GETTING GNARLY NOW... My Wife Just Asked Me To Leave My Own Home since I AM SCARING HER !!@?%!!

Yes,

Fellow ACC members, brothers and sisters of the Golden Age,

this weekend turned GNARLY ugly sad car wreck feelings

my wife finally broke down and told me that all the OFF THE WALL stuff I am into...

books on Arcturians, Syrians, Pleiadians and Jesus,

Archangel Michael, cosmic Websites with Angels, scattered addresses on my desk, one of which is Bill Brockbader's Jail address so I can write to him, video tapes on Alex Jones

scandalous reports,

and my constant leaking from my mind,

dribbling statements about how the IRS is going to be gone soon or that the Federal Reserve is going down, vanishing along with humanity's need for money.

oh oh oh,and

and the out of your fucking mind statements about Bush and Blair tried for being War Criminals and going to jail soon...the seminars I sign up for that are SPIRITUAL Woo woo...she thinks David Wilcock looks like a lunatic...my hero..she calls a lunatic...

.So I have been HEART/slammed like a force against a steel wall,

the force of an enraged VENUS, a terrified female/wife/mother/mate.

She says our 12 year old daughter is also scared and they are both watching me get farther and farther away from them, a vast divide opening wider and wider...

HER SUFFERING, FEAR, ATTACHMENT, CONFUSION AND BEING MOSTLY LOST in a sea of worry of LACK, that if she loses her husband, the bread winner, she loses her security. Her love for me suddenly sits second fiddle to her overwhelming state of terror, as she watches me change before her.

How many others are going through the same sudden family meltdown?

I was told by my spiritual mentor from Santa Fe. not to count on anything like an EVENT to suddenly happen that would likely let her finally see that I am telling the truth,

no, I was told, EVERYTHING IS AS IT SHOULD BE...... that who am I to Question GOD and his timing?

Does GOD wear a wristwatch? This is GOD"S BUSINESS, not mine, so focus on my own light.

She also said for me to take a FAST from the internet,

and devote myself entirely to the spirit of my 12 yr old daughter, who is torn and confused and also terrified, not so much of what I am alluding to in the skies above us,

but terrified of a break up of her parents.

I am advised to write on paper, letters to the souls of my two girls, and explain what I am becoming,

and how they will soon find peace and bounty, etc etc...whatever I want to say..

....then I am to ask Jesus to take the messages to their souls when I burn the paper I write the letters on..

burn them,and know that their suffering souls at least got the message I wanted to tell them.

I am advised to DISENTANGLE MYSELF from the Dark, to pay attention only to the light,

and to shine as bright as I can,

and not to become distracted...either by the internet or the suffering of the soul of my wife,

for I am not to water her garden, but to stay on my side of the garden fence.

Tend your own garden, as each soul tends to their side of the road and theirs only.

Her soul never gave me permission to try and change her, or awaken her.

But in my egoistic, paternal and loving manner, I want her suffering to end NOW,( I also do not want to move out of my home!)

so I pray for an EVENT NOW, please GOD...if she changes Grrrrrrreat! If she looks up and sees a light display of 100 flying saucers over Manhattan, and says...those silly weather balloons again...then I know its time to split.

Dear GOD, I can feel the pressure building up, its causing the water to vibrate around me as

I tred water in this churning Matrix and getting all GNARLY. Its like a the biggest BOMB ever is just about to blow now, like any day, any hour, any minute. Take a deep breathe I know..

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Permalink Reply by rlmstudio on June 20, 2012 at 1:31am

Dear Bigfrancis
Thank you for your reminding me of how so deeply I had gone in my spiritual path just before I got engaged to my wife.
I had been practicing powerful Shamanic work, went on a pure Ayurvedic diet and began to shed pounds like crazy, and began to approach the feeling that I was close to telepathy, and being able to fly....my marriage simply put a huge END to all that, and my life did a 180 turnaround, had a baby right away, and fell into my new mate's very NORMAL socially accepted patterns of meat eating, coffee, sugar, dairy, and soon I was no longer 6 ft 125 lbs, and slightly transparent, but grew to 150 lbs and came down in my vibrational range drastically.

I assumed it was part of the plan, that would bring this child who so wanted to be born, into this lifetime, and that the marriage itself could last ....now, I wish so much for those days of ultra high vibrations and the feeling that I could levitate if I just worked a little harder..

At least I did experience spiritual bliss and I know it's well worth fighting for again.

