Hate In the World

People can be so many to each other, I don’t understand it. My mom always taught me to “kill others with kindness”. It doesn’t help yourself or other people to be nasty and rude. Try to step in that person’s shoes. For instance, I saw a mini van stop in the middle of a cross walk at school today, the person driving it was clearly lost. A girl in a svu was driving into the parking lot and she could definitely fit around the other car safetly but instead she decides to beep her horn and make and nasty face at the other driver. Then she parks, storms out of her car, and scowls at me for no reason. I don’t understand it, I don’t understand how people can be filled with so much hate. I’ve had awful things happen to me, I was brutually bullied at school for years and had little support from the staff, but I never felt bitter towards my bullies. They were below me, they had no control of their lives, and thought it would feel good to hit or push or call me names. No, it doesn’t do anything for you, don’t be mean over the internet, don’t fight back with cruelty. It’s just going to leave you more and more unhappy and succumbing to a culture of hate.

My parents believe we live in a culture of death, which I can see sometimes, but it’s more so hate. I’m going on a rant, but the only thing I truly hate is hate. It sounds ridiculous but it’s true. I’m a flower peace child at heart. I’ve also been told I’m an indigo child, which I’m continuing to explore and I believe I am one. Indigo children can range from having high confidience and sensitivity to those with supernatural powers. I have been able to see the future in my dreams and I have felt a stronger connection with people’s souls than most. I have always been friends with people based on their personality and soul and heart, not their looks. Sometimes I feel, when I am with a truly genuine, kind person, that I am just with their soul, I forget that their shell is even there. I love that and I hope to meet more indigo children on earth with a special purpose. Indigo children often feel an entitlement or “deserving to be here.” I have always felt I am going to make a difference and do something big with my life. That’s why I get so frustrated with my current job at the daycare. I would like to work with rape survivors, lgbt youth, and autistic children specifically. I want to spread all the love and hope inside of me to others. I want to let everyone know that happiness comes from yourself, you cannot find it within relationships with others solely. When they leave you will just be unhappy and not know how to thrive. If anyone ever needs to talk, I am here.