Gender

Male

Location

Oslo

Birthday:

July 12

About Yourself

Hello brothers and sisters. I am a 31 year old male from Oslo Norway, seeking the meaning of my journey here on earth. I have recently got a lot of answers to why my life is what it is. The last 10 years I have been experiencing the so called "Dark Night". From friends gradually disappearing out of my life, a lot of physical problems entering my life, loosing my job from a burn-out, money problems, depressions to the girl I thought was the love of my life just one day said goodbye. All my life I have felt very different, not fitting in at all. Always been extremely emotional and feeling other people a little too much, Just knowing when been lied to, and not have the knowledge of dealing or expressing what I just know and feel. I have always, since childhood been interested in the spiritual world, even when not knowing that I was. And it was first in December 2011, after years of reading, a friend gave me another direction and I discovered the knowledge of this site, starseeds and the journey against awakening. When reading about starseeds and the life they experience here on earth it was like reading about my own life, feelings and thoughts in a book already written. It was an enormous relief. I am aware of my ego now, my strong strong ego that still today manages to persuade me in not believing in all of this, still manages to make me feel this extreme loneliness and wanting me to just give up. After my great discovery followed a great down period. I thought I found the solution, and things would get better, but this beginning of course is just the beginning and I need to work more. Sadly I find it so difficult, not managing to change my thoughts, and still attracting sorrow, bad situations and people hurting me on a level only I understand. It's hard doing this by myself, fighting with my ego and higher self all alone. But you all probably already know this:) I know I am here on a mission, I now I am programmed to wake up now, I'm just stuck ...The desperation of not moving on, and things don't "go my way" no matter how hard and "correctly" I try is confusing. These healing powers both professionals and random people have pointed out to me are stilled locked inside of me and I don't seem to get them out. The only thing I know, deep in my heart, is that I am supposed to use these powers to help people, and that is the one thing I want to work with, not getting another 9-5 regular job that I am not happy with but need to survive and earn money. I therefore joined this site hoping to meet someone like me, and am ready to dispose myself of all of these physical problems (nothing that can't be fixed) that drains my strength, the loneliness and focus in on learning and experiencing more to fulfill my world plan and my life plan. I feel this really is a step in the right direction. :)

Your Teachers and/or Spiritual Sources of Inspiration

I don't know who they are, but they are there.