become oneself - Spiritual Blogs - Ashtar Command - Spiritual Community2024-03-29T07:46:02Zhttps://www.ashtarcommandcrew.net/profiles/blogs/feed/tag/become+oneselfImmersion (The Dam part 5)https://www.ashtarcommandcrew.net/profiles/blogs/immersion-the-dam-part-52012-07-06T22:30:00.000Z2012-07-06T22:30:00.000ZChristopher Stewarthttps://www.ashtarcommandcrew.net/members/ChristopherStewart<div><p style="text-align:center;"><img src="http://poligraf.files.wordpress.com/2012/05/444px-underwater_world.jpg?w=444" alt="" /><br /> <span style="font-size:x-small;">(« <a href="http://commons.wikimedia.org/wiki/File:Underwater_world.jpg">Underwater World</a> » by <a href="http://flickr.com/photos/56755410@N00">Felipe Skroski</a>)</span><br /></p><div align="center"><object width="290" height="24" codebase="http://download.macromedia.com/pub/shockwave/cabs/flash/swflash.cab#version=6,0,40,0" data="http://kiwi6.com/swf/player.swf" type="application/x-shockwave-flash"><param name="allowScriptAccess" value="never" ></param><param name="allowNetworking" value="internal" ></param><param name="wmode" value="opaque" ></param><param name="movie" value="http://kiwi6.com/swf/player.swf" ></param><embed wmode="opaque" id="audioplayer" width="290" height="24" type="application/x-shockwave-flash" src="http://kiwi6.com/swf/player.swf" flashvars="playerID=audioplayer&soundFile=http://k005.kiwi6.com/uploads/hotlink/v4vuf0a0s3&titles=poligraf.the.dam.v14.patched.5.mp3" allowscriptaccess="never" allownetworking="internal"></embed> </object></div><p><br /></p><p>In the storyline of « The Dam, » once the obstacle is recognized and the necessity of the conquest accepted, the protagonist must transform to become what they feel they must be.</p><p>The fifth movement portrays this transformation, and is entitled « Immersion. » The word is intended to refer to both the introspective facet and the manifestation of this shifting process, as it evokes the process of entering oneself for reflection, and the qualitative change wherein one fully becomes oneself.</p><p>The lyrics have received the « this-close-to-satisfactory » status : <br /> <br /> <em><br /> Standing back it's all clear<br /> Following the wrong stream<br /> Everyday I'm dying<br /> For fear of failing<br /> <br /> Signs ignored and doors missed<br /> The whole world misread<br /> Always the same barrage<br /> Self-inflicted damage<br /> <br /> I must reconnect to<br /> My source and my outlet<br /> Carefully rebuilding<br /> What has been lost drifting<br /> <br /> Choosing a better boat<br /> Today and hereafter<br /> The ocean is calling<br /> Myself I must enter</em><br /></p><p>While googling to verify some English phrasing, I stumbled upon the following text, which expresses very well how I view my relationship with Poligraf and its music :</p><blockquote>Artists often appear to be absolutists - absolutists of their artistic enterprise. Because they consider it the most important thing to be done - for themselves and in the art world in general. This absolutism often meets with criticism. But there is a reasonable point in it: The artist - the emphatic artist - is the only person in this world who is able to produce just the kind of things he produces. If he were not to do it, nobody would, and the world would remain poorer. A potentiality which can come into existence only through you - because you are the only person who is haunted by this vision and who has the potential to give birth to it - will be realized by you, or never. It constitutes your personal singularity, and you may also feel responsible for bringing about this objective potentiality which can come into existence only through you. It is either given birth by you - or will not exist at all. - Similar phenomena are to be found in other spheres too, in writing, science or philosophy. - <a href="http://www2.uni-jena.de/welsch/" target="_blank">Wolfgang Welsch</a>, "<a href="http://www2.uni-jena.de/welsch/Papers/becomingOneself.html" target="_blank">Becoming oneself</a>"</blockquote><p></p><p style="font-size:x-small;border:1px solid #AAAAAA;"><em><br /> « The Dam » is a 22-minute long suite in 8 movements that uses the metaphor of water flowing from source to ocean to illustrate the process of individual growth.<br /> <br /> As the title suggest, the focus is directed on one major obstacle/life-changing experience, symbolized by a dam on the river, which the protagonist/narrator has to conquer in order to reach their intended destination.<br /> <br /> The storyline is inspired by my own life and struggle to reach the goal of earning a living through my artistic output, as opposed to working a day job to support myself and invest what’s left of my energies in artistic pursuits on a part-time basis, as I’ve done for the most part of the last twelve years or so.