First of all.

FUCKINGSHITCRAPFUCKCRAPFUCK@##$$%*&@$#%#%$#*&!!!!!!!!

I have fucking heaven cooties now. Anyway I guess I was finally able to see one of the visions from that golden orb that shot me with a whole bunch of visions so fast it made my head spin and I could make NO sense of it. Just when I fell asleep the other night, I head a lady's voice say something really strange that seemed to make absolutely no relevance to anything.

The next thing I know is I see the flash of visions again with the same golden-white light behind them. The only one I could make any sort of sense of was a room that looked like it was made for royalty.. the focus of the room were these golden beads. They looked like they might have been part of a necklace but they were very long , they hung about in loops and such in a natural randomized pattern. It seemed chaotic and organized at the same time.

They were hung around these curtains also. I told Zann about this and he related it to his sphere / cube theory of existence which I agreed on, saying that each bead represented a universe. Anush said the same thing when I told her all this which shocked me and also said that this was the throne room of heaven, which is weird because it's the LAST FUCKING PLACE I'd EVER step into, in my life. I have a deep grudge against Christianity and self important Gods /Deities/ whatever the fuck they are. Anyway that's my story hoooooray. Now I can go kill myself.