My Dear Laurie and Patricia,
What you have written really resonates for me. Because of my somewhat unusual experiences while awake and asleep, I've been reading esoteric-type stuff for decades -- at least 4. And I find myself drawn to everything Sirian. I don't know if this means that I am from there, but would be thrilled to know that I was. I feel no connection to Hollow Earth beyond curiosity and yet when I think of Sirius B I get excited. I still ask, "Could I be self-deluding myself?"
I do not care to ask where I am from as I am an important part of the GOD s plan just as I am and at the age of 11 had my first divine Could be construed as intervention as my life has been exceedingly hard from the start and at that age my father beat me so senseless I bawled myself to sleep and recieved a divine message from who we call yeshua or jesus himself warning me my life would be in the light sometimes and in more darker areas others but HE WOULD ALWAYS BE WITH ME EVERY STEP OF MY WAY.
Later on in life in my 20's I was so hard core in my church and I recieved a patriarchal blessing that also said the exact thing that yeshua had said to me years earlier but it had a little morsel of info extra,
the patriarch called me the most favored daughter of GOD and said my knowledge would not always be from what I can see with my eyes but it would be from all other areas that I would have a knowing of things I never learned.
I waited so many years then suddenly I started growing an incredible sense of intuition and knowledge I myself had never learned,
as the years went by I began 3 years ago remembering the waiting room before this life I am possibly DNA wise from the ETs we describe as NORDICS I understand that may be pleidjan who knows really I am ME and I am a part of the DIVINE and an important player in the last of the plan.
And this has been givin to me by my angelic guides as a truthful information if you want to talk about things shown to me by who I call my guide or better yet my personal ANGEL you can ask!
My patriarchal blessing (given at the age of 17) was mostly a guilt trip. I was told that I was the only member of my family strong enough to bring the others back into "the fold", and it was therefore my obligation. I learned by the age of 25 that my family members are bound to one another through LOVE, and need nothing more, especially not an organization to approve or disapprove. And we have been most fortunate in love, ever-increasing with each generation. I am also a poet. My only published book of poetry is titled, "God in Assorted Boxes" but I have poetry published in many anthologies and magazines. I would enjoy reading some of your poetry sometimes, especially if it rambles! :)
Just wanted to say that I do see myself in you my friend, a lot of the things and feelings you describe could come from myself.