What is a

"Good Kid"?

(from a child’s point of view)

Exactly what is a “good kid”?

Does he do everything you say?

Would she rather do her homework than go outside and play?

Does he obediently go to bed at the same time every day?

Will she follow instruction always--never to discover her own way?

‘Cause I’m thinking that defiance ain’t all that horrific,

The reason for my rebellion is really, fully scientific.

How can my path be discovered when the one ahead is riddled,

With your footsteps—and you’d like my foot’s imprints in the middle.

Never straying too far left or right, always shuffling ahead,

With my eyes fixed on “progression”, a route which is said.

To bring stability, prosperity, as long as my fidelity

Aligns with the rationale of this ridiculous un-finity

But I crave more than security, than a life full of prediction,

An existence free of worry, sadness or infliction.

Living with an open heart, embracing what is here,

Is how I choose to find my path--to see past want and fear.

You won’t find me planning life around gaining wages,

I follow my spirit’s guidance, applauding all my stages.

Never pushing too far ahead or peering too far back,

Is the method that I use to keep myself on track.

I’m not a good kid, but I wouldn’t call myself appalling,

I’m just searching for new ways to fulfill my life’s calling.

So before you scoff or cheer, judging my behavior as worthy or unsound,

Recall the child’s journey of steering spirit on the ground.

Lend me a helping hand to discover my own being,

And I will show you that all life needs is some believing.

Thanks for reading.  Love you guys,

Read more at “Mastering Infinity”

~*somesayimnot*~ 

I wrote this for my husband and felt compelled to share--because as players in an infinite play, I am certain we feel this love universally for one another.  Much love to you in this moment :)

With my vision--

not those I hold with my eyes

but with my heart--

I remember you and I

reflected in a perfect art

As brothers, fighters, lovers,

Perhaps a father and son

Some may squawk at this confession

But I remember we are one

The time I double crossed you,

And when you spat at me

Where I got on bended knee

And confessed my love to thee

Where we wore the shields of enemies

And you watched my limbs expire

Where I fired aimlessly

At your body pinned in wire

When I smiled warmly

as you lie sleeping on my chest

The time I looked up and told you

"Daddy you're the best."

When I locked your door

and threw away the key

Where you told me there were things

That I ought and should not see

The time you took the blame

for a fault that was mine

And  a time when we were certain

Our lives are love in the divine

When I hear a story

and see your face in EVERY scene

From sinner, lover, protector

Killer, dissident and captor

In times of joy and pride,

Fear and loving benefactor

I knew then and I know now

Of the love that lies between us

When you were Mars and I Jupiter,

We still uncover Venus

This journey of reflection at this moment is undone

For I remember that you and I

will always equal one.

I love you!

~*somesayimnot*~

I can’t shake this unmistakable feeling that I am channeling in my sleep.  It’s this sensation where I know I am sleeping while I’m sleeping, but all of a sudden I feel awake sleeping AND I feel like something is taking over me in my sleep—endowing me with wisdom either verbally or through intuition.  Within the past month, four occasions stick out to me. One of which I am sure who it was I was channeling, the other three I am not entirely sure. 

I am reaching out because the most recent one was last night.  I was channeling with a whole group of people I had never meant, but they all accepted me as family.  I awoke in my sleep :)  to a camp site like place.  Outdoors with a fire, and people were sitting in lawn chairs in a line.  All of a sudden we all chanted the same thing.  Like a mmmm…then a key change up…about a note and a half up. Then we all received the rush of energy.  I felt it going through all of us from right to left in the line of lawn chairs.  Then we all just started talking…we were all receiving the same energy, but expressed it differently.  We were all channeling this energy and addressing no one in particular, just staring off ahead.  And I stopped and looked around, and the man next to me says my son’s nick name.  I’m like, “How did you know his name?”  He says that we can all tap into each other if we so choose.  It was so borg-y…but we could control whether we wanted to channel or not.  Everyone was so nice, and one man even combed my hair out for me!  (ok-- I have more hair now than what is in my photo, ha ha).

