I find myself feeling done with the quick fix. The quick fix, so we tell ourselves, will make our problems disappear immediately and that's a good thing. Every now and then, I find myself wanting the quick fix. But those things aren't real. They are torturous illusions with which we abuse ourselves. It's torture, it really is. It's torture because we keep wanting and wanting is painful. Interestingly, the long way round to solving a problem is the quickest way to fix it. The long way being actually dealing with the issue. Gotta keep that in mind.
I think I should shut my eyes to the New Age sites that talk about Ascension, disclosure, and a few other topics. We only focus so much on them because we want to believe that they are our quick fix. It's no different from the Christian that believes in the Second Coming and Rapture and all that noise. Rapture is the quick fix and Ascension, aliens, etc., is ours. I don't deny evolution, I just don't think one should view it as a cure all. It's lazy. It's us lying to ourselves. As an Indigo, it's part of my job, supposedly, to dismantle systems (INTJs do this as well). So this is me dismantling my system that's been lurking in the background tempting me. I dismantle by facing the truth that I view this stuff as a quick fix sometimes.
The good thing is that I remind myself that this is not the fix. I must endure my own pain in order to get through. At least the pain isn't as bad as it used to be and some of it is gone. But for the lingering mess, I wonder if that will break me too because it has already tired me. Yet I'll press on until I'm dead of old age or sheer boredom because what choice do I have?
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Thank you all for your comments.
I believe that one of the greatest challenges in life is to learn patience. From our limited perspective things seem to progress at a snails pace, but on a universal scale the elapsed time is equivalent to a blink of the eye. All good things come to those that wait.
You say all the things I've been thinking about but so far have been unwilling to confess to myself.
Thank you. :)
waiting for something to happen could be ‘boring’ and 'tiring' … however I see good in that ‘movement’ … one of the first ‘enemy of man’ is ‘fear’ … so expanding one conscious is accumulating the knowledge and with that comes facing ‘fear’ so ‘accession, disclosure and anything related to the New Age … is a great possibility … but it does takes time, and be aware of that probable possibility is a great tool … ;)) our life is like a 'marathon' ... we do need to reserve our strength depending on the length of it ... ;))