Fellow ACC members, brothers and sisters of the Golden Age,
this weekend turned GNARLY ugly sad car wreck feelings
my wife finally broke down and told me that all the OFF THE WALL stuff I am into...
books on Arcturians, Syrians, Pleiadians and Jesus,
Archangel Michael, cosmic Websites with Angels, scattered addresses on my desk, one of which is Bill Brockbader's Jail address so I can write to him, video tapes on Alex Jones
and my constant leaking from my mind,
dribbling statements about how the IRS is going to be gone soon or that the Federal Reserve is going down, vanishing along with humanity's need for money.
oh oh oh,and
and the out of your fucking mind statements about Bush and Blair tried for being War Criminals and going to jail soon...the seminars I sign up for that are SPIRITUAL Woo woo...she thinks David Wilcock looks like a lunatic...my hero..she calls a lunatic...
.So I have been HEART/slammed like a force against a steel wall,
the force of an enraged VENUS, a terrified female/wife/mother/mate.
She says our 12 year old daughter is also scared and they are both watching me get farther and farther away from them, a vast divide opening wider and wider...
HER SUFFERING, FEAR, ATTACHMENT, CONFUSION AND BEING MOSTLY LOST in a sea of worry of LACK, that if she loses her husband, the bread winner, she loses her security. Her love for me suddenly sits second fiddle to her overwhelming state of terror, as she watches me change before her.
How many others are going through the same sudden family meltdown?
I was told by my spiritual mentor from Santa Fe. not to count on anything like an EVENT to suddenly happen that would likely let her finally see that I am telling the truth,
no, I was told, EVERYTHING IS AS IT SHOULD BE...... that who am I to Question GOD and his timing?
Does GOD wear a wristwatch? This is GOD"S BUSINESS, not mine, so focus on my own light.
She also said for me to take a FAST from the internet,
and devote myself entirely to the spirit of my 12 yr old daughter, who is torn and confused and also terrified, not so much of what I am alluding to in the skies above us,
but terrified of a break up of her parents.
I am advised to write on paper, letters to the souls of my two girls, and explain what I am becoming,
and how they will soon find peace and bounty, etc etc...whatever I want to say..
....then I am to ask Jesus to take the messages to their souls when I burn the paper I write the letters on..
burn them,and know that their suffering souls at least got the message I wanted to tell them.
I am advised to DISENTANGLE MYSELF from the Dark, to pay attention only to the light,
and to shine as bright as I can,
and not to become distracted...either by the internet or the suffering of the soul of my wife,
for I am not to water her garden, but to stay on my side of the garden fence.
Tend your own garden, as each soul tends to their side of the road and theirs only.
Her soul never gave me permission to try and change her, or awaken her.
But in my egoistic, paternal and loving manner, I want her suffering to end NOW,( I also do not want to move out of my home!)
so I pray for an EVENT NOW, please GOD...if she changes Grrrrrrreat! If she looks up and sees a light display of 100 flying saucers over Manhattan, and says...those silly weather balloons again...then I know its time to split.
Dear GOD, I can feel the pressure building up, its causing the water to vibrate around me as
I tred water in this churning Matrix and getting all GNARLY. Its like a the biggest BOMB ever is just about to blow now, like any day, any hour, any minute. Take a deep breathe I know..
Insulting again...who's more pathetic, the one who needs some support from his brethen or the one who insults. You talked about fearing someone who puts across ideas different from yours, that would make you a coward also. Are you afraid of this change? calm down, we've already suffered the worst.
Rlmstudio is not acting like a child, he's a man torn for having to choose between the two things I guess he loves most, family and spiritual path. I still think is very possible to have both, just a matter of working it out.
I'm not judging anybody, don't think we should, for we don't know all the reasons and we are in this group to help each other, and the rest of the world, through LOVE,
I send you some Reiz.
A little harsh there, reiz. We should do all things in the energy of love.
:)) Reiz, I am a seasoned warrior for all my incarnations. And, I tell you now, there is no stronger energy, or magic than that of love. Not emotional love, but real love, the energy of love. You are judging a situation you know nothing about. The judgment is the problem.
Mistaken "Warrior" definition here. The term first used, was the word "Samurai", discovered and translated by an Englishmen, and it does not mean killing, that is a modern terminology often used to mistaken soldiers or pawns for warrior status. The best way to understand this term is to look at ancient or native cultures, such as "Toltec Teachings", it explains and defines the real meaning of warrior. Samurai, means to serve and protect those in nobility or higher realms, killing (which they did) does not feature anywhere in the definition, warrior nature is even a term often used in sports. Warrior always knows in advance what his opponents next move would be, therefore creating an environment that does not necessarily equate to killing or war, but rather skillful negotiations. I to, am a true Warrior, its in my nature, and yes its a balanced life everyday, as our past warrior abilities do make you want to put some out of their worlds if they do not comply, its strength to opt for the negotiation process and skill. I believe, taken from the movie "Legacy" if you must, that, "Some of us do what God tells us, and some of us give God what he needs".
So everyone advising rlmstudio, is doing so, from either their experiences or just a place of love. It is clear to me that he is not neglecting his family, but rather the nature in which has caused divorce rate to rocket even outside of our awakening moments. Often partners look or wait for the opportunity to leave their partners, such as an excuse, as they are not in love in the first place. So rather his wife being honest about her feelings, she blames his awakening, as if she loved him for who he is, she could let his awakening slide. Lets remember that its not the awoken one leaving here, but the other asking him to leave, that is evident in itself.
So rlmstudio, you have a lot more digging to do here, with regards to your wife. You need to ask her Why? would these beliefs make her run from you, if these beliefs constitute who you are. Ask her if it is more than your awakening, and possible not her own agenda's. Lots of appreciation to all XOXOXOXOXOXOXOXOXOXO.
p.s Went through this, but my hubby wanted to stay and hear more, even though he is not a believer. I love him, he loves me, this made all the difference. Stay strong.
how the hell can a bond break ????????????????
it never ever does
or does it ?????? you sound like you know something ??
i would like to hear your experience please
you are obviously speaking of yourself, since you seem to know me so well. You are a so off the mark of this discussion, I wonder what has happened to you to make you so full of rage? Im not interested in your answer, just put it out there for you to think about Reiz.
I Believe that You assume much my BroStar Reiz...<3<3<3
r u a non believer ?
or a day dream believer ?
you choose .................
I dont have voices, just a life of real 3D experiences. I also dont expect you take my meaning of "warrior" to heart, its a meaning thats true to me. We have changed the meanings of words and what they represent, many times throughout history to suit what ever fitted. Very fortunate for me, that by the time I found this page, a lot of my 3D drama's were sorted, and I came here, not to fix myself, but to start working and help those of light create the change. BUT, there is a lot, that are new to this awakening and experience very high emotions and thoughts all over the place, they need grounding not slandering. You dont see me going off telling all those that act as mediums and channels that they are lying, or coward, or splinters or broken links in the chain, just because this has not been my experience or I know nothing of that. I respect, what they are telling me as their experiences, but when there is a call for help, WE WILL HELP.
I Agree Whole-Heartedly SiStar GodDess Melanie!!!...Compassion is called for here by those who do not yet know it never mind have the Wisdom of It....lol...<3<3<3
I pray for your tormented soul Reiz.