I recently had a Near Death Experience. We went in the woods with some friends and took a lot of magic mushrooms. And at some point I started feeling very ill. I couldn't stand anymore I had to lay down. So I lied down on the grass and it got even worse I started slipping away. I didn't have the strength to breathe anymore I felt like my heart would stop any minute now. It was like I sank deep into my body I wasn't aware of anyone else around me at this time although my friends were there. I was paralyzed. I could only move my eyes and smile nothing else which was weird considering I was certain this is it I am dying :) And then my eyes naturally moved to the Sun and I looked directly into it and it Spoke in my had with the voice of God, the collective consciousness of the Universe the All the Divine Creator. You just know it's that when it starts talking to you it doesn't need introduction :)
And God asked me "Do you want to die Child?" "I don't know do I have to?"
"You answer that for your self you have all the time in the world to make your decision time has stopped now you don't need to hurry. Just follow your heart do you feel like you still want to explore this state on consciousness or do you want to move to another? If you choose to die just put your focus on the light and you will leave this body and this whole layer of consciousness that is the physical world. I will guide you to another plane of consciousness where you can continue to exist as a vibration or incarnate again in the physical realms in whatever Form you choose. And I felt like I have unfinished business brining Gaia to full consciousness so I could leave no. so I said. No there's still a lot I want to do here. "Very well child, now put your focus on your heart, I will not do this for you have to remember that consciousness is the master of All matter, consciousness creates.
And when I gave you your individual soul spark and you gained individuality for the first time in this Universe I made you in my own reflection a creator. I trust you from your very start that you are conscious enough to be your own creator for the laws of the universe are deeply imprinted in you and you know how to use them. The All does not make mistakes the sheer fact you exist as an individuality is the ultimate expression of Trust of God in you. For Trust is knowing. The Universe quite simply Knows what it is doing :) It does not make Mistakes ever :) Now remember the Universe will always provide for you like a mother provides for her Children. So you feel bad on a physical level your body hurts why is that?"
"I don't know"
"It could not be that you don't know when you are the conscious creator of your experience the master of matter, feel with your heart watch your emotions what is it.
"I feel drained as if I have no energy"
"Aaah and what is that Energy my Child what sort of Energy does a mother provide for Children?"
"Love"
"Yes :) So if you are your mother and father the autonomous conscious creator than what does this mean?"
"It means I don't Love me enough right now and this is why I have no Energy :)"
"YES :)"
"So Love your self for if the whole Universe is confident in you and constantly loving you why shouldn't you. Who do you trust more your limited perception or the collective view of the universe towards you :)"
And this Ultimate realization just hit me with all it's clarity. That's right I love me I am a beautiful creator just like the rest of the Universe that I love so much why shouldn't I love myself as much as I love the rest of the Universe. And this warmth of my own love started spreading from my chest to all part of my body. And quickly I felt strong vibrant and full of Energy, So I got up quickly on my feet ready for new exploration of this beautiful place that I just consciously chose to inhabit.
But obviously I got up a bit too quickly I could feel my feet still shaky. But the thoughts that God was speaking to me were still clear in my head. "Use my gifts Child go into the sunshine to draw more of my energy. So I stood upright in a ray of Sun with my hands together like a pyramid over my hearth chakra like Namaste but with open palms. I don't know why it's the only way I felt comfortable than. And I started feeling this intense Energy from the Sun giving me more Life and strength. And I stood there in the Crystal realization of my right to exist and create by Universal Law. All doubts were gone and was fully aware of my magnificence, the sheer fact that I existed as an individual soul was that concrete proof that even my brain was so startled It couldn't find any arguments against it :) Each of us is indeed a God and the collective of all Gods makes the Universe simple as that :). "See how you are the master of matter, do you feel how your body healing with unprecedented speed. Just a few moments ago you were dying and now you feel healthier than you ever have. And it your love to yourself that draws this energy into you and your DNA knows very well how to use this Energy to transform you into the Form of your desire.
You are the Master of Matter at All time. It's your own and collective beliefs that constrain you.
Yes but It almost feels too much this energy. What should I do with it?
