There are so many theories about 2012. I have investigated many of them, sometimes I feel as though I have always had this number looming up at me. And the question always remains…What If? What if the world falls into chaos and WW3? What if our celestial family comes forth for disclosure? What if nothing happens and we all live our lives the way we are now?
I’ve always been a bit of an odd duck. I was “gifted” as a child and put in a special class, but it really didn’t help my life. I never used my gifts for much, I didn’t even finish school and had to upgrade as an adult. I made bad choices that I am still paying for. I’ve had paranormal experiences that scared me when I was young, so I cut that part of myself away… and now I find myself trying to find the pieces and put them back.
I truly feel one of my purposes in life is to find the signs of the divine force we call God and bring him/her out into the open to be shared and loved. I do this by researching and finding parallels in information and collating what I’ve learned. I use my higher reason to figure things out and trust my instincts only as far as they are not influenced by my weaker ego. We all do this, it is why we are here, I believe, at this site.
We are all different stripes of Lightworker. Some of us are system busters, some of us are bridge builders, some of us carry the Light codes, and some of us are natural healers… I could go on, but you know what I mean. We each have a role to play in these times of change. And if there is one thing I have learned in my research it is that there IS a God, and he/she has a Plan.
We get in these circular debates, back and forth about channelings, the Dark Cabal, 2012… we seem to debate a lot about things we don’t even have proof exists, lol. This is good, it creates synergy around certain ideas that allow them coalesce into this reality. I think perhaps that is why so many discarnate entities are channeling now with humans, they are trying to merge their realities into ours and giving us a vision of possibilities. It doesn’t mean that they are right, it means they are trying influence what we believe, which may result in an expanded reality matrix.
I was struck last night by an idea that I just couldn’t shake. What if this is all an illusion, what if we’ve been lied to and nothing will change by 2013? I was watching the news and it was sooo shallow and insincere, it makes me sad to even think about how closed off society has become. If you really think about society and it’s thoughtforms it really just seems overwhelming to think of it changing…I imagine this behemoth of rage, greed, fear and selfishness rampaging through the streets, the embodiment of all our insecurities and sins brought to life.
In order for true change to manifest itself and the higher concepts of service for others rather than service for self to emerge the entire system has to be remodeled. The old matrix of male domination has to go, we’ve been out of balance for eons and this is the result. Without the Sacred Feminine mankind has lost its inner conscience, its standing one leg and about to fall over.
How is this going to happen? That is the question that lurks in my mind when I am living my “regular” life, taking care of my children and going to work. And how can I bring the needed change to our world? I come here, like many of you, looking for answers.
I can tell you for certain that Theosophy has helped me immensely in understanding this world. It always irks me that so much focus is put on the GFL and the Dark Cabal and all these theories that have one missing ingredient in them all. The fact that God and the Hierarchy of Light exists.
I mean, really? Do you really think that there is no plan for us? That we aren’t on a trajectory of evolution and soul growth? Theosophy was not chosen, it is something that resonates so deeply with me that I don’t feel as though I am learning about it, I feel as though I am remembering it.
The thing is, though, is that Theosophy doesn’t acknowledge 2012. Certainly they mention our Galactic Family but they do not emphasize them overly and the message is clear that the Galactics will not interfere with humanity. The theme in Theosophy is self actualization and the bringing down of the Soul into the physical body. Sounds a bit like ascension, doesn’t it?
Theosophists are taught about the Externalization of the Spiritual Hierarchy. The angels (devas) have a separate but parallel existence with us humans, and they are evolving apace with us… and those of us who have evolved beyond human flesh, the ones we call Ascended Masters are scheduled to incarnate themselves on this planet… the return of Buddha, of Jesus the Christ… east meets west… male merges with female to end duality… do you see the parallel themes going on?
But the thing that I could not erase from my mind yesterday, was the immensity of the change needed. Yes, it’s all fine and easy for someone like me, who is polarized to the Light to talk about overcoming duality and merging with my other self to create a Nova being, a Light body or a Merkaba. I am not perfect by any means but I believe that the attempt is 90% of the result, if you know what I mean. However, no one I know cares about the soul. The people in my world, in my city and at my job think only of their families, and financial success, self esteem through possessions or control… they think about parties and sexual gratification, and having nice clothes and an expensive car… THESE are the things that are important to them. I don’t want to be in judgement, Lord knows I’m no saint, but I really have a hard time seeing change happen in the world when the people around me cannot raise their heads high enough to see God or even Light and Love around them. The media has twisted people into caricatures of greed and want.
