- After gym class, when I'm sitting down recovering from the exercise, and I close my eyes, and let go, I'll see these images of my classmates running, kicking, lifting, and other physical related activities, usually related to what we just did.  I feel like these are "energy ghosts," if you know what they are could ya explain em to me?

- Also after recovering I had a maybe-AP.  I got into the garden, and saw this object, which I moved closer to.  It was a green thing, it took the shape of a head at some points, but it latched onto my arm when I stuck my arm in it.  It kept trying to spread up my arm, and I managed to pull it off into a glass box.  But then, my right arm started disintegrating, and t spread throughout onto my entire body, up to my head.  After that, I saw nothing but white space (cause I didn't exist), and then I saw this purple jewel thing... each side facet was a heptagon, with maybe six sides.  It had a mount, a black obsidian-colored mount, with a ring on the end of it, like it were meant to be worn like a necklace.  I reached out a hand to it, and noticed that my hand was a female's.

After that I saw my body re-integrate as a woman (naked- ehh!), with reddish hair, and... kind of short.  Um.  Anyways, so I reached again, but the a man came and raped me (ehhh!).  After that I saw the jewel on a hook, and the hook was being pulled up by this weird cartoony-black-monster face, , and I kept trying to reach it but I failed ultimately.  When the black face got the jewel, the world did a flop and some how I wound up on the top of a grassy hill, a picture of sunflowers came into my mind, and then the monster's face came and destroyed it all.  I remember some sort of suffering, and then I was walking across a desert with a huge iron ball attached to my neck, and I was pulling it across the desert, for miles and miles, days and days, and I reached a hill, and I saw the ocean.  Somehow, I slipped the collar off of my neck, and collapsed on the ground.  For some reason, I became enveloped in fire, and turned to ash, then blew away.

Then I got imagery of shooting at the face with weapons, trying futilely to destroy it with power and gunnery.  Then, I was running down some sort of hall, with these very similar-looking men all along a red carpet, pointing at me, as I ran down the hall backwards shooting at the face, which was not a face but a huge black ball of evil.  I couldn't outrun it though, and it consumed me.  I remember my neck being broken.

Then I remembered the man looking back at me, as he walked away.  There was a look of regret in his eyes.

And I cried.

Gosh... I can't remember what happened after that.

- I notice that I can move energy well throughout my body, I can move it through my bones, and then through the organic matter.  For some reason, though, the area around the right knee is harder to push energy through.  Since I attempted some "healing" strategies (throwing "healing" like energy at it) there's less disruption.  I know that there is a cyst there from a car accident five years ago, is that what screwing it up?  And also, any advice on how to move energy out of my body?