I feel you. Me too, I've been pretty all over the place lately. I'll have days where I'll feel totally sharp and clear and on point, like I could do anything. And then I'll have days when I feel so fogged and inept, I don't even want to go out. I'll have days where I feel untouchable, like Hercules, and other days where I'll feel just vulnerable and weak. And usually I'm in myself enough to feel like my presence encapsulates the world, but yesterday I had a serious case of separation...something I haven't felt since I was a small kid, where I just felt alone, and unsafe...like I'm just one small person in a huge strange world.
I'm going to be going back to Mexico soon, and I've been there twice already, all alone....and I never felt any anxiety really, but now I feel alot of anxiety about it. I always knew how it's not completely safe there for me, and something might happen, and I never really worried about it, but this time, the possibility seems more real. I always knew I'd be entering a different culture with different people and a language I don't speak perfectly, and I'd be all alone...but again, I never really worried about it. This time it's different. I don't know, I just feel anxiety...like I'll be all alone, entering a strange foreign place, with foreign people, a foreign language...and danger. It's a strange feeling of being disconnected from myself and the world...a serious case of separation...and I never really felt that before.
I take it as part of the clearing, old deep perceptions I didn't even know were there really, coming to the surface. Or maybe I'm in a mode where I'm taking it on to help clear it for humanity..who knows. I just hope this phase passes soon, so I can get back to normal.
What about you, what are you feeling anxiety about?
"I never felt any anxiety really, but now I feel alot of anxiety about it. I always knew how it's not completely safe there for me, and something might happen, and I never really worried about it, but this time, the possibility seems more real"
careful john...do you have to go...... could you go somewhere else....central america ? or could you find psych security with your current intent....
yes there is the discharge of emotions...it could just be masive excitment!!!!that can feel like anxiety , but there is also intuition /manifestation.
anyhow...you will know best ! may your enjoyment and excitment be delicious...enjoy enjoy enjoy
Well my girlfriend is in Mexico with her family now, so that's why I'm going. I don't have to go, per se, but I'm going. And no, it's not excitement, I can tell the difference lol It's anxiety...but I know it's just a phase and it'll pass, it's discharging of emotion, like you said. I look at it as just an old fear and separation perception coming back one last time, before we move into the new age and into love and oneness.
ahah....cant miss the GF :)
well wrap yourself in light and trust
Sure speak however you want lol
Well I think this one describes me to a tee lol Well it's good to have this perspective to fall back on, I felt instinctively that it was something like this. Thanks Eva :)
really resonated with me too
thank you very much eva
im up and down like a mad womans footsteps emotionally
it just occurred to me it feels like ive emmigrated and have been suffering buyer regret/homesickness and culture shock
i used to be married , wealthy, in command of a productive career2010
now i live in wonder world...ANXIETY!!!
but in wonder world you have to trust and accept and learn to appreciate whats directly here now
i think the intesity is because the discharge is actually reall and raw without protection
but it is better to live in the scary wilderness that the boring zoo
i feel very positive that this period will give rise to a much larger strength
no pain no gain
as we vibrate in every more fine fashion, it feels a bit weird a nd fizzy to begin with...i trust all will settle down
Well what exactly are you feeling anxiety about, Hunter?
well that got me thinking jj...so thank you for asking
i could reel off a list of things i Am really focused on , but i know theyre just pretends to hang the fear on
i feel its this sence of have i or havnt i forfilled the mission
on the one hand i do trust in my heart i have done well, yet there is this abiding sence of shame... that i failed the test of courage. that i should have done better.
now i think ill just go throw up :) :(
it s the judas/sharman feeling comming up again( good guy ..serves well... poorly treated...unrecognised for his contribution and sacrifice .... outsider ..... scares people....love them but dont relate to them)
thanks again for the ?
Yup can resonate well with everyones feelings on up and down. When on an up it's a huge up an up that makes everything worth while. When it flips and more emotional baggage that I thought had gone (as it had on the up) comes back and smacks me in the face I just withdraw from society as much as possible until it passes again. If I need to cry I do or wouldn't be able to stop it anyway and just ride the wave of the onion layer that is being removed. How many dam layers in an onion anyway, can't be many more or it's one HUGE onion I'm made of;)
I have that song stuck in my head right now! lol!