At least once a week I'll have a nightmare regarding my ex. I consider them nightmares, because I don't want to see her ever again after what she did to me.
Yesterday a friend invited me to a fire-spinning show to see her perform... Then I found out the people responsible for single-handedly ruining the relationship we had, is performing.
I lost it. Anger, frustration... started crying. Then the nightmares this morning.
I can't party with the friends I used to have, because there was a schism.
I know 'everything happens for a reason', but that doesn't mean none of it will stop bothering me.
There is a wedding dress sitting under boxes in the garage... the dress she was supposed to wear when we were supposed to get married. I don't know why to my ex, experimental sex was better than having a long-lasting relationship... I guess that's what drugs does to you I suppose.