Do you have any stories of channeling in your dreams?  If so, please do tell, because I feel like there are some people in here that know exactly what I’m talking about, and I would like to connect with you.

Have a blessed day and stay joyful and neutral,

-somesayimnot

Hello Friends and Family! :D

        I am here to spread a message that Gaia and aspects of the Divine Feminine have ascended to the 5th density! (yay).  Yes, Gaia has birthed a beautiful higher density "New Earth"...and I even had a vision of the entire Milky Way ascending as well.  I have been working with aspects of the "divine feminine" for over a year now as have many of you other ladies out there.  (p.s.  I would love to hear your stories if you have been; don't be shy). 

    Aspects of the divine feminine (along with Gaia) have been working to align themselves with the Source so that we can all experience another "breath of life" into creation.  It's kind of like we have been riding in a plane that has been circulating the same dirty air over and over for centuries, and finally we are being given some new fresh air directly from Source into the cabin.  It is becoming increasingly easy to align yourself with Source.  But it requires the removal of a kaleidoscope of fears that plague us and keeps us firmly in the illusion of duality.  Source does not require perfection but truth and honesty.  Living your life in truth and honesty aligns you with Source.

          I had a dream referencing the increasing frequency of Gaia and the Divine Feminine in a dream about 3 weeks ago...referencing yesterday 1/7/2013 as the day it would go down.  I will describe the dream if you would like but I will save you the details here.  Nonetheless, I can feel that more and more of us are coming into 4th density Earth (as of 10/27/12), and that 3rd density has either been destroyed or is in a not-so-happy place right now.  I pictured Kali ravaging 3rd density Earth last night after Gaia ascended, but she joined the other aspects of the Divine Feminine in the higher densities afterwards.  I can "see" a beautiful new Earth in the 5th density...and can feel myself there and here at the same time.  In addition, the Ra Soul group has also ascended to 5th density some time right around the new year.  (I didn't write down the date).  And of course, these dates are when I became aware of the changes.  Since time is an illusion, and these happenings have already occurred, you may have felt it sooner or you will feel it later.  But the portals are open for you to experience these occurrences yourself,

        You may call me nutty, but I am not the only one who claims that Gaia and the Divine Feminine have ascended.  Check out:

http://aardvarkmailinglist.net/s/ep/?e=32025&s=328972DRH

http://lightworkers.org/channeling/174565/earth-walk

http://lightworkers.org/channeling/174524/galactic-bubbles-have-burst-welcome-age-aquarius-denis-lefay

But of course, feel this for yourself.  Feel the new currents of possibility pulsing through your veins...see the New Earth...time to "clean out your closet" my friends and family, so that we can embrace each other here and in the higher frequencies.  Your higher selves are waiting to meet you there too :)  If you feel these changes too, now is not the time to hide, but to share your visions, feelings and other sensitivities to give others hope for the now and the future. 

One Love, One Heart,

~*somesayimnot*~

For we commonly are fixed upon what we believe has yet to be

Constantly reshaping, thinking what will come to thee

Riches, rags, children, cars, houses, jobs and fancy fare

We strategize, hypothesize how we can make it there.

Take this job, love this person, buy this but avoid the other

Talk to her, dress like this, remember these bases to cover.

We even encourage our children to plot and plan the same

Asking them to form their future before they can write their name

But if only we could focus on the places we have been

We may find joy and satisfaction already lies within

If we remember, we may not again place eager hands on a hot burner,

We may recall being a perpetrator and judge each other no further

If we could recall what led us to this very situation,

Perhaps we could surpass this restriction and frustration

But we are all too fixed upon the places we will go

Not taking time to figure out just what happened hitherto.

Nor understanding the vast complexities of our space and time

Without it we are prone to see our lives as one straight line...

A beginning...a middle…and an end--to which we cling

But we shall realize where we are now is where we've always been

And where we go next is where we already are

And what appears as a body is in reality a bright star

That exists everywhere, nowhere and anywhere in between

My dears, there isn't anywhere your soul has not been

Just ask it, you will see, you are wise beyond your years

There is no need to view "future" happenings with uncertainty and fear

For they have already happened and happening right now

You are part of an infinite play! All applaud and take a bow!

