Fellow ACC members, brothers and sisters of the Golden Age,
this weekend turned GNARLY ugly sad car wreck feelings
my wife finally broke down and told me that all the OFF THE WALL stuff I am into...
books on Arcturians, Syrians, Pleiadians and Jesus,
Archangel Michael, cosmic Websites with Angels, scattered addresses on my desk, one of which is Bill Brockbader's Jail address so I can write to him, video tapes on Alex Jones
and my constant leaking from my mind,
dribbling statements about how the IRS is going to be gone soon or that the Federal Reserve is going down, vanishing along with humanity's need for money.
oh oh oh,and
and the out of your fucking mind statements about Bush and Blair tried for being War Criminals and going to jail soon...the seminars I sign up for that are SPIRITUAL Woo woo...she thinks David Wilcock looks like a lunatic...my hero..she calls a lunatic...
.So I have been HEART/slammed like a force against a steel wall,
the force of an enraged VENUS, a terrified female/wife/mother/mate.
She says our 12 year old daughter is also scared and they are both watching me get farther and farther away from them, a vast divide opening wider and wider...
HER SUFFERING, FEAR, ATTACHMENT, CONFUSION AND BEING MOSTLY LOST in a sea of worry of LACK, that if she loses her husband, the bread winner, she loses her security. Her love for me suddenly sits second fiddle to her overwhelming state of terror, as she watches me change before her.
How many others are going through the same sudden family meltdown?
I was told by my spiritual mentor from Santa Fe. not to count on anything like an EVENT to suddenly happen that would likely let her finally see that I am telling the truth,
no, I was told, EVERYTHING IS AS IT SHOULD BE...... that who am I to Question GOD and his timing?
Does GOD wear a wristwatch? This is GOD"S BUSINESS, not mine, so focus on my own light.
She also said for me to take a FAST from the internet,
and devote myself entirely to the spirit of my 12 yr old daughter, who is torn and confused and also terrified, not so much of what I am alluding to in the skies above us,
but terrified of a break up of her parents.
I am advised to write on paper, letters to the souls of my two girls, and explain what I am becoming,
and how they will soon find peace and bounty, etc etc...whatever I want to say..
....then I am to ask Jesus to take the messages to their souls when I burn the paper I write the letters on..
burn them,and know that their suffering souls at least got the message I wanted to tell them.
I am advised to DISENTANGLE MYSELF from the Dark, to pay attention only to the light,
and to shine as bright as I can,
and not to become distracted...either by the internet or the suffering of the soul of my wife,
for I am not to water her garden, but to stay on my side of the garden fence.
Tend your own garden, as each soul tends to their side of the road and theirs only.
Her soul never gave me permission to try and change her, or awaken her.
But in my egoistic, paternal and loving manner, I want her suffering to end NOW,( I also do not want to move out of my home!)
so I pray for an EVENT NOW, please GOD...if she changes Grrrrrrreat! If she looks up and sees a light display of 100 flying saucers over Manhattan, and says...those silly weather balloons again...then I know its time to split.
Dear GOD, I can feel the pressure building up, its causing the water to vibrate around me as
I tred water in this churning Matrix and getting all GNARLY. Its like a the biggest BOMB ever is just about to blow now, like any day, any hour, any minute. Take a deep breathe I know..
O and by the way, you wont find anyone more Prejudice than me, but I choose to see first, before I act. Often ones help is but taken out of context (a small piece of story taken from his entire life) can not show you that he is spineless, he is far from spineless, just by the mere fact he has taken on the studies of worldly matters that would cause another to slit their wrists, is far from spineless. Spineless is knowing all this and not acting.
Hehehehehehehe, guess who is spineless!!!!!!!! Lets look at Karma, meditation and messages, we often accuse others of our own guilt. A message without love in it is, your Karma, not rlmstudio. Its not up to us to force our will or beliefs onto rlmstudio, thats why every message should constitute the greater good. So please forgive Dawn for being a loving person of light, and her sympathy for rlmstudio, due to nasty words.
Reiz, would normally agree, as previously stated "Prejudice", but I dont know rlmstudios whole story and neither do you.
something has rattled your cage with this topic !
why dont you spill the beans and just say what it is,
have you experienced this in your life from your childhood ??
it might take my mind off things goin on in my life !
Well said Melanie! Messages without love do build Karma, and nasty words, are coming from fear and darkness, and these will not be allowed in the ascension process.
I totally agree with everyone who says that without direct proof, we are to keep our own council, and not try and force anyone else to believe what I do...which is why I joined this site, to share with like kind, awakened, loving souls, who I do not have to hold my council.
Pay no attention to any source of the dark, as it is what feeds it, and we are here to build our vibrations, not try to lower others'.
:)...SiStar GoDess Melanie!!!....<33<3
im curious to know your status ? REIZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZ
are you from a solid back ground etc, you seem very harsh !
just wanted to know why you were soooooooo harsh towards a very difficult situation, AND ive been there so i do understand,
maybe you will say im just as mad ,,,, eh ?????????????????///
Me too Dawn, and I agree in all you've said.
Love you, cariño mio.
Do you really think this world is "real"? Do you think that you know all the truth? why are you trying to crash rlmstudio or Dawn? isn't it that you can't handle this new way of being? Would you like the world to stay the same? I'm just asking, 'cause I wonder what has made you join this group.
Anyway, I insist, Love and lots of Light for you.
the world is not sugar coated nor it needs to be, it is rather suffering from lack of compassion and actual kindness to those whose lifes are challenged.
kinda harsh Reiz but you no longer surprise in your comments.......................
Im sorry Reiz, fact and opinion is just that. I dont want to fight. But someones opinion is based on their factual experience. We can always agree when understanding the term of "facts and opinions" as really the same, that way we will agree in accepting that your opinion is your fact, and only opinion to me. Does this make sense, or is my understanding deluded. It is when you try and put someone else's opinion into your own facts, that create splinters or constant disputes on opinions. This is why I tell my children "Respect" exists, when we respect each other, we can respect each others opinions or factual experiences. Science is not the only division that decides what is fact or not, Science is just a grouped agreement, of whats been observed and what the results have yielded, even in this department fact is distorted by the human being, look at Einstein and Bohr debates are an excellent example of this. Everyone should go read up on those debates. So your truth is yours and others truths are their own. My opinions are derived from truth as they are derived from my experiences, you truths are obviously what you have been taught through social conditioning and are still someone else's. Mwah (P.S I remember saying everything you are currently saying) It will change, the longer we have these debates.