Fellow ACC members, brothers and sisters of the Golden Age,
this weekend turned GNARLY ugly sad car wreck feelings
my wife finally broke down and told me that all the OFF THE WALL stuff I am into...
books on Arcturians, Syrians, Pleiadians and Jesus,
Archangel Michael, cosmic Websites with Angels, scattered addresses on my desk, one of which is Bill Brockbader's Jail address so I can write to him, video tapes on Alex Jones
and my constant leaking from my mind,
dribbling statements about how the IRS is going to be gone soon or that the Federal Reserve is going down, vanishing along with humanity's need for money.
oh oh oh,and
and the out of your fucking mind statements about Bush and Blair tried for being War Criminals and going to jail soon...the seminars I sign up for that are SPIRITUAL Woo woo...she thinks David Wilcock looks like a lunatic...my hero..she calls a lunatic...
.So I have been HEART/slammed like a force against a steel wall,
the force of an enraged VENUS, a terrified female/wife/mother/mate.
She says our 12 year old daughter is also scared and they are both watching me get farther and farther away from them, a vast divide opening wider and wider...
HER SUFFERING, FEAR, ATTACHMENT, CONFUSION AND BEING MOSTLY LOST in a sea of worry of LACK, that if she loses her husband, the bread winner, she loses her security. Her love for me suddenly sits second fiddle to her overwhelming state of terror, as she watches me change before her.
How many others are going through the same sudden family meltdown?
I was told by my spiritual mentor from Santa Fe. not to count on anything like an EVENT to suddenly happen that would likely let her finally see that I am telling the truth,
no, I was told, EVERYTHING IS AS IT SHOULD BE...... that who am I to Question GOD and his timing?
Does GOD wear a wristwatch? This is GOD"S BUSINESS, not mine, so focus on my own light.
She also said for me to take a FAST from the internet,
and devote myself entirely to the spirit of my 12 yr old daughter, who is torn and confused and also terrified, not so much of what I am alluding to in the skies above us,
but terrified of a break up of her parents.
I am advised to write on paper, letters to the souls of my two girls, and explain what I am becoming,
and how they will soon find peace and bounty, etc etc...whatever I want to say..
....then I am to ask Jesus to take the messages to their souls when I burn the paper I write the letters on..
burn them,and know that their suffering souls at least got the message I wanted to tell them.
I am advised to DISENTANGLE MYSELF from the Dark, to pay attention only to the light,
and to shine as bright as I can,
and not to become distracted...either by the internet or the suffering of the soul of my wife,
for I am not to water her garden, but to stay on my side of the garden fence.
Tend your own garden, as each soul tends to their side of the road and theirs only.
Her soul never gave me permission to try and change her, or awaken her.
But in my egoistic, paternal and loving manner, I want her suffering to end NOW,( I also do not want to move out of my home!)
so I pray for an EVENT NOW, please GOD...if she changes Grrrrrrreat! If she looks up and sees a light display of 100 flying saucers over Manhattan, and says...those silly weather balloons again...then I know its time to split.
Dear GOD, I can feel the pressure building up, its causing the water to vibrate around me as
I tred water in this churning Matrix and getting all GNARLY. Its like a the biggest BOMB ever is just about to blow now, like any day, any hour, any minute. Take a deep breathe I know..
Hi folks, Hi rlmstudios, thanks for sharing more of your story.
Since you've already broke ground on the money thing, maybe you should explain to your wife why money will be a thing of the past eventually and how money has been used to enslave humanity.
If you don't have the information for this, one good simple youtube video is, "money as debt".
This way, she will have a clearer comprehension of why you made that comment.
Of course offer this information when you feel the time is right.
This human journey is not entirely individual, or there would only be one human on the planet.
It is obvious to me, that we are meant to form perspectives on the world and certainly we are meant to form perspectives on the numerous mis-creations of human beings.
Most of humanity wants true peace, love and freedom.
Though we all should comprehend, that human living systems have been thought into existence, that cause results opposite to this.
Do we all really think we are meant to just go along with all of this until the end of time, or maybe the truth is closer to this, that until humans create living systems based on harmonious cooperation, we will be telling gnarly stories such as rlmstudios shared, until the end of time.
After all, lets face it, if all human systems were balanced, then very few would argue about much at all, since nobody would fear for their basic needs not being met, as we would all know, that humanity is one family and all human needs are seen to, unlike the every man or woman for themselves to benefit the few eilte, systems (clever slavery) we have today.