Let’s expand our awareness—allow ourselves to feel

Like an orange, each assumption--grab ahold and peel

Away from our core to find our true center

It's there—beautiful and unbroken—despite our conjecture

The places you will go are the places you have been

Are the places where you are so why not go within?

And explore your multidimensional reality--

Your omnipresence, your opulence--to let your spirit free!

Release yourself from judgment, fear, righteousness and condemnation

Enjoy your role as creators in this wonderful creation :)

Peace and love to you all,

*~somesayimnot*~

This is a little ditty that's been playing in my head--nothing deep..but fun!

There are times when the veil is heavy and murky,

When we are capricious, unaware, and unsure.

Sometimes our perceptions are a bit quirky

But the wind shifts...

   The veil lifts…

     We see existence so pure.

It’s so easy to see the silver

When our world shimmers with speckles of gold

But experience tells us to dig deeper

To see these elements unfold

So when your eyes get a little bit weepy

And your silver has turned to gray…

Do this—CHOOSE BLISS

Among sorrow and pain

And you’ll be well upon your way.

Of course we can’t always be ecstatic

(We can’t always be the sun’s ray)

Sometimes things get a little bit gloomy

Hold tight—these feelings will soon sway.

Don’t pity yourself for feeling sorrow

For this is a natural thing

Rather than dejection and guilt

Do this—CHOOSE BLISS

And you will be glad to see a new day

I may seem a little bit giddy

And perhaps a little naïve

But I’m just drawing attention

To that little card up under your sleeve.

It is not the queen of diamonds,

The joker or jack of spades

The queen of hearts will help you plenty

When darkness clenches your days

Go in nature, be in love

Soothe and nurture your soul

Go within and pour it all out

Do this—CHOOSE BLISS

Turn your ears in

And remove all of your doubt

Have a blessed day and--CHOOSE BLISS

~*somesayimnot*~

"We need you to remember..."

Envision the swirls of fire,

How love and healing

replaced lust and desire.

Remember?  I remember...

seeing you there,

holding YOUR hand

caressing YOUR hair.

Do You Remember?

I remember great temples of light

No one afraid of the depth of the night

Cheery faces going places

They thought they'd never go

The darkness it went

And the way-showers show

Angels we are with wings of creation

Now long and forgotten in the age of sublimation

But I remember my wings that carry me there

To the place we ALL live

To a place we ALL share

Do You Remember?

I remember, so shut your eyes now

Make peace with yourselves

Make one solemn vow

The plan is unfolding...

I've seen it in dreams

The plan is unfolding...

More beautiful than it seems

At the end of this battle there is a great reward

Let down your shield...

Put down your brazen sword

And reclaim your crown...

your wings...

your throne...

Reclaim all that you have

Reclaim all you own

Not possessions, not diamonds

or your material goals

Because now my friends..

You will reclaim your SOULS

Do you remember?

I remember...

The time is here

Not soon, not tomorrow,

Not far, not near

Join me in love

For NOW is the time

To share the spark of OUR Creation

Just let your love shine :)

~*somesayimnot*~

I don't mean to be snippy here, but I've had several comment on my screen name--why somesayimnot?  Am I doubting myself?  DO I not love myself?

I have had several people say "some say you are" or "I say you are"...but I really have to clear things up on this one, because my screen name is actually about a song that I ABSOLUTELY LOVE from Mason Jennings--(who is completely awesome) about the mysticism if you will behind defining who is and who is not GOD.  (Which I htought was appropriate for this site).  So...(DRUM ROLL)

MASON JENNINGS--"SOME SAY I'M NOT" http://youtu.be/ZjuTtiSqd_c

To look at a baby you've gotta be brave
In the black of his eye is your own grave
And something darker you wanna touch
It must be love 'cause it hurts so much

Love, love, love, love

I've been to Egypt, I've been to Rome
I was a young man when I left my home
Looking for something I couldn't find
Now I'm back where I started, it was here all the time

Time, time, time, time

Out of the darkness into the light
I had it wrong, you made it right
I had it wrong, you made it wrong
Same old story, same old song
Same old

Song, song, song, song

Some call me Allah, some call me Tao
Some call me Buddha, some call me now
Some call me Jesus, some call me God
SOME SAY I'M REAL...

