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I'm currently sitting here listening to Vista Humana by Vapour Space.  Old school 90s trance goodness!  So this music, music overall, is something I feel on a deeper level than probably most.  I didn't used to be like this, then all the evolution stuff kicked in.  I feel music on a psychic level that trickles down to the physical level.  I feel positive energy and negative energy in music.  Vista Humana has a lot of positive energy because the composer had a lot of love for the work.  But I'm of the belief that there's more that I'm feeling than just a composer's love and enjoyment of the work.  I'm just at a lost for words to describe it.  The best I can do is say positive energy.  If I were to listen to music from, for example, a skin head band, I would feel lots of negative energy coming from it because the work comes from a dark place within.  The negative energy would soon cause physical pain.

I also experience what I call the "caffeine effect" from very fast music.  Heart palpitations, nervousness and a jittery sensation.  And it happens quickly, like within 10 to 15 seconds, or at least that's how long it takes for the energy of speed to get to the physical level.  The same sort of thing happens with alcohol.  I could drink a beer, for example, even a low alcohol content beer, and within a about a minute, I'll start experiencing the sensation of drunkenness.  By the way, it takes about 30 to 45 minutes for the body to absorb liquid.  It's the psychic energy that's effecting me to the point of being a physical experience.  The same sort of thing happens with coffee, except I get energized.  

For a time, I thought it was a psychosomatic thing.  But I know it's not because when this stuff first started happening, it was unexpected.  I didn't plan on it and certainly didn't hope this stuff would happen.  It just started on its own.  It's a very peculiar way to exist.  I've yet to find any sites that speak of it, and I'm wondering if anyone here has ever read about it or experienced it themselves.  Anyway, besides those bits of weirdness, there's the energy of creation.  When I knit or crochet, I can feel my own psychic energy of creation in the work.  I also feel it in my hands.  I feel it in the work of others as well.

In a strange way, the creative energy in my hands drive me to create more.  Whether it's writing, crochet or knitting, or cooking, I feel a compulsion, this push to create radiate from my hands.  It's not a painful or unsettling energy, it's just there.  When I was a kid, I used to want to be a hands on healer, but due to over sensitivity, I can't do it.  But I've realized that what I do now can be healing channels.  Such as a knitted hat for a cancer patient who has lost their hair.

And then there's those moments when another's passion resonates with me.  For example, chef Gordon Ramsey.  Say what you like about him, but that man has an obvious passion for cooking.  I so love his passion.  I can actually feel a bit of his passion psychically and it's so attractive!  This doesn't mean I'm sexually attracted to him, it's just that the urge to perform my purpose resonates with his passion of cooking, which is his purpose.  His passion pushes me to indulge mine.

Another example would be the lead singer of Jimmy Eat World.  I first experienced in while listening to them perform Sweetness.  I felt the passion of the lead singer and it just so resonates with me psychically.  Sometimes I think that part of the reason we idolize actors, singers or athletes is because on a deeper, unconscious level, we resonate with their passion psychically.  Their passion of purpose awakens within us the desire to perform our own purpose.  But instead of actually doing that and being a star in our own lives, we get caught up in their lives.  We lose focus of that psychic clarion call and just focus on drama, money and stardom.  But I don't know for sure, I'm just guessing.