I got thrown out of my home,heres why.
My mother,she's a very angry person,she sometimes acts nice and dandy,but she gets VERY mad over the littlest things.A week ago,a friend came over,we talked and played games etc.When he left,my mother came home,and the first thing she noticed was that someone has been smoking.During the time my friend was over,he smoked on the window.She got very mad,it almost got physical.Yesterday,when i was watching the TV,i was talking to my mother on the phone,i went away from the telly so i could have a little quiet time,when suddenly a loud laughter came upon and she thought that someone was here again.When she got home,things got really wrong,she was...angry,lets put it that way.
So today,when she came home,everything was ok,when she went to the kitchen,she immediantly came to my room and started yelling at me "WHY ARE THE DISHES DIRTY!?","You dont do your home chores,your doing AWFUL at school!" etc. Really,why would a person get mad over dishes?So anyway,one thing lead to another and now im...homeless.I'm at my grandmothers place right now,but i dont have a genuine home now.The last words my mother told me were "Give me the keys and Get out".thankfully,i didn't.So i no longer have a home,she might cool down in a few days,but i don't want to be there or anywhere NEAR her.I just want to go away...far away,i want to be among aliens,good or bad,i want a real home...
So iv reached my Zero-Point.I don't know what to do any more.
She's a bad person,i dont want to see her again.She feeds off negative energy.
thoughts,please...
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Hi Rae, you said "You can live life by your own rules and just have the freedom to be yourself." If only this were the whole truth at this moment. I'm not sure how well folks here understand how the human systems of this world function, though I can tell you they do not at this time truly allow one the freedom to be yourself. Though it may not matter, since everyone is at different stages of learning, not only spiritual soul growth lessons, but also how these human systems operate so that they may be transformed into ones that serve the highest good of all. You see, if one does not understand all these systems, then one is at a disadvantage. That is why some here said they went into deep negativity and depression, most likely because they are ignorant of the fact that all these human systems have been designed purposefully to create that very energy and circumstance in all our lives. People that have so called homes are not free to be themselves, though it may appear that way to them and others, they are enslaved by the same systems. I saw a quote from someone on this forum, something like, do not lie to yourself and it will be very hard for others to lie to you. This is the point here. Were all in these dramas due to the systems of thought that have created the physical structures and systems of human living, whereby we acquire our basic needs for living. You see, the drama that has generated much disharmonious energy for 'the risky' is due primarily to these imbalanced systems we all operate within. With more balanced systems that tend to our basic needs, 'the risky' may or may not have even been in that situation, since he would have had his own dwelling or would know that it could be easily had and the energy of stress, fear and worry would not radiate from his being. Though since he was exposed to his mothers imbalanced energy, he will have to heal that from his being. I hope you folks understand how this is all interrelated, the physical drama. Though it doesn't have to be a nightmare/enslavement drama, it could be transformed into a love and joy drama which I prefer myself.
peace love light
Just stay strong, sometimes these things are a blessing in disguise...
I hope you feel better soon, and that you find a good solution for your situation Risky! There are always solutions :)
People please, and I don't mean this as an offense, but truly, one thing I got to learn is that although this doesn't feel like home, doesn't mean it's out there in the stars, because aliens won't come here to save us in a blink of an eye, we have work to do, we are our own home, and our job is to figure out what it means.
"Home is where the heart is" and that is true... So just wonder, where is your heart?
Look, she doesn't feed from it, but angry people who hurt, do so because they hurt too, however this is not an excuse and you have the entire right to claim your space and every right to let everyone know that you will not deal with negative people in harmful or violent ways.
I know how it feels not to have a home, my story is longer than yours which I can't explain right now, but honey we live in the now moment and the now moment is full of uncertainty, it gets very tiring, we have to live through this with all the love in our hearts to keep it together, I know it's hard, but it's what we came here to do.
I hope you find peace very soon, take lots of care.
i send you all my love to help you and perhaps if you are in my area you are welcome for a while ... i am sure that you are welcome at a lot off places! succes, johan,
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