Sometime between 2 am and 3am last night I awoke to sleep paralysis, radio waves and voices in my left "ear" and pain and vibration on the ride side of my chest/back. I wriggled, as I do, trying to break free of being frozen.

 When I snapped out of it, I saw tons of movement in the dark of my room. Nothing I haven't experienced similarly in the past. But pretty interesting.

 In hindsight, I always wish that I could go back and try to remain calm and un-fearful, to see where it goes, but I can never remember that in the moment. The feel of urgency to break free is usually pretty overtaking.

really.

in my own humble words, the meaning of Hope is holding on when help can't be found.

Faith is KNOWING it be so, and moving forth into reality.

I have seen many strange and wonderful things. I have glimpsed into other dimensions, and in them I have found others glimpsing back. I have always known that there is more than what our physical senses can perceive.

One of my blessed teachers once told me that I am a Healer, and that I will Heal others, but first I must Heal myself. And so I have wandered in the dark, letting Hope guide me, waiting until I could understand. I have searched and studied and prayed and meditated, trying my best to wrap my mind around what I AM. what the purpose of "this all" is.

and now, it just hit me. This is real. The Kingdom of Heaven is manifesting here on Earth. NOW. and more abundantly each second. I see it all around me, and IN me.

In some instances, I am being made well, my fear and dis-ease are fading away. Physical ailments I have carried all my life are being reconciled. But in other instances, it's so much more than that. I can SEE my Christ-ed body coming to fruition. Reality is shifting. "Laws" of physics and biology are being re-written!!

I don't have time to say all that I could about it. I just really wanted to chronicle this epiphany. I am not new to this. This is a journey that I have been on for quite some time. and yet, right now, I feel as though I am a child.