I'm worrying about myself, who am I becoming...?

A few weeks has been hard for me, when all of you were trying to not admit the Galactic Federation of Light are not real. For me, there is no hope, no one is going to save us. You think you can change the World with magic spirituality powers?!!! It won't work, you'll need physical power to do so! This Galactic Federation of Light has all these man-power to change the World into good shape, then that's when it hits me, they're not real!I thought coming onto this site could be salvation for me until salvation comes for all! But, back then I was becoming another sheep like all of you... I was a fool to get involved into this 'Madness'! I cannot hesitate to believe that the only line of communication is channeled messages coming from strangers we don't know! If the Galactic Federation of Light not real (notice i said 'if' because I hopefully could be wrong), I have no purpose! It's easier to just die and lose this body and its memories and go into a new-born pig.Remember when I asked about flashforwards? (For those who readed my older threads) I had several which gave me a beautiful 'purpose'...Many years ago, I had a flashforward which was in a America, in a specific place. 4 weeks ago I was at America for a holiday and I went blindly my flashforward, It felt strange and exotic good. It was a flashforward leading to my flashforwards. I was older than I am now (I'm 17 for thos who didn't know and surprising for those who thought I was older), I... my daughter was there. It'd felt as if I was there and feeling the souls of the future. My Daughter is beautiful, couldn't had been less than 13 or 12. we were at a fair or a amusement park, everything was certainly different than It is now... she then goes on a ride, a tower drop ride. I heard my voice "Don't forget to take off those flip-flops!" (American accent? perhaps I've moved to America and blend in with the accent.) Of course, Teenagers don't listen to their parents. She went on the ride and didn't take em off, but the ride was... more extreme than today's rides. Got my camera out which has a clear picture, so HD that you could examine the details so much. The ride dropped and her flip-flops fell off... then it ends and goes to another flashforward.Ahh... I'm not discussing the title there was I?You see, I started to look at power. I was addicted to it, I wanted power so I can make my daughter happy and all those of this World. Jesus... I even started to see if 'vampires' exist just so I could make the possibility of my daughter living forever... but I ended up with no evidence, which is similar to the believe of GFOL.I don't think you can understand how I cherish my daughter so much... to kill for, she's so... perfect. Feels similar to a soul-mate.This power-addition is going to be a problem, Will I become a bad person or a good-over protective father?Do you have any flashforwards that was enough to change the meaning of your life?I hope you would cherish your children just as I would to my Unborn-Daughter...

I had a flashforward when I was 17....I told all my friends I never wanted children and I truly meant it, because at that age I thought they were all brats and wanted no part. That night though I had the most vivid and real dream although it seemed I was awake....I dreamed that I fell in love with having children and envisioned having two sons, one with blonde hair and one looked like an indian (native american), and I saw many many kids surrounding me and me hugging them...there were 6 of them all boys of varying ages, besides my sons....I was weeping because some of the kids left and came back to me, and in my dream or vision or flashforward or whatever it was I felt so vividly the pain of loving some of them and losing them and I wept tears of emotional pain....then I woke up with my face filled with tears....that dream or fast forward stuck with me for a lifetime. Later in life I ended up having two sons just as in the dream, one with blond hair just like mine and one that looked like an indian because the man I ended up marrying was part Native American. And I ended raising fosters sons, six in all...just as the flashforward had shown me, and indeed I also wept and felt the pain of losing some of them again and again as they were sent back to their mothers, only to be abused again....and when they came back to me the joy I felt was so intense, and I knew that my whole life's purpose was to be a mother to children whose mother's did not know how, or could not due to many reasons. That was my only flash forward in my life, but it was something that always stuck with me, making me wonder how did I know.

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BarbaraLee October 12, 2012 at 1:53am

we want GFL to be real...and i do believe they are watching us...they are waiting for us to get along...no war...i'm not sure we learn ...we, each of us needs to connect with love...then big change will come...don't get discourged
Marique October 12, 2012 at 1:13am

I had a flashforward when I was 17....I told all my friends I never wanted children and I truly meant it, because at that age I thought they were all brats and wanted no part. That night though I had the most vivid and real dream although it seemed I was awake....I dreamed that I fell in love with having children and envisioned having two sons, one with blonde hair and one looked like an indian (native american), and I saw many many kids surrounding me and me hugging them...there were 6 of them all boys of varying ages, besides my sons....I was weeping because some of the kids left and came back to me, and in my dream or vision or flashforward or whatever it was I felt so vividly the pain of loving some of them and losing them and I wept tears of emotional pain....then I woke up with my face filled with tears....that dream or fast forward stuck with me for a lifetime. Later in life I ended up having two sons just as in the dream, one with blond hair just like mine and one that looked like an indian because the man I ended up marrying was part Native American. And I ended raising fosters sons, six in all...just as the flashforward had shown me, and indeed I also wept and felt the pain of losing some of them again and again as they were sent back to their mothers, only to be abused again....and when they came back to me the joy I felt was so intense, and I knew that my whole life's purpose was to be a mother to children whose mother's did not know how, or could not due to many reasons. That was my only flash forward in my life, but it was something that always stuck with me, making me wonder how did I know.

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