Will we ever go home!!!?

I always wanted to go home when i was little i never wanted to stay on earth i always feel that im trapped in this evil world why would i come here for to make myself suffer all my life ? i cant enjoy life but whats the point of me suffering here ask yourself why would i come here to change world or what? we cant change world 144.000 k vs 7 billion is nothing i would never choose for myself to be human please trust me family of light and many others why would we want ourself to do bad everyone would like to enjoy life and be happy not to come to this world and to suffer and why we dont get a real date when we will return home where i belong so i can find out the truth for myself because i know im not from this world and i know who im ! im just trying to get out truth out dont ban me pls i seen some people have been banned for thinking they been trapped sorry but i would never go here myself not for anything i love myself and i wish not to harm myself nor do you JUST ASK YOURSELF WHY IM HERE? when world is just getting worse and worse no money no jobs i lost my job and now im suffering like always i just cant be happy not to tell i was raped when i was 12 by some idiot who is in prison now i just cant believe someone would go here himself to do something or to feel something this world is full of evil forces bad friends everywhere cant get real friends all is shit evil i would never ever choose to go here in this world please trust me and ask your self again why would i do this to myself please tell me why there is no date when we go home ??? im scared of death i dont want to get old and than die when i dont see a stupid date all was fake 21 dec 2012 my biggest hope is gone and i just cant kill my self :( please give me another hope i just know i been trapped here i dont belong to this world nor anyone do i love family of light but those who put us dont love us but want us to suffer i suffer all my life i just cant never be happy i put smile on my face so i look happy on photos but im not please tell me if i ever will go home i just will die here working is hard for me and i dont want to live free but i just cant tell me why would i do this to myself it just makes me weaker not stronger for those who say it makes you it stronger im so scared now i dont know what to do with my life i just dont want to die !!!

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  • Home is where the heart is... We don't just get to trash the planet and leave, unfortunately. When the world ascends, becomes 4D as they say, our the age of eternal life as the Bible describes it, those who leave are going to another 3D world... or an aliens freezer. As for the rest of the post, I feel the same way. This world sucks right now. We are slaves, work robots, the banks make money out of thin air, inflation, keep us in constant debt, stress. People are shitty, lonely, strangers, untrusting of one another. All emotions are now considered psychotic disorders and can be treated with drugs. Won't be long before they put a chip inside us to control our reality, turn off our emotions, and make us robots for real. The worst part is, at least for me, I have no one to share it with. I am living to wake people up, but they are mostly too distracted because unlike me, they have a life.

  • im asking why im on planet earth not this things alright? why cant u just think with ur brains and asks yourself why im here instead of telling me what should i do with my life i didnt come here im sure i was trapped i would never go to earth by myself here or if you did you just hate yourself and want your self to suffer ! i see no meaning of life when everything is ruled by money gov crap and other crap just tell me why im here thats what i all ask i only suffer i know the meaning of life to enjoy it not to go on earth and to punish yourself for something you never remember saying that i did accept this myself i would never choose to go here into this evil money world not only that but all evil people i just cant find good friends just tell me a good reason why would you go here on earth whats the point of suffering pain and that when im so scared now asking myself will i ever go home!

  • Hi Jessie,

    I agree with a lot of what Light of Wisdom is saying.

    Suicide will not solve your problems, and it might lead you into a state of eternal fear in the afterlife (hell apparently exists and near death experience testimonies confirm that)

    You say you are afraid to get old. I used to think the same way. When I found spirituality I realized that dying naturally may actually be a good thing. If you listen to people who have experienced heaven you find some sense of hope and peace. Perhaps you can find hope in spirituality. 

    You should also consider that the pain and suffering you are going through can be used later on in your life to help others. I have struggled through things myself. I often wondered (and still do) the same things you are. Basically, "why would I come down here and 'sign up' for this". It's so very tiring what these thoughts do to me. I'm tired of being tired, so I have learned (and still am trying to apply), that my own thoughts will do me in even worse. It may also be for personal growth. Perhaps both (it probably is).

    It's also hard when there is no support basis to refer to. Having friends and family to share with certainly helps. Counselling and support groups may be of use to you. Otherwise, like Light of Wisdom says, empowering yourself to feel better is a powerful tool for your ability to find happiness (although, not easily applied as I am finding out).

  • I get a funny voice when I read all this in my head :). Signs of a newly awakened soul, takes some time to steer clear of the stormy ocean which it brings.

    Jessi, I think we have all been in your situation, where you just want immediate answers for every question and everything seems confusing and makes no sense. My best advice to you is to relax.. meditate and try to find wisdom from within, even if you don't know what I'm talking about you will when you give it a try. It's hard to use words on how to walk a steady path. Some paths are longer than others, but in the end we all reach the same destination, hopefully ready for other adventures. ENJOY life and slow down a bit, try to take small steps forward and you won't risk to trip and fall down.

    I really wish you the best. Love to you! 

