twin flame = pain

to me, meeting my twin flame has caused me a lot of pain, and he feels the same way.

i met him when i was about 23, throughout the years we have come together and then went our own ways, come together and yet separate again, sometimes for only days, sometimes for years.

we have such completely different lives, but time keeps bringing us back. we can't be together however, because of many reasons. this incarnation has put us at opposite poles. i am an achiever and he is not, we are night and day, but yet when we get together, whether just to talk or become one in body and spirit...I feel an energy course through my meridians like no other. our etheric ties are so strong, I can see how bright red and thick they are when he pulls away from me, even for just a second. and when we kiss, i can see something that looks like a green misty cloud circling around our heart chakras. i can go on and on...when we part, sometimes I feel brief, but sharp pain in my heart and after he is gone, it takes me many months to deliberately PURGE him from my system, from my auric field.

i dream with him, i feel him, i know what he is feeling and i know what he is doing, sometimes. I know when he thinks of me, and when he cries for whatever reason. i know i have known him for many lifetimes. most amazingly i think, is that we feel the love we have for each other does not need to be expressed. no "i love you's", no need to tell the world when we are together or not, we just simply let things happen.

and it is the most beautiful thing when we are involved, so hard to resist...but it is the MOST painful thing when we are apart and i cry so much over our separations but yet look forward to our next encounter! i don't entirely understand this, and neither does he. we feel the same, but we can not understand each other's lives.