<br /></em></p></div>Source (The Dam part 1)https://www.ashtarcommandcrew.net/profiles/blogs/source-the-dam-part-12012-06-13T22:00:00.000Z2012-06-13T22:00:00.000ZChristopher Stewarthttps://www.ashtarcommandcrew.net/members/ChristopherStewart<div><p style="text-align:center;"><img src="http://poligraf.files.wordpress.com/2012/05/444px-source_moselle_bussang_04_20070708_fra_vosges_misson_didier.jpg?w=444" alt="" /><br /> <span style="font-size:x-small;">(« <a href="http://commons.wikimedia.org/wiki/File:Source_Moselle_Bussang_04_20070708_FRA_Vosges_Misson_Didier.JPG">Source de la Moselle à Bussang</a> » by Didier Misson)</span><br /></p><div align="center"><object width="290" height="24" codebase="http://download.macromedia.com/pub/shockwave/cabs/flash/swflash.cab#version=6,0,40,0" data="http://kiwi6.com/swf/player.swf" type="application/x-shockwave-flash"><param name="allowScriptAccess" value="never" ></param><param name="allowNetworking" value="internal" ></param><param name="wmode" value="opaque" ></param><param name="movie" value="http://kiwi6.com/swf/player.swf" ></param><embed wmode="opaque" id="audioplayer" width="290" height="24" type="application/x-shockwave-flash" src="http://kiwi6.com/swf/player.swf" flashvars="playerID=audioplayer&soundFile=http://k005.kiwi6.com/uploads/hotlink/cz0wx6o5a3&titles=poligraf.the.dam.v14.patched.1.mp3" allowscriptaccess="never" allownetworking="internal"></embed> </object></div><p></p><p>« The Dam » is a 22-minute long suite in 8 movements that uses the metaphor of water flowing from source to ocean to illustrate the process that we affectionately refer to as life.</p><p>As the title suggest, the focus is directed on one major obstacle/life-changing experience, symbolized by a dam on the river, which the protagonist/narrator has to conquer in order to reach their intended destination.</p><p>The storyline is inspired by my own life and struggle to reach the goal of earning a living through my artistic output, as opposed to working a day job to support myself and invest what’s left of my energies in artistic pursuits on a part-time basis, as I’ve done for the most part of the last twelve years or so.</p><p>The opening section of « The Dam » is entitled « Source. » I remember feeling uplifted and very satisfied with myself after writing the first draft back in September 1997, even though I only had a vague idea of the whole piece at the time. Given how the suite turned out and what it stands for, it is now easier for me to understand why.</p><p>The composition is an orchestral piece arranged for the « Modern Poligrafic Ensemble, » as I like to call our band when the parts I have written for Christian (our drummer) involve orchestral percussions. It slowly builds up and progressively hints at the main riff of the upcoming second section.</p><p>As I often do, I have written poetry to accompany this instrumental. Here's a first draft : <br /> <br /> <em>I'm a source and as such I'm possibility<br /> Eager to be fluent in creativity<br /> And though for the moment I am barely a stream<br /> Of the temerity of the keen brook I dream<br /> <br /> I'm new born and so I'm vulnerability<br /> Flowing out insecure and with anxiety<br /> And though for the moment I am a shaky stream<br /> Of the continuity of the river I dream<br /> <br /> I am free and I have pristine ebulliency<br /> Gushing forth explosive yet with fluidity<br /> And though for the moment I am a bubbly stream<br /> Of the authority of the torrent I dream<br /> <br /> I'm giving I'm fueling I am activity<br /> Springing forward willing yet with timidity<br /> And though for the moment I am a measly stream<br /> Of the vitality of the rapids I dream<br /> <br /> I'm unique in this world I'm singularity<br /> Yearning to contribute all my capacity<br /> And though for the moment I am a clumsy stream<br /> Of the proficiency of waterfalls I dream<br /> <br /> I'm water and so I'm susceptibility<br /> Turbulent volatile and lacking clarity<br /> And though for the moment I am a muddy stream<br /> Of the limpidity of the great lake I dream<br /> <br /> I'm living evolving I'm mutability<br /> Far from immaculate yet I have purity<br /> And though for the moment I am a lowly stream<br /> Of the nobility of the wide firth I dream<br /> <br /> I'm growing and so I'm eventuality<br /> Purposeful and patient I have tenacity<br /> And though for the moment I am a petty stream<br /> Of the immensity of the deep sea I dream<br /> <br /> I'm carrying the seed of future victory<br /> Faithfully I transport invincibility<br /> And though for the moment I'm secondary stream<br /> Of the infinity of the ocean I dream</em></p></div>