I forgive myself for believing that flesh is everlasting, and putting my heart into something that was surreal and not into something that I couldn't see. I was always convinced that I was learning how to understand what was going on and that it was actually possible to understand what's real. In a sense, only God is real. Because there's no one here and not even a group of people who could ever have an explanation or an accurate description for what is going on. What we perceive as real is actually just a sad attempt at making sense of what we don't know or can't possibly understand. What we can't see is what God does see. He sees us, and our intentions as well as our sorrows and concerns. It's a matter of faith. That's all life is. What you see is what you get. Everything else you just have to see as a work of something greater than you. And so...If you fight it it's stupid. Don't fight something you don't see, or if it is greater than you. Don't do it, because it's hard to win. And its actually just denying the purpose of life. You can't explore and discover if you always just want to win. And when you wanna win, there's no way you're helping the rest of life become faithful in the discovery of knowledge. 

So, in the light of all this, I still prepare myself for Jesus' return. Cuz that would be the shit... wouldn't it?

Learning how to stand up for what you know is right is the biggest achievement you can hope to accomplish. I've noticed recently how maturity level doesn't always agree with age. The maturity of someone comes from their inner hopes and aspirations, not from their experiences alone, but also their beliefs and essentially, the truth of their existence. 

The expectations that you attract to yourself as you go through life, are usually pretty truthful because of the context that they appear to your conscious body. However, although expectations are partial-truths, they are always changing.

And so, we can't just live with expectations. For one, they will disappoint you, because you seriously can't control what it is that you could expect from life. And humans are beings of control. 

Controlling your expectations then...is difficult.
It requires that there be something to occupy your trust. What you put your trust in. It's important here to know that Jesus is someone you can put your trust in. 

His body represents the destruction of the human mind. He gave that up to please his God. The God of Israel and the God of Abraham. 

His blood is as pure as the love of the Holy Spirit himself.