I have always known I was different and had a so-called good life until my 30's and due to circumstances went on a negative path. About 10 years later I woke up and found out I had cancer. I somehow knew it was due to the pain/fear/anger I had held onto. I did the regular treatment but also was drawn to a support facility that provided access to alternative healing which I did as much as possible and would call to take advantage of cancellations. One day a miracle occurred. I finally totally let go, went into a convulsion and had an amazing amount of heat leave my heart-almost knocking over the healer which had never happened. I went on to become a Reiki Master and during my second initiation I literally turned into an eagle or riding on an eagle flying over the most beautiful surrealistic landscape. After that I found myself living in an alternative universe(it felt). I could feel everything and their vibrations. It changed my life. I made peace with my mother and went back to work helping those in poverty and found it easy to connect from the heart. I didn't keep up my meditation until the last several months and am back on the path. I think I left the years before behind but I am having to really examine the things that have come to me in the last several years. One thing that concerns me is I feel the need to connect with others but those that I have touched through work I am not able to associate with and keep my job which until we are free is the main way I touch people. I do feel the need to connect with others for feedback and I wonder if others feel the same. I just think I need to connect also to boost energy and I am wondering if anyone has any feedback. I am so grateful to have found out all the people out there like me as I had decided I was just alone and weird.
It is an absolutely human feeling the urge to connect to other people and exchanging with them in some way!
Do not worry about this longing. Welcome it! It proves that your ability to show interest for others still exists.
And yes, I feel the strong need to connect to others, too. :)
Just like now I connected to you.
There are two different cancer healing methods I'd like to recommend you:
1.: A herbal tea called "Flor Essence" (just google for it...)
I hope it helps you. Be well!