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I Was 21 When I Made My First Post On Ashtar Command

Posted by Ryan on September 30, 2015 at 7:30am

I think the first time I ever posted on Ashtar Command was in 2007, and then it changed to Ashar Command Crew in 2009 I think.  So much has changed in these 9 years it trips me out thinking about how fast the time went by.  I've been struggling the entire time so it all kind of blurs together and seems like just yesterday I got started on my journey to conscious awakening.

 I was living in an apartment under my Mom's house rent free, I had a cool job a cool girlfriend and m life was set.  I would just smoke weed and chill at night, make music, research ufo's, consciousness and other trippy things online.  I would go and chill with my bro Andrew and go hit the Marin Headlands to smoke weed and talk about aliens, government coverups, mushrooms and dmt.  I had nothing to worry about, as free as a bird.  If only I had known all the bad choices I would make I would have stopped myself before it got bad.  Luckily I pulled out and I'm doing good again with my own business but I'm 29 now and fee like I wasted a good 5-6 years.  My mom eventually kicked me out and things got bad in terms on living and jobs for a long time.

I miss those days though, of smoking weed while the morning fog covered my house and surfing Ashtar Command, nothing to worry about but driving to San Francisco to smoke weed and hang out.

I'll be 30 in a few months and I feel like a completely different person.  I would do anything to go back to being 21 again but things in the long run are going to work out really well so it's all good.

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It's been awhile

Posted by Ryan on March 18, 2011 at 6:30am
It's been awhile since i have logged on and feel good doing so.  I feel like Ashtar Command is a home where i can venture off and always return to a community of love.  I miss the old days of Ashtar Command about 4 years ago but am proud of what is has become and thank Ben for following his heart and allowing himself to be open to this idea which he followed through with no matter the cost.  I'm glad to be back and hope to meet some new people as over the years this website has gone through a lot and many have left but many have joined.
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Life is an expression of molecular reality.

Posted by Ryan on April 3, 2010 at 9:30pm
life is an expression of molecular reality. Everything in life from Carbon molecules to automobiles. Consciousness is experiencing this molecular reality in the form of brains inside bodies. People explain the pictures and sounds in our brains as ideas or thoughts but i like to think of them as visions, because the word vision is a much more powerfull and meaningful term than the words idea or thought. A vision is something divine, from the higher forces, from consciousness. Every thought in our minds is important because its adds to the experience of consciousness. I have also come to wonder if consciousness has been slowly evolving into these bodies or if a higher force than consciousness created all of this for consciousness. A soul must be brave to even consider living life because life is indeed a challenge. One can be taken out at any moment and has to survive in an anamalistic world ruled by greed and power. Life is also beautiful amazing beyond words in an infinite amount of ways. There is a constant balance of happy sad, good and bad. It is truly a world of Light and Dark, learning the understanding of morality and personal choice, a chance to experience happiness and sadness at levels unlike any other. This life is a random place built from chaos and ruled by order. It is a place to roam the depths of reality and push the limits, a place to fight for freedom.
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Been watching a multi colored light in the sky for past hour

Posted by Ryan on September 23, 2009 at 11:30pm
I was looking up into the stars tonight and came across a light in the sky shinning many different colors, its not the first time ive seen this, it stays in the same place for a long time almost like it docked. then after ahwile its gone. Its so awesome and i love seeing it. There here, many of our souls have lived in their colonies and they haven't forgotten. They know that there are many good souls down here who have love weather in the physical or souls just roaming earth. I am now in San Fernando Valley california. there is a man who summons other dimensional beings close by so it could be his efforts and i may have just picked up on it because all consciousness is connected. I have also seen them were i grew up in the San Francisco Bay Area. Whatever it is i love seeing them, and hope that more people become accepting and grow with love so that our colonies can work and live together as one.
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Extreme ice cream cravings

Posted by Ryan on September 17, 2009 at 4:46am
For some reason my roomates and I are having extreme ice cream cravings. All i know its weird. I doubt its anything but its weird. We have been having a lot of weird weather too.
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Our bodies are just like cars in every way (Soul Vehicle)

Posted by Ryan on July 16, 2009 at 5:21am
We spend time choosing the right car for travelOur soul spends time choosing the right body for travelWe must eat food and drink water to survivewe must fuel our cars with gas and keep them oiled as well as feed them water for coolant in order to runWe enter into our cars with purposeWe enter into our bodies with purposeWithout a soul, the body is just body and cannot move anywherewithout a person, the car is just a vehiclewe exit our bodies at night into another worldwe park our cars and leave them from time to timeif we dont treat our car right it will not run propperly and die soonerif we do not treat our bodies right they will die soonerOur cars are an extension of our selfour bodies are an extension of ourselfNo car can last foreverno body can last foreverwe can get a new car when ours dieswe can get a new body when ours diesa person driving a car is just like a soul driving a body
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