SOME SAY I'M NOT :)

So what's in your screen name?  What does it mean?

And one more for the road, because i love Mason Jennings, so...

I LOVE YOU AND BUDDHA TOO!! (check the video):  http://youtu.be/vbSOPuN7OhE

Oh Jesus, I love You
And I love Buddha too
Ramakrishna, Guru Dev
Tao Te Ching and Mohammed

Why do some people say
That there is just one way
To love You, God, and come to You?
We are all a part of You

You are un-nameable
You are unknowable
All we have is metaphor
That's what time and space are for

Is the universe Your thought?
You are and You are not
You are many, You are one
Ever ending, just begun

Alright, alright, alright
I love You and Buddha too

Oh Jesus, I love You
And I love Buddha too
Ramakrishna, Guru Dev
Tao Te Ching and Mohammed

Why do some people say
That there is just one way
To love You, God and come to You?
We are all a part of You

Alright, alright, alright
I love You and Buddha too

Oh Jesus, I love You
(I love You, Jesus)
And I love Buddha too
Ramakrishna, Guru Dev
Tao Te Ching and Mohammed

Why do some people say
(I love You, Jesus)
That there is just one way
To love You God and come to You?
We are all a part of You

You are un-nameable
(I love You, Jesus)
You are unknowable
All we have is metaphor
That's what time and space are for

Is the universe Your thought?
(I love You, Jesus)
You are and You are not
You are many, You are one
Ever ending, just begun

Alright, alright, alright
(I love You, Jesus)
I love You and Buddha too
Alright, alright, alright
(I love You, Jesus)
I love You and Buddha too

And Buddha too, and Buddha too, and Buddha too
(I love You, Jesus)
And Buddha too, and Buddha too, and Buddha too
(I love You, Jesus)
And Buddha too, and Buddha too, and Buddha too
(I love You, Jesus)
And Buddha too, and Buddha too, oh yeah

I might have to re-post this somewhere else--definitely watch the video (it's a different version, he keeps changing it into a protest song).  It'll put you in such a good mood I promise :)

I LOVE YOU * I LOVE YOU * I LOVE YOU *I LOVE YOU * I LOVE YOU * I LOVE YOU *I LOVE YOU * I LOVE YOU *

With my soul vision staring I can clearly see the impermanence of it all.
The waves that stand still to everyday sight
The inherent flatness of everything thought to be in more than two dimensions.
The truth that everyone knows but are to afraid too accept.
 
Because on some level, to admit that money is not real,
that your job and accomplishments...
(based on some superficial meritocracy) is not real,
and that house and car and clothes you buy with your fake occupation is illusory
Somhow indicates that you are illusory too
Just a figment of the imagination
 
But you are not.
 
You are so much more than objects--
and while we know this on its face we cling for dear life
to the things that in the long run only pacify us
and Chain us to this un-reality
 
How FOOLISH we will feel when we realize the emporer has no clothes...
and even more so---that we ARE ALL EMPERORS!!

 For a minute—step outside of the confines of our value-laden cognition patterns—what is positivity?  What is negativity?  What makes these concepts in opposition?

Positivity and negativity are concepts—they are not real.  You cannot touch them, you cannot inform them of anything, they are not even constant or universal.  I wish not to dip my toe in the pool of nihilism here and say that there is nothing—that there IS no  right/wrong, good/bad—but that the way in which we choose to conceptualize and operationalize these constructs is sometimes “willy-nilly” and is closer to what I would say is a “wanting v. not wanting” or failing to fully articulate what it is that is negative or positive in a given situation.  Realize that these terms are largely social constructs.

