Much time has passed since my last coming to the group but well here I am.
I am a forum woman, jaja I miss to write on my spanish forum but I had so many trouble with all my spiritual stuff that now noone believes me, and I understand them, even I had trouble to believe the new sources I had, but I found someone in the internet is a friend of an ex friend jaja (yes long story) but this guy is really a strong psychic.
I met the pleiadian being myself, because before being myself I was an extraterrestrial, then 1 year ago she went home and left me behind, I never realized I was just encaged on a cristall box inside my body but this being teached me many things, specially how to love god and be a good person in this selfishness world of consumism. I had many many bad experiences with daemons during my life after the et went home, she also had very bad experiences but I think mine where worst.
So a friend passed me a magic prhase to call for jesus help and so the pleiadians appeared.
It was hard to believe this new sources but they told me things a little different from what the other spirits told me, what I found out is that the daemons where saying half truth thats why I thought they where ok.
One of the things that was more curioius is that they told me I was a pleiadian, I never felt extraterrestrial not even being the et so I could not understood.
With my new friend whom is also a starseed we found out my sources are confident and trustable, they have told me the same as he knows and also now I have a lie detector very well developed.
But this last development had a price, too high for me. Since half year ago, I started to chat with this friend, I am in love with him and he with me and we got a strange synchronization of sexual energy, I live in south america in uruguay and he lives in cincinatty in USA in the northern part of it, but we are synchronized and we share sexual energy, when I am with him I have more powers than ever.
Since we found we are twin soul we are very united. But since I developed that lie detector I am feeling my family might be hiding things from me, things that could explain why I have a "blanck" in my head about my childhood and early teenage age, I just dont remeber my life just small flashes of some second and then nothing, I remember more of my past lives when I did a regression recently that what I remember of my early life.
The worst is that john found some very strange stuff when he did a psychic empty chair with my dad when we started to search for lies about me in my parent. We found something really HORRIBLE. I sensed a lie but never expected that lie. Apparently when I was a teen of 12 years my parents tried to "heal" me from my sickness, it seems that when being a girl I was capable of not only seeing spirits but also having visions, my parents are catholic and thought I was possesed and bad so when the time was right they did me a treatment that included electroshock. I did not believe it, but after the door of the akashick records was fully opened to me I could remember something horrible, that electroshock session. I also rememrbeed that I had a sleep therapy and never found out about the electroshock.
So I dont know what to do now, I am with a little anger, john my in love thinks I have to ask for the hospital clinical history to find the truth but if it is truth all what my relatives are saying at the empty chair I might be very angry with my parents.
Also, I dont remember anything of this treatment, also I am of those person who slide between dimensions and notice it, In my original dimension things where somewhat different that now, for example, my dad always borrowed me money whe n I need it, now suddenly the guy said "nop" to me, my mom also borrowed me but now no. Another thing is clothes, the clothes I have now have a structure that never had before, and I have good memory for this thing, there are other things.
My theory, is that to the lucia of this world their parent did that treatment, but for the lucia where I originally came from that never happened because I never had gifts when being a girl.
I know it sounds crazy but is the only it can explain why I dont have memories of watching a spirit when being a girl.
The worst is that a theraphist that did me the regression resulted to be a family friend and she confirmed me I was treated like the "strange" person in the "perfect" family so I got more intrigued
Sorry for being long. Yes I had the need to publish this somewhere. I dont know what to do now, I am being cold with my family now and they feel it I know.
What should I do with this situation? My parents still think I am crazy, they just dont believe me, for them being a good person is only to be good with them and helping in the house things that I am tired of, I just dont help I mean when I do something they say is wrong or unfisnish I just dont know what to do that why I stopped doing the little I was doing. ok should I ask the clinical history? Should I ask them directly? Should I ask my psyquiatry? Also my mom sucks because she controll if I take my medication, yes I am being medicated but it does not worked for me anyway, thanks for reading