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Permalink Reply by terry francis on June 20, 2012 at 3:56am

i wish you and your family all my love, i am a 2008 near death survivor that has been told by psychic DALE that i was brought back to heal and the last six monthsw have healed myself of chronic ra and osteo arthritis and sepsis,. been on cipro for 4 years along with 14 meds and steroids and still very sick, 6 months ago a man touched me and i started healing, he is a shaman and since i have read all drunvaloo's works , the emerald tablets of thoth and cram online 6-8 hrs daily on any info on healing with crystals, RIFE, caycee, all these dudes i am consumed with and i have become comepletely positive , but very sensitive to negative people and they scatter me when i am near them,.,.,.,been meditating with astarius miraculii, and several healing frequencies,.,.,.,,.loving life and everything in it,.,,,.,,.,,.,,.waiting for the day when i am freed of this beat up ole body ,.,.,.,.,i feel you need to increase your vibration again and she will finally feel it,.,.,.,.,.,,,.,.,..,,.,,.as you know, it is a beautiful cleansing thang,.,.,,.,lol

namiste

bigt

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Permalink Reply by Star Flower on June 20, 2012 at 7:44am

Ten years ago, the husband of a co-worker stopped eating. He (a dentist) explained to her that he no longer needed physical food; that the 'end' was very near, when he would be 'translated'. He only needed to meditate. She sought psychiatric help for herself, because she (and his family and friends) could not talk him into getting any help of any kind. His dental practice fell apart because he would faint and/or pass out while working. She began to train for a job herself-- there were still 4 children at home and she had been a stay-at-home mom for 15 years. She got on with her life because he would not take any advice or help from her. He had all the answers he needed. He knew what was best for him. He died from complications of malnutrition/starvation in 2002. It is ten years later and the 'end' he anticipated as "any day now" has still not occurred. This is a cautionary true story. If you are six feet tall, you need to weigh at least 160 lbs. That's just the way it is in 3D. I suggest you drink a milkshake and chase it with another. I write this so that if you die of self-inflicted harm to your body, I will not have to feel badly that I didn't try to stop you. I have the free will to caution you, and have hereby used it. You have the free will to make your own choice regarding keeping your physical body healthy so that you can continue your spiritual journey here on this plane of existence.

I send you love, in abundance.

Star Flower

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Permalink Reply by rlmstudio on June 20, 2012 at 12:52pm

Oh...Hun, you don't have to worry about me fading away any time soon, as I am now up to 170 and eating well. Love you for your loving me.

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Permalink Reply by Nancy A on June 20, 2012 at 4:56pm

RLM, it isn't her suffering that you want to end, it's yours. If yours ends, so will hers regarding you. That's how it often works in relationships. She wants you to be predictable. Exchanging $3K for coins isn't something a spouse is going to think is rational, when confronted with the fact that you did it without thought for how she would feel. It won't buy groceries or pay bills, to her way of thinking.

“Just another form of currency” was a serious investment, at a time of high uncertainty for each of you in your relationship. How can you pass it off as her "thing?" It's yours. Own it. Deal with it in you, not in her. Possibly it was just an innocent miscalculation. She doesn't see it that way. Wives don't get it that men do things on impulse. The coins might seem like a wise investment to you, and perhaps they are, in the 3D world of your experience, not in hers. It's time to think outside the box. Ascension is an individual experience we're told, but most of the people on this website are sharing their understanding of what it means, and getting upset with one another, often, over their inability to agree. Is it any wonder that we have even more misunderstandings with our “out of the loop” family and friends?

Realize that physical possessions are not even remotely part of the Ascension process. Collecting tokens is a security blanket, to convince us that we are protected from the uncertainty of not knowing what will happen next. The answer is simply: nothing, except within yourself. What you did made no sense, for either of you. It just re-enforced her belief that you are unpredictable. So what happens next? The cabal may decide to not meet, or change their meeting place, or meet in cyberspace to avoid arrest. They have more ploys than GFL can anticipate, being somewhat innocent of subterfuge, them selves.

Think of this as a cat and mouse game, in which the cat seems to be outwitted by the mouse, and yet we know, instinctively, the cat has an ultimate advantage. Illuminati have been the cat for ages, expecting they would have an undisputed advantage over us, the mice. Now the tables have turned, and they are the ones running for cover, and we are watching, knowing that our safety is still at risk, but we’re no longer in the game... perhaps. We aren't sure since the cat keeps telling us the outcome is up to us. What's that about? We are trying to find out.

Don’t worry about that while trying to understand your wife's alarm, and how your insecurity is affecting her. What unpredictable thing will you do next, and say it's all for her? It's not for her. You aren't protecting her. You are trying to find a way to protect yourself, from what? Money isn't real but coins are? That's what the financial analysts are saying, but they are lining their own pockets, not thinking about Ascension, or E.T.s, or much of anything, or anyone, but them selves. Their advice is not for us.

Instead, study the chakras, understand the Kundalini energy (unsure of spelling). There are drawings and detailed explanations on this website. Print them out, in color if you can. Children are fascinated with this kind of information. Your wife might even be receptive. It's not like Shamanism, which scared her, perhaps.

Chakras are understandable and predictable. You can visualize them during meditation. They are the same for everyone. They have a calming influence, when understood. It's something you can do together, no negative effects. The library has books you can check out, mainstream stuff, which might reassure your wife. Long shot? Perhaps, but it doesn't conflict with religion. The solar plexus is the power chakra, where we instinctively feel the attacks of others.

