I don't know what's happening, or why this is happening, but for the last few days, or few weeks really, I've been feeling very pressurized all over my body, and especially my heart chakra area. It's very uncomfortable, you feel heavy and it's hard to breathe properly. I can't sing, or dance, it's taken away my rhythm. I can't really feel much, and it's put me in a very mind state...stuck in the physical, and feeling very masculine. I honestly never felt so masculine before..and I don't like being that way. I try to feel and connect with my heart, but it's hard because my heart feels pressurized.
You know, there's different key places on the body that are important, and if these places are blocked...or "locked" as I call it, then energy doesn't flow so freely and it's hard to have real clarity. You have your head, where your ears are, and your temples...the mouth and jaw...basically the whole head itself. You have your shoulders and chest area...front and back. You have your core, or heart area, front and back. You have your hips, and your tailbone...and also you have your arms and legs, hands and feet...and it's a bit different for these but it's the same principal.
It's important to have all these places, free and loose and "unlocked", for true balance and clarity. Both physical and inner balance, and clarity of thought and feeling. It's really what makes the difference between someone like Michael Jackson, who's body was completely unlocked and loose and light...and people you see on the street, who you can just see have locked bodies. They can't dance or sing or have any rhythm, there's no flow...they don't think or feel clearly....they're blocked and locked. In fact most people are like that lol
And for the most part, I've always been unlocked, or depressurized...but for some reason, the last few days or weeks, slowly but surely, every part of my body started becoming locked..one day I was singing and I just felt the nerves in my head change and lock up, and I couldn't really sing anymore. Not good anyway. One day I was typing and I felt the nerves in my hands change and become out of balance. One day I was lying down and I felt my hips and tailbone lock up. And now, it's my heart and core area feeling locked and pressurized.
It's very frustrating, because I don't know what's going on. Is anyone else having some type of problem like this? Where you feel your body becoming pressurized, or locked. Is this an ascension symptom? Someone help me out :S
The only time I've ever felt like this was in an unhealthy relationship, either romantically or say a job. Certain people who have a lot of first ray energy and are very demanding can cause over masculinity to compensate and try to cope with the situation. Or, perhaps the reverse is possible in the relationship where one would be over feminine and playing the role as the woman. I can remember one particular job that I worked at where I would desire the company of women a lot because they helped me connect again with the divine mother. It was a longing to feel my heart work again, because at that time I was on such a defensive state trying to deal with the pressure. I feel it's feel unhealthy to have a closed heart, as I feel the heart (love) is actually the immune system for the physical body. I don't know if this helps or answers your question but this is my experience from what I've felt when I've been over masculine or had an under active heart. My advice would be to get out in nature or connect with women and feel their energy so you can get back in balance.
Yea I think I'm a first ray, I'm very demanding...ask my girlfriend lol That's actually been causing some problems for us, she doesn't like feeling controlled or critiqued...but at the same time, she doesn't really know what she's doing half the time, or sometimes she can be immature...so I try to steer her on the right course, and she resists. So it's been causing some problems for us, and I've been stressed...so many that has something to do with it.
As for connecting with my feminine..well you know, I'm a very extreme person...I can be very masculine and very feminine. I have a strong sense of power and love. So there's never been a real problem with connecting to my feminine side, except lately...because my heart core area feels pressurized and it blocks feelings. So I don't think what you said really relates to me all that much....but thanks for trying, and congratulations on connecting to your feminine side - thumbs up -
Well, I've learned trying to change my partner or giving them advice, almost like I was their counselor, was the wrong thing to do.
Your heart is blocked from receiving love, hence the pressure feeling.
Well I don't think that's true at all. Despite how I may appear here on this site, people who know me in real life know I'm a very kind person. And I know I feel alot of love in my heart and I'm often very heart felt. I can just also be very powerful and strong as well. So I don't think my heart chakra is blocked because I block love and feelings...not at all. It's this pressurization that's doing it really, and I don't like it specifically because it blocks my heart when I don't want my heart to be blocked.
As for my girlfriend, you may be right. I've learned that lesson lol To just...not judge her for her mistakes, and not try to be her dad. That's what it is, I find myself parenting her sometimes. But I do that for most people lol Even people here on this site.
No lol That's not what's happening. And believe me, I'm not a person who blocks my feelings, or thinks that having feelings is weak. It's totally the opposite. I think people who are stuck in their mind, and repress their feelings and don't let themselves feel much because they think feelings and emotions are bad or weak, those are the people who have it backwards. I know that lol I understand how feeling and being leads to true realizations, and really is the key to ascension.
And we're told that all the time, be in your heart, connect with your heart, that's all you need to do really to ascend. And it's alot more than just feeling love, it's having a real realization, from the heart level, from deep within your being...of love and unity and our own divinity and connection with God. Basically no one is there yet that I know of, but I know that's what we need to do to really ascend.
Real ascension isn't in the mind lol You don't need to learn all these advanced concepts and universal secrets and structures to ascend. Having an advanced consciousness is nice, sure, it's important sure, but that's not how you ascend, that's not what spirituality is all about, spirituality is a heart thing. Alot of beings out there, races...who have tremendous minds and expanded consciousness...but they aren't ascended because they don't have a real connection to their heart.
I understand how important the heart is, believe me lol That's why it's frustrating that I have these pressures, because it blocks my feelings and takes away my clarity.
Yes this is the first time...and I've had blocks before lol This isn't a block, it's like pressurization. There's a soreness too, a tension...it's very weird. But...oh well lol I'll just tough it out and hopefully it goes away.
Um..I think maybe that's true....I do like to get what I want, and it's hard to take no for an answer. I think that's part of the lesson, because I've been almost angry at the universe and even God...for doing this to me against my will. But I know there's a lesson here, and I think it involves...just letting go...not trying to control so much, surrender my will to the will of higher powers...which isn't easy lol Because I end up thinking, well who are you to control my life, this is my life. But I know it's rather foolish to question Gods wisdom...so I guess I'll have to go with it. Thanks Sky :)
John, I don't exactly know what background you come from, but to say that God controls us, or does something against our will, is rooted in Christianity. God doesn't control anyone. His help is there if we need it, but if we refuse that's on us.
I used to know Christians (myself included) who gave power to that idea because it was comforting to know that there was no responsibility. It's true there is a need for surrender but this is a choice - it's called owning your power and simultaneously surrendering to the will of God.
Well somebody's doing something lol I sense that. I really feel like there's some force that's doing this. Again, I'll just be typing on the computer, normally, like I've done a thousand times, and suddenly, out of the blue, I'll feel the nerves in my hands change and disconfigure. I didn't do that lol I know you might say you're avoiding responsibility, but I really don't think I am. Some force beyond my control is making this happen.
And I think whoevers doing it, probably is doing it for just that reason, like you said, to surrender. To give up my desire for power and control, and leave things in Gods hands, or the hands of higher powers. I'm realizing that now, just by talking to you guys, so thanks for helping me with that :)
exactly, honest self analysis can work wonders
Yes that's sort of how it feels, like a carrying around a block of concrete in my heart, it's heavy. And fighting it does make it worse. But actually I find myself able to control it sometimes, like I'll will it to go away. But then it comes back again, and that's when I get angry at God, or the universe...for putting this on me, again, when I'm not doing anything. I don't feel in control lol And I guess that's part of the lesson, to surrender my will and desire for control, to God.
Well thanks for taking the time to write to me and help me, HCB :) I'll take your advice and do that inner work.