As You know, everything needs to be brought into balance and is in balance.  What we see is a whole—but upon further inspection we see “good” and “bad”…things that make the world go round.  “Oh look a bunny! [good]  Oh no, a fox is about to eat it!” [bad].  But it’s good if you’re the fox right?

The labeling/categorization of positive and negative is highly influence by what “team” you are playing for if you will.  Until you realize that we are on the same team—that positivity and negativity is a byproduct of the ideology that there are “teams”—we will be stuck in an endless debate about who is good/bad, positive/negative—who can and cannot be trusted and who can and cannot share their opinions.  We may have suspicion that those using “good/bad” terminology are playing for another team—but perhaps this is so because they are not awake to the fact that we are in great need to rise above our dualistic tendencies.

Perhaps it is not in our place to wake them from this black and white novella and introduce them to the kaleidoscope of cosmic life which embraces and includes light and dark—everything in between—into a beautiful tapestry of life.

How many times is humanity going to let its wants—what we want to hear, see, do and feel—instruct what it is that we deem worthy?  How long will it take for us to realize that condemning those with “negative” emotions, words and actions when all they need is love and understanding.  (They may be at a different level of awakening than you, all you need to do is help by providing love and understanding and a gentle prodding ) 

Not the smothering and selfish kind of love where you ultimately want them TO BE LIKE YOU—the way you deem is correct, worldly, right—but to accept them for who they are and to help each other out of bleakness of duality (because although there is “light” and “dark” in this perspective, I assure you that it is not at all illuminating).  The prison of dark and light where the bars are clearly dark and the light is everywhere in between. 

Unconditional love my friends feels like you are the friend, the lover, the mother, the father, the brother and the sister all rolled into one—you cannot decipher your relationship with them in this terminology and you needn’t do so because you are recognizing that you are staring your CREATOR in the face---you are all THE CREATORS. 

 Love freely, and you will always be free,

~*somesayimnot*~

I don't know how familiar everyone is with biorhythm charts, but--as we know--everyone goes through periods of ups and downs.  I have *heard* that supposedly these rhythms occur due to the motions of celestial bodies.  Of course, there are a lot of people who don't believe it, but I find them quite useful and not a matter of "pseudoscience". 

Anyway, there are three major cycles:

(1) Physical (23 days) that deals with strength, well-being, coordination, etc. 

(2) Emotional (28 days-which corresponds to a moon cycle-makes sense right?) deals with mood, creativity, sensitivity, awareness, and

(3) Intellectual (33 days) dealing with logical and analytical functioning, memory and communication

There has been some hub-bub about whether someone's personal biorhythm should start on their birthday--so I usually just look at biorhythmic charts from an event perspective. I always use astro.com <--it's a pretty awesome cite.  There is an option on there to look at things as events rather than birth dates, so the biorhythm doesn't begin on some arbitrary "birth date"...however i don't know what it uses as its beginning (when's the Earth's bday? :). Anyway, here is the biorhythmic chart for today 3/20/2012:   (Look on the top left...pay attention to the little numbers on the median line that indicate the day of the month):

When a line intersects with the "0" (the middle mark) it is considered a "Critical Day"...So you may notice that today, all lines (physical, emotional, and intellectual) are crossing the critical point going into tomorrow 3/21/2012 and also heading into a new moon.  Almost feels like a fresh start :)  Also notice how there aren't any more of such convergences of these dimensions (intellectual, physical, emotional) any time soon going all the way out to February 2013. 

I have been waiting for this day for a couple months now! I've been keeping my eyes on it.  So I urge you to spend some time really manifesting what it is you want! :) Please. Spend some time listening to your soul today--listen.

And also, I like to look at alignments as well.  I do both geocentric (earth centered) and heliocentric (sun centered)--strange to say but I look for interesting patterns.  Some of the patterns are like mandalas for me, and this is one of them:  (Today 3/20/2012 at 11:00 pm in Columbus, OH):

Kinda reminds me of a fish :)  But it is so memorizing to me and I don't know why.  Anyway, hope you all enjoyed this.  Have a wonderful equinox.  Spend some time in nature :)

~*somesayimnot*~