god I know. I KNOW. thats what I am talking about. Pff people are allowed to do and say things that are "bad" and when you stand up for yourself OMG the world is coming to an end. I have to take everything but when I speak..god its so wrong.
Well I guess we have to change our thoughts and hope we meet more good people with good intentions.
Thymus Gland? no but I am going to google that right now ;-).
Love and light
I heard about people with these types of well how can I call it..gift is maybe not the right word, or maybe it is ;-). I cant imagine how that must feel. Do you know how to block it?
I heard about he gov. dirt too. I have know idea if thats treu or not but it wouldnt suprise me.
You made a good decision by chosing for yourself. Thats it is a process thats for sure....for me a very long one ;-). 30 years lol.
That does me really good Lezlianne. I Today I started to focus more on meditating..tried it many times but never got the patience for it. But I guess I have no choice LOL...I want to heal.
About Canada....well I have to go also coz ofother reasons, but I want to stay really bad. So I might take a risk but I will probably decide last day...I will meditate on that decision haha. And you are right everyone is puring now. Have to repeat that to myself now...You guys are so great. So much love in here.
Thx for the link
Hai Anja,
I already read your channeling actually. Very interesting, thanks for sharing that with us.
I guess I apologize coz I get blurry and almost believe that I did something wrong but i cant see it. And sometimes coz i dont want to lose a friend over nothing. But you are right. Thanks
I feel what your saying here. Thing is I can accept a situation, but i cant accept that the same people treat me bad over and over and over again. I have to draw the line somewhere. So i can accept what happend (in time), but I cant accept people going off like that overand over agian. So I cut ties.
Noone is perfect..god no, we all have flaws, but some things go TO far ;-)
Done the positive...now im drained. But ofcourse I will find a way.
Thanks for your advice and sharing your knowledge Marianinia :-D
Omgosh honey! I've been going through the same thing! me and my twin flame are having this issue... We've currently been threatened by people saying they are going to key our cars and such because it's parked on a public street... and we have neighbors who aren't so nice to us.. and we can't figure out why... we mind our own business and try to be nice people, but the negativity seems to come to us like a magnet! and it's making us negative when we don't want to be... because we are normally gentle peaceful people.
We want to be kind out of the goodness of our hearts and are trying so hard to be giving with our unconditional love, but when you are treated as such, it becomes extremely difficult for us... we just want to be filled with love and happiness for others... but how is that possible when people treat us so? It's gotten so bad in the area we live in we are currently moving just to try and get away from all that negative energy... everything you said in your post is exactly how me and Retch feel... Hang in there honey! you are not alone in this!
Love and light!
Magick ~*~
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