Okay...long story short, my neighbor is causing a lot of problems for me. A LOT of problems!
The mayor is even coming to my house tonight to discuss the 'issue' and she is suing my landlord for something that he hasn't even had anything to do with in an attempt to get him to kick me out of my house.
Anyways...usually at the beginning of the day, and throughout the day, I surround myself with 'light'. My children, my significant other, my house...all gets surrounded with light.
Only now, I can't. I've tried and tried and it's like someone has switched my light switch to 'off'.
And it's even worse...every time I try to surround myself with white light, it turns to flames.
I have even tried to shield the neighbor's house from any negative thoughts or feelings that I may unintentionally throw in their direction, but again...it starts off white, and then turns to flames.
Any advice on how to get my 'light' back?
Is this just a manifestation of my anger, or something more?
Can I unintentionally hurt someone with this?
Well, for what's going on, the mayor can't kick me off the property...and my landlord is on my side as much as he can be.
I'm not focused...I 'can't' focus. I usually start my 'light' from the ground up, but it's as if someone else is trying to push it back down. I can get the light up to about my heart chakra, and then it's just like I explode into flames. Even when I'm very very calm and the flames don't come, I still can't bring the light all the way up to enclose myself in it. It just stops.
I'm also completely zapped of all energy. I feel like I could sleep for days. Every muscle in my entire body hurts...and then now to top it off, I feel very unprotected and vulnerable without 'my light'.
My children and I are fine, physically. Our neighbor made up a bunch of lies that resulted in our dog being sent to the pound, and now, will most likely be killed. My neighbor is the type of person that likes n.o.b.o.d.y. at all. I've only talked to her twice, and both times she was negatively gossiping about almost every person on the block. She has done this several times to the neighbor across the street as well, even going as far as writing his wife an anonymous letter full of lies. What is making it so hard is that I have empath abilities, and I have five small kids in my house mourning a dog that has been gone for two weeks...and no 'white light' to protect myself with...or to protect them with. It's really starting to wear me down. I could literally lay down on my couch right now, close my eyes, and be asleep for days if I had the time to do so. It's just really draining.
its not advice i offer
i dont know enough to do so....you are the expert on your life
my gut responce however is
when nothing is working its possible that the universe/larger self is determined to head in a new direction
if this is you.....everything will work well when you move towards the new world
stop white lighting and start standing up for yourself and your loved ones with your indomitable femine power... go smash down the walls of the pound and get you dog back NOW !!!!!!! take strong advocates...do you know any dog loving bikies? :) if not go meet some and ask for their help to beak your dog out of the death chamber. gos helps those who help themselves
Now as much i luv love and harmony it is perhaps time you start a war ( no killing though ;-) ) stand up for those you love, fight for your dog and shelter...it's no fair your neighbor (King George of England :-P ) is taking away your liberty.
In these time use your ego that's why it was giving to you ;-)
Use the Violet Flame .. ask your own guides to assist you and visualise a favourable outcome for you and all ... trust and give it all up to God...
Thank you, I just got done talking to the mayor and it's looking a little more positive.
Kind of wondering if maybe I was intuitively using the violet flame when I was seeing 'flames'. I really never paid attention to the color - it kind of made me panic and snap back to reality, so that is very interesting.
Hopefully I can get back to my old self again soon, and banish all this negative energy from my life.
And I will definitely be reading up about how to use the violet flame effectively in my daily life.
agreed! I'm so sorry this is happening to you Sarai, its awful when you feel abandoned by the Light. This is only a lesson my dear, the Light never left you. There may be something that has attached itself to you through your rather awful neighbour which is leeching the energy as it gets to your heart. That it made you panic a little does suggest that fear is holding you back in some way. use the violet flame hun, that will definitely help. Even if you feel you can't call it or see it, it is still there. This might be a test of faith?? to see whether you will believe it is there regardless of whether you can see it or feel it. Trust. Believe. If you don't mind, I'll meditate on this tonight and see whether I can give you any other info. Good luck Sarai, hope that this resolves quickly xx
You're so kind. I just finished talking with the mayor and I think things will end up okay with the dog, for now anyways. But I definitely think it is time to find a new place to reside if I can't figure out how to block the negativity that seeps from the walls of the house next door. Thank you so much for talking to me.
I feel for you, I had a neighbor like that once. As much as I am very centered and calm person he made me explode at him which actually helped in my case but I think that finding new place to live is not a sign of defeat , only solution............................
It might be the universe's way to tell you that a good thing for you to do would be to move out. Maybe you are being displaced for the coming shift, it could be a blessing in disguise. It might be why your guides won't help you cling to your position? Only my 2 cents....Go with the flow, the fighting is over.
Hi Sarai, sorry to hear about your situation but I have a feeling it'll start to look up soon. When I read your message before reading the comments below, the first thing that popped up in my head was "Use the violet flame" too! So when your visualization bursts into flames, ride on it and transform it into violet flame that purifies any negative energies into love.
I used to do the white light protection earlier on and I slowly moved on to the violet flames because I feel that I need something more "active" because I'm starting to need more protection etc. I'm guessing that the flame is showing because perhaps your higher self knows that you need something "stronger" to ward off any negative energies with the neighbor saga, kind of to "up the amp" a bit but it's just that you're not very familiar with it and equate flames with anger (which can also be the case, so take the positive route!).
As always, always follow your inner guide fore we're merely offering our own interpretation :)
Much love and light to you!