This also means, a large percentage of women are with men and vice versa for survival purposes, which does not lead to happy campers at the end of day.
peace love light
My heart goes out to you. I went through a similar thing with my lover, in January, when I decided one day to research what this whole 2012 thing was all about. My research was intuitive, following what resonated in me, and what made sense to me. I absorbed so much new information and was so excited. It felt like I found my tribe. I felt hope for mankind and was so eager to share everything I was learning with him. It scared the shit out of him. The changes in me scared the shit out of him. My time spent on the internet scared the shit out of him. He asked me to slow down, not talk about it so much. I felt rejected. I was almost unable to be quiet about it. I was soaring and felt he was trying to hold me back. We almost parted over it.
Problem was....I love him. When I was able to put aside my own feelings and look at it from his perspective it looked quite different. I had hours to surf the net following my own intuition and learning at my own rate, in my own way, reading only what interested me. I expected him however to swallow all of it in one big chunk, put together by Lori. I realized that I needed to respect where he was at. I needed to not give him meat when he was still only able to digest milk. I needed to respect his right not to talk about it. I needed to learn how to invite him and accept his answer to the invitation if the answer was no. The 5d world is about love. The foundation of love is accepting the right of the people we love, to be exactly where they are at in this moment. I realized that it was way more important for me to learn to live what I was learning, than to teach it. He was feeling bombarded and bulldozed, along with his fear that I was going nuts believing in alien invasions.
I stopped talking about it with him. I started instead saying to him, "Hey, this video makes sense to me, what do you think?" He now believes that the dark cabal, have been and are controlling things. He now sees the financial collapse of the world as maybe a good thing. He still can't tolerate any alien talk. It's ok. I love him anyway lol. Gentleness and supporting his right to not want to know was key.
I found this communication from the GFL very helpful http://ascensionearth2012.blogspot.com/2012/06/message-from-galacti...
Be the Love
Lori Scott Kaiser
I have to say, with all the utterly intense power and energy coming from everyone who has entered this particular discussion, over the past few days, of a full range of personalities, and egos, and lighted comments,
laughs and heartfelt hugs across the cyberspace of our new club house, AC...all together we have exhibited an amazing cross section portrait of the likely variations in the thousands and thousands of galactic brethren that perhaps we are all composed of, in zillions of ways, over the eons...wow, humans are an amazing intergalactic experiment and look at what we are going through NOW.
MY WIFE KISSED ME GOOD TONIGHT....Im signing off from this discussion for now.....you know why!
love you all
Hip Hip Hooray!!!! Hip Hip Hooray, oooooooooo kissy kissy. Goodluck
I sent my LOVE to you, YOU ARE A STRONG HUMAN, smile , talk to your kid, love her , hug her, tell her dont be afraid,
her daddy is ok, and look in to her eyes, you can see she trusts you and a smile of relief in her eyes,
talk to kid
blessings brother mmmmmmmmmm the matrix is is a state of flux 1111 is the number which chaos is coming through
try and centre yourself its hard im going through the eye of the storm too
Yes I am in your boat brother dear
whats up with the timing
Infinite Blessings BroStar...I have had my son taken away from me for 2 years and still have not been heard in court due to my beliefs as well. My mother, an ex-child "protective" services agent, could not stand me teaching my son not to trust the government, allopathic doctors and their vaccines, banks, police, and not to believe what he hears on tv and the radio. I had a kundalini awakening and she threw me in a mental hospital, took my child away, denied any contact, gave my animals away while I was locked up in the hospital, and filed a restraining order on me insinuating that she feared I would kidnap my child. The worst part is my parents are completely broken emotionally and verbally, mentally, emotionally abusive. They were my worst abusers and I can not protect my child from them. They are trying to destroy the deep bond we have so they can genotype and "reprogram" him to be a good little obedient consumer-slave instead of the crystal child he is. He is suffering greatly and I completely disapprove of almost every way he is being handled and I am completely powerless to stop any of it due to the corrupt business of mining our children for federal money from the state through the pedophilic babysnatching ring known as CPS. Be grateful you still get to see your daughter.
Yes we must not only carry our Lights we must shine them Brightly now. I, too, am expectantly waiting an entire series of Magickal Miracles that the great Shift of the Ages is bringing. It is a time for Spiritual Warriors so we must arise to the occasion. Espavo...Lisa <3<3<3