In life, one should live. One should be conscious. How does one live without being conscious? Are you not your consciousness? Well, some may believe that they are not, but that is an illusion... If one explores oneself, one understands that.

Many people seem to live their lives in the hunt for pleasures, avoiding suffering. And they don't pay attention. They are not aware, not conscious. Almost not at all, they are absorbed in their own little world, in their program of the psyche, like robots. They may say that they are spiritual, but often it seems like they call some sort of behaviour as spiritual. They may listen to a person who is acting in a way which is said to be spiritual. And then they believe what this person says, if it makes them feel good... This is a belief, subjective, they are then absorbed within the human psyche. There is no search for truth in belief, is there?

I prefer to stay aware, observe the external and the internal as much as I can... I want to live. I want to eliminate everything bad within me, all the bad states, which keeps me from being conscious, from living. Eliminate that which leads to and are suffering.

I don't want to be this intellectual animal any more, I do not want to be schizophrenic, I do not want to be anger, greed, sorrow, hate, fear, etc.

How does one know how to change? Well, you try things and see for yourself, do you not? Things that are said to transform oneself into a more spiritual being. To make you less and less an animal.

I want to live. I live by experiencing life. I want to experience things through my senses. I want to transform my senses. I don't want to sleep. I want to wake up.

Do you?