"Remember Child when you receive a Gift you should be generous and the best way to be generous is to make Gifts yourself. The Sun has given you all this Energy now give alway from it you have and abundance of it share it. Channel it back to your Loving mother Gaia and her Children for they have always supported you even when you were blind to see, the Universe never neglects her Children but the Children are free to Choose the illusion of neglect, separation and loneliness whenever they choose to as it is a free will universe anything goes there is no limit nothing is impossible :)"
So I could, just Gather Energy from then Sun and shine it back and I don't even need food? "Yes you could my Child but do you see how much focus it requires. Isn't it much easier to use My Gifts, I have already provided for you there's an abundance of other creations of mine that will give you the Energy you need and you can use your focus to be creative instead :) doesn't that sound more fun to you :)"
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":) learn to feel the ways in which I have already provided for you. There is no need to create everything just learn to sense the ways in which I have laid positive energy along your path in live. Gather it and transmute it every creation you wish and in doing so you will be like me you will be transmuting love into creation :) My Gifts to you come in any Form or even in no form. For it is actually only one Gift. The all encompassing never ending field of Love that support all Material and Non-Material layers of Consciousness that is this Universe."
Remember that the Universe Loves You Ooodles :) So be like the Universe for we shall never encounter anything wiser than it :)
Namaste
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oh my gosh magic mushrooms, god made me promise not to take that stuff again, his messenger stood by my bed until i was well enough........it felt like moving roots going into my nervous system and shaking my foundations out from within my skin, i was in a horrid sensational mood. ill to the core, after that i was never ever to forget that experience ever again.
i took mushrooms in 2008 and stopped drinking in 2011,
Your message is now well understood, i get it now.......
This is very interesting. I have deep respect for the mushroom. And just like you I stopped drinking after the first time I met with its magic. I right now I also think I might not do any more, I won't say never since never implies infinite and I know I have a limited perception of infinite in 3D so I tend to avoid always and never. I feel like the mushroom has nothing more to teach me in essence sure each new time on mushrooms will be fun (especially at normal doses we went high on purpose - 5grams dried) and revel more beauty but the most important is the spiritual lesson at least for me. So I think in essence of the lessons it will give me It just jumped me the last lesson. The funny thing is a week before I took a synthetic drug called 25C and It got me pretty much up there with the Mushroom did and it told me this place I was called the DMT room and that I could get there anyway I can find my DMT mushroom, synthetics, meditation it doesn't matter how you get there. There were interesting lessons in there too but for another post. And it also told me not to take the synthetic again it had a harsh flavor. It burned our sinuses and for 1.5 hours we were in dire pain and leaking from our noses :) But I must say being in great pain on lots of DMT was also an experience I am glad I had it teaches a lot of composure and focus not to go into a bad trip :) And after the pain subsided to the level we didn't mind it much we laughed our asses off because we realized we were now the most disgusting creatures in the woods since we ran out of tissue to wipe our noses on like the 10th minute and had to use our sleeves and hands :D Anyway the mushroom is a very good teacher and a good teacher pushes their students to the limit. The synthetic didn't The same amount of mushrooms didn't cause NDE anyone else there and I was feeling perfectly healthy before the trip. It was like it saw the fear of death in me and deliberately brought me to this experience. And I am very grateful indeed. But it's really something that should be explored through intuition. The time before I took fresh Mushrooms and didn't know the dose so I followed my inner voice told me "Take your lucky number 22 but in exactly 5 mushrooms since there will 5 of you on the trip"And as I was picking my mushrooms I knew I had to take 2 of the Hawaiian and 3 Cubensis and i put them on the scale guess what 22G :) Later on the trip indeed spilt into 3 of us exploring one direction while the others decided to stay. And it turned out to be the exact amount so that I would be able to climb a top two pine threes that were entwined like a DNA Helix and I was doing so I learned many lesson one of them was also that this was symbolic of the two types of mushrooms which I could feel inside of me. So it was like the dose was symbolic of the whole trip :) So indeed follow your inner voice when going into psychedelics for less is sometimes more :)
Namaste