This is where the healing of relationships begins, before moving to the heart chakra. The power chakra is where women feel vulnerable. Men often take solar plexus strength for granted, in relationships with women. Not a good idea at a time when women are discovering that they have more options.

We haven't helped you on this website, where Ascension is a spiritual quest of individuals, not of families. Investing in coins though? That is strictly 3D, with nothing to do with anything of spiritual or relationship value. It is primarily a security issue. What problem, within yourself, were you hoping to solve? Solar plexus issues are in the middle chakra, where instinctively we react to danger.

This is where the entire world is presently, a boiling cauldron of discontent. The Sun is also building up places of turbulence, internally, surfacing as sun spots, spewing out bubbles of heat, some of which are bursting, endangering the solar system. What we are experiencing has been predicted. We don’t know how it will come out. This is not a time to panic, curl up into a fetal position until it's over. We are no longer the mice, and no longer have to fear the cat, but our courage is important as this plays out, for our benefit.

We, individually, are greatly loved by the Creator, without regard for who we are, or for what we've done. This is true for everyone, cabal and henchmen included.

This is our security during times of turmoil, for souls are not at risk without their permission. That is the Creator's best kept secret, but only because generations of power brokers have hidden it from us. Those power brokers are now face to face with consequences of their own deceptions. They are the ones facing their extinction, by individual choice. Do not fear their outcomes, for it has nothing to do with you, and you are not affected by the choice that each one makes.

This post was withdrawn an hour ago and edited. I hope it will make sense.

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Permalink Reply by rlmstudio on June 20, 2012 at 5:23pm

Dear Nancy,
How can il express my gratitude for you well thought out comment to me. Yes it does indeed make sense, and I agree totally about how currency has nothing to do with ascension, and the only gut reply I have to that is....I am a Father, paternal protector type...and wanted to have the assurance of real usable silver at hand even just to get the family through a few weeks of potential chaos.
I never intended to have her know about it as it was created from a private bank account of mine, but she opened and scrutinized the bank report and saw the wire transfer....all very unintended, so if there was a paper cash collapse, we would have money to get basics for a little while anyway.

The suggestions of the Chakra study is good, but not for her....if it has anything to do with the word "soul" she balks. I do take your suggestion to deal with my own insecurity at this time, based on too much information coming in from so many Divine sources telling us to be prepared...it's daunting to juggle all this all alone, and I am getting very very tired.

Keeping my vibrations high is alone a tough job and I know that a constant effort to be happy and light filled is very hard work in the face of so many sleepers.
Thank you again for such articulate advise, which I am sure will be read and heeded by many other readers, as for some reason, this discussion seems to keep going and going!
Much love wise one,
RLM

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Permalink Reply by Nancy A on June 20, 2012 at 9:59pm

You are correct, no doubt, and others are learning from your experience. John J. appears to have been right. I did not foresee this: your wife is not a damsel in distress; she may be building a case so watch your back.

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Permalink Reply by Star Flower on June 21, 2012 at 12:13pm

rlm, you say you have a private bank account that you never intended your wife to know about.... serious error my friend. That is not how partnerships are run, and marriage is a partnership..

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Permalink Reply by rlmstudio on June 21, 2012 at 12:34pm

Star Flower, you are so right. This is behavior coming for wanting to protect my family, and building a little nest that I know she would not have approved of, but once things started collapsing around here, and all the panic I know she will go through, I thought this would have been a nice surprise to present her at a time when she would be fearing that all her money in the portfolio was in danger...

It was done out of love, tp protect but you are absolutely right, never to withhold any such information from a spouse. So I am guilty.

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Permalink Reply by Star Flower on June 22, 2012 at 4:09am

Time to admit your guilt to your wife. And also admit your need for control. Sincere admission of weaknesses goes a long, long way in my experience.

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Permalink Reply by noor on June 22, 2012 at 11:13am

your wife want you 2b (((SLAVE)))simple!!!you do got choice,nobody matter only you!!!think about T,

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Permalink Reply by Colin L. on June 24, 2012 at 3:20am

Wow, take it all in bro and suck it up. I too was going through similar domestic "troubles" then a friend sent me this meditation. I hope it calms your soul and gives you the strength to endure.

I open my heart to You, dear God, and let Your peace fill my being. In Your presence, I am peaceful, poised, confident and strong.

I relax in Your loving care, dear God, and release all my cares to You, knowing that You are upholding me and sustaining me in all that I do.

As I keep my heart and mind centered in You, God, I feel Your peace infusing my entire being and keeping me serene and secure.

To You, beloved God, I release all sense of turmoil. In the comfort of Your presence, I am content and peaceful.

God, Your presence calms me, quiets the storms around me, and leads me to a place of perfect peace. As I center myself in Your peaceful presence, I let go of every concern and relax in the safety of Your love.