  • You are trying to tell me that im from spirit world are you ok? why are there flying discs around world flying im from that world i know it from my childhood i cant be from spirit world your mind is so confused we are all aliens we just changed body thats what happen and someone did this on purpose alright? do you understand me? spaceships and such things more advanced im a pilot i just cant find fun in this dumb bored old world trust me on this nobody would want to go here this is madness if you ask me please just try to understand me brothers and sisters i been sure trapped inside this world and what kind of lesson i didnt harm anyone nor those 144,000 did why the hell they never TELL US A DAMN DATE WHEN WE WILL GO HOME A BLOODY HOPE im just sick of this world and scared of mortality

  • Hello Jessi :-)

    Everything that is happening in your life is a lesson to you, that is there to strengthen you. You can choose to learn from it all or you can choose to give up. If you give up you'll have to come back and do it all over again. Soul lessons are not given up or forgotten.

    You are living in very important times that grant you the utmost rare opportunity to develop yourself into a strong person and more mature soul, who is able to overcome their problems with much more ease. Not only will you miss a very rare opportunity to grow exponentially, but you will have to wait a long time in order to attain the same level of consciousness, if you let go of this opportunity. Everyone that is on the planet at the moment, is here because they understand the growth they will experience. Esp in these challenging times.

    Remember, you as a soul came here because you knew you would face these circumstances. You knew you could overcome them if you did not give in to hopelessness. You see, hope derived externally is also taken away externally. Which is what your lesson is all about. It is about finding your inner strength, by looking within you. What you seek outside is actually within you. The external world can only be utilized as a mirror to tell you about yourself. If you see limitation without yourself, your entire life will reflect limitation wherever you go. Even if you were given a billion dollars, you would still continue to experience limitation, until you changed yourself. When you see abundance in the external world, it is not that the world has changed so much, it is that you have changed. Abundance always exists, it is only how we perceive ourselves that determine if we experience abundance of...whatever we need in life....relationships, money, friendships, knowledge, love, experience, travel, career....

    All that has happened to you is because you have given your power away to external people/events. This is one of the prime lessons for all of humanity. And as you can see many people on this website continue to give their power away, let alone in the wider world where such a thing is taught as normal. Many have a hard time understanding this, that people give away their power. Many like to think that victims really do exist. It is especially easy to fall into this belief when around war-zones, or places that experience much conflict derived death. You must remember, that there is always a higher perspective that many do not yet understand.


    Jessi learn about yourself. Find out what makes you want to live, smile, jump around happy.... Visit nature, where the drama of your life melts away and you can see that it is all just noise...nothing important. Learn to be at peace and balance within yourself. Do NOT worry about the world and the evil within it. Worry about your own self. All worry is a waste of your energy, your nerves, your emotions, your time. You could do much more productive things with yourself, that would put a smile on your face.

    Don't give into the chatter of the mind, that's all it is, our minds are full of thoughts that come and go. If we learn to discipline our mind through meditation, the quality of our thoughts change and the thoughts of suicide, of doomsday of negativity, they all subside to a great degree. Eventually completely.


    Lastly, let go of the many proto-religious elements of the new age and look toward spirituality that deals only with the work on oneself.

    If you are looking for a savior to save you from your life, and this savior is not yourself, that is the biggest reason why you have always been disappointed with your life. There is no savior, it is a myth inserted into human history in order to dis-empower all people, make them delegate their responsibility to the state or a religious organization.

    You should seek to cut yourself off from all things that tell you, that your power, your life, your fortune lies outside of you. These things and untold more lie only inside of you, where it has always been. You have to rediscover this in yourself. Try to remain calm, panic works against you.

    All shall pass and you shall remain!

    If you succeed in pulling yourself up from within yourself, think how many others would be heartened by your heroic story. Think what a light unto the world you would be. Esp in that part of Europe, where much of non-religious spirituality is akin to devilry for the general public. Think of the freedom that comes from overcoming your challenges and being an inspiration to your people.

    You have the strength in you. You are a beautiful woman and there is nothing stopping you, other than your own reactions to the events around you. Be free of self-limitation and start to see things anew. Learn and play.

    You will get where you want to go if you are patient and humble. Little by little you will get exactly where you want to go. Why are you here? To succeed at life. :)

    One's own starseed info might be distracting to your purpose here. I advise first learning how to handle the basics, than go onto the advanced knowledge. As with all, it's all up to you.

    Have a beautiful day Jessi. From my heart to yours! :D

  • In the spirit world, we are much more braver - so we feel we can incarnate as a human to face all the challenges and hardships that come with being a human.

     

    Find out what planetary origin you are from.  Earth is a harsh place to be but one where we can accelerate our growth.  Alot of us don't want to be here but this place offers us much opportunity for growth.  Only through suffering do we grow but then gain incredible insights. 

     

    I've suffered alot but looking back now - I wouldn't change anything.

  • i would like to get answer why im here!! OK? if someone can tell me why are we here for what when we cant do nothing to change the world i wouldnt go here myself if someone didnt trap me im not crazy to go here and to suffer in this Illuminati world please use your heads please just tell me why in the name of the god im here?? who hate him self that much to this this to him sellf im not sorry i love myself !!!

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