Its almost midnight and i just finished this really great pleadian Solar An-Ra meditation. It was really wonderful and I plan to do it everyday from now on. I also did this Nadi shodhana meditation, where you alternate breath between the right and left nostrils. I could literally FEEL my head bursting with light, as well as the two hemispheres of my brain syncing together. It was a really great feeling, and is supposed to help activate Kundalini, something i truly hope to achieve.
Another recent spiritual development i have had is contact with Angels, as well as my ascended master. I just finished reading How to hear you angels by Dr. Doreen Virtue. It made it so simple to connect with my guardian angels and guides and really explained everything in a clear and accessible manner. I recommend this book to everyone! Not only can I now hear and see my angels (in my minds eye) but I have even learned some of their names. Its amazing how quickly this connection can begin to change your life.
There is something I am struggling with. Well, not struggling really, just being impatient...I really wish to connect with my Shamanic gifts. I want to see spirits on this plane, as well as energies. I also really want to be able to Astral Project so i can really get down to healing and helping this world and the next. I know i need to be patient, that my spirit vision will grow strong with practice, patience, and meditation, but i just wish it would hurry itself up and develop al ready :-) I am also really curious about my own soul group and past lives, which is another reason i want to access the Astral plane, so i can visit the Akashic records and deepen my knowledge about myself. I guess this might be considered selfish...but if i can learn more about myself than i can become a better healer, a better person, and help this earth and its people more and more.
Another thing I am having trouble with is my probation. I have quit smoking weed almost all together, and it feels good. I love being able to remember my dreams, and i know they are important. I messed up and smoked on 4/20 as well as a few days after that. Call it karma but a few days later i found out that the court sent a letter to my house talking about a possible violation from the beginning of my probation. So now, tomorrow at 1pm i have to go back in front of the judge (who is pretty strict, even has a reputation as such) and hope to not get thrown into jail. I have stopped smoking, started excercizing, and have drank lots and lots of acai berry juice and other antioxadants but if she tests me tomorrow i might fail, which would be a direct violation and land me straight back into jail. All of this is really stressing me out. I have asked my angels for help, and they helped me to understand that no matter what happens everything will work itself out, and that even if i do have to do some time, it is only going to be for a short period and that nothing on this earth can really harm me so long as i stay connected. I understand all that and everything but I am still really nervous and really wish to spend the summer being outside, growing and connecting. That won`t exactly be easy from a jail cell but i guess I`ll just have to wait and see what happens.
Wow this thing is getting long, but i just wanted to put my thoughts out there. Sometimes it just feels good to write down a problem.
Love and Light to all, Namaste
