Is it worng to be a 48 year old man and want to be rescued.to want someone to just say im here you'll be ok now? I have been on my own sense i was 14,never asked anyone for help,and now all that I have and hold close to me is falling apart.
i dont know maybe never asking for help and always doing it alone even whin i was married was my big mistake. it just feels worng to say I need it...BUT I DO.
on this day i am lost.it is the first year anv of my mothers death.from the age of 11 to 34 i was a very violent man,
i pushed all that away from me to try and be a more understanding man,but today my own brother,who stills judges me from my past pushed and pushed till he got me to the point of anger.anger that almost took me over. i walk away told him i dont need that in my life even if it means walking away and never looking back.even an hour later the pain the rage is still in me i even came close to hitting a man for bumping into me . shame is all i have at this point.i am alone in a county with over 120 family members.....i am lost. im sorry i can see this is not the line of this page but it was the first i cam to.