IS this what it means to be in the end of the Kali Yuga? I mean, people are still nice, I don’t think many would consider themselves Godless or selfish, but they are blind to their own predicament. Imean, seriously look at the economy, isn’t it crashing because our society loves credit over hard earned money? Is that a good value to possess? If people were to treat themselves as a garden and plant only the thoughtforms that are helpful and healthy, we would be a much different society…
So, what I am saying in a roundabout way, is that I am losing faith in 2012. Not in our Hierarchy, but who knows when they are coming, I don’t think there are clocks in heaven, lol. I am losing faith in the idea that our bloated hot mess of a global society will make changes by 2013. I know all the theories, and I adhere to a few of them… but I just can’t see a way out of our predicament without complete and utter destruction… I thought the Sacred Feminine would bring balance and usher in the Unity Wave… and I certainly feel ascension coming over me… but more often, perhaps as I raise my vibration, I feel less sure about the rest of the world, even my family. How are you going to change the minds of billions of people into believing in something like LOVE?
The signs are all around, the Solar Logos is making himself known, the earthquakes, the energy crisis, the economy meltdown, the weather anomalies… definitely something will happen, but I am infected with the disease of Low Expectation that our brothers and sisters out there will get uplifted and I will face the next fifty years with the people of this planet who do not share my values. Sigh. And I thought I was lonely growing up, it’s going to be utter hell if I am forced to live here in this decadence/desolation for the rest of my life, knowing that the Hierarchy exists but having them unable to change this world because the Free Will Clause forbids them… and humans, being what they are… will blithely go about being greedy and selfish.
So, what I am sincerely asking of you, dear reader … is to give me a bit of HOPE that we can make it. That 2012 isn’t going to be a loooong drawn out process of decades of snail like growth and change. Give me a reason to wake up on Jan 1, 2013, with my heart aflame for the new tomorrow. Because the way it sits now, it is going to be painful and slow… and I am losing faith in my fellow humans.
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"Nibiru is the 4th dimensional flagship of the Milky Way Galaxy’s Galactic Federation. Like Pelegai, many different civilizations have representatives that live aboard it. As well as being a Federation Flagship, Nibiru is also a planet and a battle star. Nibiru is a little over three times the size of earth.
Nibiru was originally a planet that was thrown out of orbit with the implosion/explosion of Sirius B. It wound up in the Pleiades and therefore is known to some as a Pleiadian planet.
Nibiru became a star ship when it was converted from a near lifeless form, hollowed out and turned into a ship. You could liken it in some ways to the space station on the TV show called Deep Space Nine. The only difference is that Nibiru travels the galaxy. That is why the people live inside of it instead of on the surface. Another reason is that it was created for deep space travel where there would be no sun for many years. In a way, you could say that it is an artificial planet. Only the shell is original.
Nibiru is a battle star because it was outfitted for war with ships and heavy weapons. When negotiations fail Nibiru is capable of waging war to defend itself against attack. It also uses these same weapons to defend planets and races against attack when authorized to do so."
well duh names are not so importand the big bright thing on other side of sun is the federation hopeing to negate nibiru with it or why make it why make jupitor a star and hide it why fly in mass formation in front of comet elenin seems more and more to be a big show an act of bigness we are being pushed into ascension once regular folks have no choice but to think outside the box maybe i just try to make it all make scence love and light The Nibiruan Council
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Thank you all so much for your insightful and compassionate comments. Thank you for not making me feel like a dork because I am disillusioned with our species, I am sure it will pass but the news really brings me down, lol. I should probably avoid it. Perhaps I am spending too much time focused on research when I should be meditating more and lifting us up... sigh. It's just so hard sometimes to be in a negative world.
On a good note (I think), as soon as I posted this blog I was hit by another "silent" migraine, all of a sudden it was like someone dropped a veil over my eyes and then a tear in my vision occurred. I wish I could draw a picture of what it looked like, it's surreal. I was able to push it away before it got too bad, but the rest of the day was a bit hazy and the after pain in my ajna chakra was intense. I realized later on that I had asked for access to the Akashic records, so perhaps this is a step forward. I will hold on to my own soul growth and hope that it mirrors the rest of humanity, and wish for the best.
And thank you WeAreOne for the advice, I will make some lists and see what is revealed as change. A good idea, wish I'd thought of it lol.
Blessings to you all, fellow travellers, I hope we can meet someday and trade stories of our ascension days.
I have many compounds inside of me, that when the time is right, separate into elements, and clog up my spiritual field, therefore compromising the emotions I am capable of feeling and causing me to descend.
I was ascending between 15th March 2009 til 17th March 2010, but now I'm descending and I feel worse.
Believe me or not but the fact is humanity has not been ascending since 17th March 2010.
I think 2012 will happen when there are no more compounds left inside of me, and I'm completely clear.
Honestly 1happykelly if you watch the firs 10 seconds of this video you will know we can and will do it
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