I am 21 now. I smoked marijuana twice when i was 15. Both times it was the worst experience of my life. It made me feel like my mind kept resetting every second. It scared the sh** out of me!!! Horrible paranoid and anxiety. So I want to know, from a spiritual perspective, why is it that my mother, father, and my brother have all smoked marijuana several times in the past and enjoyed it, yet I just can't? Perhaps it is because my consciousness is different than theirs? (I am the only spiritually interested person in our family). But I know that many spiritual people are able to enjoy marijuana. Even to this day if I recall the experience of the mind resetting it comes back and starts again and I get panic attacks. So I was wondering, perhaps this has something to do with ascension coming? Or my naturally altered consciousness? I ask here because any friends who I have explained it to before just tell me I'm crazy and I just need to smoke more and get used to it then I can enjoy it (but I will never smoke it again).